Well, I have been applying for jobs for almost 2 months now. I have had 3 interviews but no call backs. I am pretty much completely discouraged - depressed, and I feel like a complete and utter loser.
On top of that, I may be about to start - because I have been pretty emotional lately. On Monday, I called JR to tell him about Alexa having her baby. I guess I was talking a lot or something...but I was talking about how hard it is to remember how small newborns are, how I miss nursing...anyway - he kind of snapped at me and told me that we werne't having anymore kids. Now, really I was just feeling nolstagic - I wasn't trying to hint at another baby..hello, my baby isn't even 1 yet!!! But it was just the way he said it, and it really upset me. I think I have mentioned a few times before that I am not prepared to have a another child right now or anytime soon. I came to the conclusion a while back ago that if we never have another child, I would be quite content with the two marvelous children that I have - but if somewhere down the road (i.e. 3-5 years) we wanted to have another one - that door wouldn't be shut. So, the way he snapped at me, and said some things just really hurt. So, I just got off the phone with him - I cried for a few minutes and he called back to ask what was wrong and why I got off the phone with him - I told him I just hadn't realized he had completely shut the door on another child. I mean, I tell people that we are done having kids all the time...but I guess I always knew that the door was completely closed for me. I dont know - like I said I am emotional!
Yesterday was a strange day too - I cried at stupid shows, I ran to the store and cried through an entire country song...and not just oh, that's a sad song...but full on crying! Not to mention that EVERY thing that JR said to me irritated me. I dont know why - he wasn't being mean or annoying or anything - I was just in a strange mood and everything he did got on my nerves. So here comes Wednesday - filling out more applications - still trying to figure out some things for Landry's party...getting a little scared at how close it is - I wanted to get a moonwalk for all the kids...but I am a little scared - because Landry can't even walk...Logan will have a blast as well as the other 9 kids that are supposively coming, but I am not sure where to put it because I wanted to put it in the backyard with the playscape - but the ground isn't very level, and I dont really want to put it in the front yard. So that is still up in the air - BUT I need to make a decision FAST to make the reservation! Then I need to make some goody bags for the kids - but I dont know what to put in a goody bag! LOL - Anyway, I am not a good party planner - I am just proud of myself for getting the invites out in time...LOL
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put candy, stickers, pencils, rubber bouncy balls, maybe a rubber ducky. What is her party theme?
yeah....I was going to go with stickers, and I was looking for a little mini coloring book set, and some crayons. I like the bouncy ball idea!! Good one! I am worried about candy, because I dont know what kind of candy kids eat....but, I guess its the parents job to sort that out, right. I can just put some in there, and if the parents doesn't want their kid to have the candy they can take it out, right?
Her theme is disney princesses!
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