grrr...

Well, I haven't said anything about this yet, but here goes...Landry's party was on Saturday. My sister and her kids ended up staying the night and stayed ALL DAY Sunday. I remember thinking over and over - please go home...but I didn't say anything. As time went on I got more and more irritated. Then when she took a nap and left JR and I to watch her kids, my irritation grew to anger. They FINALLY left a little after 5...I was so glad. Finally I was able to take a little nap. So about 8:00 I went upstairs to get my phone that was on the charger when I see that I have just recieved a text...from Randi. It says, "Hey sister, the kids and I need a place to stay. Mom told me to get my shit and get out." So let me just say...I have no patience at this point, I dont want to deal with this...WHY can't they just work it out and not put me in the middle? But, she is my sister...and I will never let one of my family members sleep out on the street. So, as I walk downstairs to talk to JR about this, my mom sends me a message through facebook that says, "Are you inviting your sister to live with you?" I stop...my irritation grows - I am pretty much boiled over and my patience is completely gone. I do NOT want to deal with a 47 years old and a 29 year old who can't seem to grow up and handle their own problems. So as all these thoughts scream through my brain I finally get ALMOST all the way downstairs when my phone rings...its my mom. I look at JR and say, "This isn't going to be good." I can't even remember the entire conversation because I was so mad. But, I remember my mom threatening me saying that if I let Randi stay then our relationship was over. And then came threat TWO...If you let her through your door, your keeping her.
That is where I lost all reason - I blew up. I remember saying, "You are NOT going to threaten me." "Ya'll need to work this out." "You will NOT tell me who I can and can not have at my house." "She isn't my responsibility, she is an adult who should be on her own...but you have enables her behavior and allowed her to continue on this path. She is YOUR responsibility not mine." I dont remember how it came out I just remember saying these things...and i will admit...I YELLED these things. I ended up hanging up on her. I handled everything really really badly...I have no excuse other than I was tired, worn out, and irritated to begin with -but still I should have handled it better.
To even the score, my sister called and I went off on her too...not as badly as I did my mom..But I told her she needed to grow up. I told her that if she really thought she could raise her kids without the help of my parents then she was delusional. She likes to put off this persona that she doesn't need them or anyone else..so I say to her, "Let's think about this. You dont pay rent, electricity, water, trash...nothing! You pay NO bills except your car note, $30 phone, and insurance...and after that and your gas, you have no money left. Trust me - YOU CAN NOT DO IT ALONE." Then I told her, "Stop spending money on pot, you dont have to drink EVERYDAY - put some of that money in savings and really work on getting out on your own." The truth is, she has no plans on leaving...why would she - I mean yeah, she has to deal with mom....but other than that - she has a pretty sweet deal!
To top all of this off...they have now reconciled....but both are PISSED off at me! HAHAHAHA Wouldn't you know it! I have nothing to do with their stupid fight...they each drag me into the middle of the damn fight...and because I didn't pet their feathers and tell them how wonderful they are - I am the bad guy, and they are pissed at me! STORY OF MY LIFE!
AWESOME!
Seriously...I am ready to just completely do away with all of my family and JR's family....
Why can't we just have a few normal members??? Well, actually we do! And I should say right now how thankful I am to have my Dad and my little sister Vanessa! I love them so much.
Some other family that I want to say thank you for... Dana - you might as well be my sister - I love you! Nikki, Travis, Aiden - you guys are like our favorite cousins that we grew up with. We dont have to talk everyday or even every week, but you will always be part of our lives. We love you too!