Tuesday, October 19, 2010

A love letter

What do you say to someone so small? Someone who doesn't really understand your words at all. I say, "I love you," of course. We all do. But here is something you can read later to get you through.
My beautiful little girl,
I can not begin to tell you the amount of love I have for you. You are the sun, the moon, and the stars. You are my everything. As time goes by, and believe me it goes by too fast, there will be twists and turns along the path. There are so many things that I want for you. I want you to be healthy and happy. I want you to find something you love in life and go for it full force. I want you to find someone you can give your whole heart to and in return they will give your theirs. All of these things will come later in life and I can't wait to see you blossom over the years. Even though you are still a baby I often think about the future you. I think about what you will look like at 5, with your big blue eyes and curly red hair just past your shoulders. I think about you at 15, with your teenage attitude, rolling those big blue eyes at me and telling me that I dont understand. I promise you that I do, I have been there before - but you dont believe me, just as I didn't believe my mother. I think of you at your highschool graduation, while tears stream my face with such love and admiration for the woman you are becoming, you are just excited to branch out on your own. I think of you at you college graduation and I see your own pride - in yourself, in your family, and in life. The next part gets harder, because I see your daddy walking you down the aisle, I hear the minister asking who gives you away, and your daddy replying, "Her mother and I do." I hear your voice on the other end of the telephone telling me, "it's time, mom. I'm in labor." I will be screaming at your father to hurry up, and then I will be right by your side as this journey comes full circle and you have your own little baby.
While I realize that we have a good 17 more years together before you embark on life on your own, I know that it all goes so fast. It feels like I was just at the hospital giving birth to you and now you are a year old. You are already getting so big. It is such a strange thing, being a mother...part of my heart is breaking because the time goes by so fast, and soon will not want the hugs and kisses and cuddles. The other larger part of my heart is just so proud ans how you have developed over this past year and looking forward I am already proud of your future accomplishments. There is nothing you could EVER do to lose my love. You are my princess. I will love you until the sun no longer rises.
A few things you can do:
You can say: Mama, Dada, Baba (we are pretty sure you use this for both "bottle" and "brother"), nana (which is night night)
you can crawl faster than any baby I have ever seen, you are working on walking and can cruise quite nicely. In fact you are great at walking as long as you can hold on to something.
You can stand up all on your own.
You are a magnificent dancer, just like your mommy!
You are a wonderful eater
You have the kindest, sweetest heart.
There is so much more, I am so incredibly proud of you, and I love you more than I can express in words.

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