beautiful life

Yesterday, my baby boy turned 5. 5??? Time seriously seems to be flying by at break neck speed. The night before his birthday JR and were talking about how much life has change over the last 5 years. I don't think anyone can prepare you for becoming a mom for the first time. I am 6 years older than my baby sister, so she was always treated as my own personal baby doll. I baby sat from the time I was 12. I worked at a day care in the infant room for a whole summer. I was a teacher's aide for 3 years working with 2nd, 3rd, and 4th graders. I had been around kids my whole life. When I got pregnant I joined some mom chats online, I read just about every book I could get my hands on - TWICE...and yet nothing could prepare me for the true role of mom. No one can explain to you how it feels to have your heart triple in size with the love for your child the second he cries for the first time. It's funny that I have told other first time moms that no matter how much you love your husband, your love for him will double when you have a child together...for me that is so true, and every time I see him interacting with the kids, my heart warms and my love grows. I have such a beautiful life. I am so incredibly blessed, I know that I can complain a lot sometimes, but in the grand scheme of things I don't know if my life could be more perfect.

Logan -
What can I say that I haven't already said a million times? I love you so much. No matter how old you get, you will always be my baby boy. You are growing at the spped of light and will probably be my heighth or taller in another 5 years! You have taught me so much about being a mom, but also about being a person in general. You have opened my heart in ways I had forgotten about. You are my angel, my baby, my "best friend".

Right now you are in to baseball. You had t-ball practice this morning and you are so much more focused than last year.
You love you nintendo DS, and your new game, Yoshi's Island, has been a huge hit.
You love going to school to play with your friends and you often tell me you wish you could go every day...little do you know, that wish will be becoming a reality in just 5 months.
You are so in love with your baby sister that it truly makes me smile. You are so gentle with her (most of the time). Even when you get annoyed with her, it rarely lasts long. You like to help me out in the kitchen and when giving me directions on how to get to McDonalds! Your newest favorite food is pancakes...and lucky for you I can actually make them!!! You love your computer games and shopping on Disney.com. You are really into lego heroes and super heroes, and just recently Tom and Jerry. You are such a well rounded kid. I love you so much and I wish time would slow down a bit. I miss you being so tiny (even though you were NEVER actually tiny, since you 9 lbs. 6 oz. at birth). At one point I held you and rocked you, and though I will always hold you and rock you, you are now half my size. I hope you continue to be the compassionate, thoughtful, loving young man that you are now. You and you sister are the best part of me. You are the light in the dark and will always shine so brightly!