not crying over thrown away milk

Today I did something that was a little hard!!! I threw out nearly 200 ounces of stored breastmilk! I didn't really have a choice....the 3 month mark was expired! I almost threw away the rest, seeing as how I dont use it...except on the rare occasion that JR and I go out! Anyway, I wasn't sad to see it go - I could use the freezer space, but it was a little hard to think that all that hard work just went down the drain! I kind of wish I would have looked into hospital donation or something...at least then some little baby would be getting it...but then again, it is a little strange! Anyway, In a wierd way, I feel like I should start pumping again to make up for what was lost. At the same time, I realize that the reason it wasn't used is because I have no use for it...Landry eats from the boob every time she's hungry - so she has no use for stored milk! There is a small part of me that wants to start transitioning her to the bottle...I am not quite ready for formula, but maybe if I started pumping again, and she ate from a bottle - I could get a little help from JR! There are a couple of things wrong with this idea though...1 - I HATE pumping and 2 - although it would be nice once in a while to get a break, I am just not ready to stop yet! 98% of the time I love nursing her. THere is that 2% that happens about once a week though that I just think...gosh, I just want to be able to sit through an entire meal with out having to rush - or to stop eating half-way through in order to feed the baby....or when I am sooooo exhausted and I just want to go to bed or stay asleep instead of feeding the baby. Anyway, like I said, for the most part I really enjoy nursing...and until I am to the point where I am at 2% loving it and 98% ready to stop or she reaches the age of 1 (whichever comes first) I am going to count my blessings and enjoy it! Maybe when I run out of all the stored milk, then I will think about pumping again - but I have a couple of months before that- so I am just putting it off in the back of my mind! LOL
Yesterday I took the kids over to my sister-in-law's house and we all went to a place called Pump it Up. I put some pictures on Facebook under the January album - so take a look! Logan and Davin had soooooooo much fun, and I have decided to start taking Logan every Monday! Basically, it is a giant room with 4 moonwalks in it. There is one for just bouncing, another for bouncing with this little hill in the middle of it, another one with a HUGE slide, and another one with a smaller, yet steeper, slide and some little pay areas all around it! It was really awesome! Now, if you know me, you know that my nickname is "The Fun Police". I am a very cautious person - and when it comes to safety, I tend to be a little over-protective. So anything that seems like there is a remote possibility of getting hurt, I tend to get a little antsy! So when Lisa invited us to go with her - I was a little skeptical! But, To my surprise - Logan had an amazing time! He was so good and listened so well, I was so proud of him! THere was one little incident that I had to get on to another little boy....He pushed Logan. I wanted to climb to the top of the slide and push him back - but instead I just looked at him, smiled, and said, "Hey sweetie, we can't push. It isn't nice and someone could get hurt, okay." He quickly turned and said he was sorry to Logan! Kids are kids! Some of the parents just let the kids run around and play, and maybe after more trips I will be that way....probably not! Lisa and I took turns going with the kids. Since, I had Landry, whoever wasn't with the kids, was holding her! Anywho, I cant wait to go back next week! It was such a blast!