Wednesday, September 30, 2009

A few lessons I have recently learned

#1 I have control issues......that I can't seem to let go!
#2 Although throwing dishes across the room makes you feel better at the time....the hour it takes to clean the broken glass only pisses you off more!
#3 I do more than my husband realizes
#4 My husband does more than I realize
#5 At 9 months pregnant, I seem to like everyone EXCEPT my husband, except when he wants to do something without me, and then I am extremely emotional and can't understand why he never wants to do anything with me!
#6 I miss my mom more than I ever imagined possible
#7 I am more like my mom than I ever imagined possible
#8 My son is the most amazing person in the world, and can always bring a smile to my face.
#9 There are days that my husband has less patience than I do...If I want him to cut me some slack here and there, I should do the same for him
#10 No matter how hard I try, there are some things that I can not change....but I am to stubborn to stop trying!

Monday, September 28, 2009

I tell you no lies...

quickly before I head to bed...it is almost midnight!
JR brought home two large bags full of baby clothes today....I figured it would be an assortment of newborn and up but was shocked to find that very little of it goes above the newborn size...there are very few 3-6 month and maybe two 6-9 month outfits. WOW! So I am pretty set on clothes! LOL!
To the point....at 8:30 I asked JR to help me out around the house...asked him to pick up a few things in the living room (these are all Logan's toys, that he is determined to keep bringing into the living room!) JR has been nursing a bad toothache since Saturday night and says it isn't getting better....I told him today to call the dentist and make an appointment. In my opinion, it cant hurt THAT bad if you aren't willing to do anything about it! I told him I would call around tomorrow and make an appointment for him...but, I am not going to...I have changed my mind. He is a grown man, he needs to do some things on his own! UGHHHH Anyway, at 10 I told him it was time for Logan's bath...He replied with "there's only 3minutes left in the game....I started trying to get all the baby stuff put away. He finally went and filled the tub, and put Logan in and since Logan was right next to me, JR returned to the computer! After a while, I asked him again to please help...he didn't.Then 30 minutes ago, he got Logan out of the tub, and went and laid in his bed. Logan was still running around, I asked if he had any intention of helping me and his response was, "not this late at night" REALLY???? So, he gets to stay up until when ever he feels like it so that he can get on facebook and watch a football game, but he cant help out around the house because its too late? I then asked if this is what I had to look forward to...me raising the kids by myself, while he lays around...his response was, "yep, at least for the next couple of night (because of his toothache)" It took everything I had to not burst into tears. I feel like he has absolutely no respect for me sometimes. I am so pissed right now!
I have a huge respect for single mothers...raising children while also supporting a family financially. Although, I dont work...yet....I feel like a single parent sometimes. This is apparently an issue that JR and I will never see eye to eye on, and it doesn't look like he is going to give an inch....the problem is, I have already given a mile, and I am NOT compromising anymore! I am not going to stop believing that he should be helping out more and he isn't ever going to come to the conclusion that he should have to help out...So YEA! Bring on the next 50 years of this! Oh how fun.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

21 Days to go

I am down to just 3 more weeks! 21 more days and I will finally have my baby! WOOHOO!

Yesterday turned out to be far more busy/traumatic than I anticipated. My appointment with the doctor was at 11:00, I was there by 10:30. Logan actually slept most of the way which I thought was odd. I have officially gained 40 pounds---HOLY COW---26 pounds really wasn't difficult to lose, but 40???? I am in for some hard work! Anyway, I saw the doctor and went through the whole song a dance...my doctor wasn't there, which they let me know a few days in advance, but I chose to keep the appt. anyway. Once again, there was difficulty finding the heart beat...which IS STILL a little freaky, I dont know how or why but for some reason it takes them forever to find it, but I can feel her moving all around while they are searching. Are these the first signs of a difficult daughter??? The nurse noticed my shreck like leg (the right one) She asked a bunch of questions and made it a point to bring it up to the doctor, who then asked me many of the same questions, then measured both calves. My right one is 3 cm larger than my left. Then came the concerned faces....meanwhile my child is kicking the wall over and over and over again, throwing his car and repeating, Mama, Mama, Mama, Mama. He doesn't stop until I acknowledge him, which he then proceeds to tell me some jibber jabber, in which I respond and try to get back to why the doctor is looking at me that way. Turns out she thinks I may have developed a blood clot in my leg and sends me to a Vascular surgeon in Friendswood to get an ultrasound of my leg. I drive over there only to find out that the office I have been sent to doesn't even have an ultrasound machine. Have I mentioned that Logan is being a pain, I have lost my patience, I cry the whole way there, tell JR that I cannot possibly take Logan to another appt. by myself, and he is sitting in his car seat screaming! Anyway, so this office sends me to the Vascular department at the University Hospital Clinic in Galveston! It is 2:15 when I get there...Logan is still behaving badly and I notice that his cheeks are flushed...It then hits me that he might not be feeling so great and this could be attributing to his behavior. I feel his head....HE'S burning up! WOW! I am not winning the mommy of the year award. I go into guilt mode, thinking of every time I raised my voice or threatened to spank...what kind of mother am I, I didn't even notice my son was sick! I get the ultrasound done, it is clear...no blood clot...great news, I then go to the pediatric dept. No, I dont have an appt. but I think my son is sick, I am already there, can you take a look at him. The doc. takes a look, says he COULD be coming down with a mild cough, but he doesn't have a fever and if he is getting sick, I have caught it very early. Ummmm.....tell that to my child who has been begging me to notice ALL DAY, I am sure he has a different opinion about me catching it early!
Finally, I went to my mother-in-laws house to pick up the puppies, got them home, snuggled with Logan, gave him some tylenol cough and then cooked dinner....yeah I didn't get home until 6 - so It was a very long day, and I didn't even get to do the things I needed to get done....
So, since I didn't get a chance to stop by the post office in La Marque...I will be calling them today! I am so irritated about the mail!
Well, Happy Thursday everyone!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Rainy Day

Hmmm... the swelling in my right foot has gotten pretty bad, I am happy to be going to the doctor tomorrow, although I am sure she will just tell me its normal. I have also been getting up much more to go to the bathroom during the night...I know that I could cut down on these trips if I would stop taking a glass of water with me to bed, but I wake up and I am so incredibly thristy. I would rather wake up every hour to pee than to be that thristy. JR has a hard time sleeping when the air isn't being circulated and the new house doesn't have ceiling fans (except in the living room) so we use a floor fan, that really helps, but now he is comlaining that it dries out his throat! I am wondering if that is why I am so thirsty, I also wonder if it is the fan or if he is coming down with something! I have gained so much weight, that I literally haven't stepped on the scale since my last appointment, 2 weeks ago, and I keep putting it off. Tomorrow I go back to the doctor...I am not excited about having to drive so far in the rain, but oh well...Only 3 more weeks from Thursday! After my appointment tomorrow I am heading to Galveston...first I am stopping at the La Marque Post Office to see if I can find out what is going on with our mail. I am getting very irritated every time I get a phone call or email from a friend or family member asking if I have received their card....ummmm, nope I haven't. The mail is supposed to be being forwarded to the new address, but that is not the case. I have sent out several thank you cards, I just hope those are making their way out since things dont seem to be coming in...except for the bills of course! After the post office, I will probably go see my grandmother for a bit, and then I am going to my Mother-in-laws to get Dezi Lu and the puppies. THey are going to be staying here for a week (until next wednesday) so that people can come look at them and to give Carol a little break. I am so excited to have them here. I love them all so much I dont want to let them go. Anyway, it will be a busy day. Today I am going to clean the floors, and try to take it easy...right after I go run some errands...ughh... I am already sleepy just thinking of it all...plus the rainy weather always makes me want to sleep!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Weekend update

Saturday turned out to be a long day, but it was good. I got up at 5:45 am to shower and cook breakfast for the family. We ate all got dressed then ate and got on the road. We went to a Mom's of Twins sale in La Porte....first let me just say, we got there at 8:15 and the place was packed...JR got cut off in the parking lot and you should have seen the people jumping out of their cars hurrying to get their kids in strollers and running in. Also, as we drove through the parking lot we saw several people already loading their cars to leave! I thought, oh man! What did I get us in to? It was a really neat experience, I love going to little things like that, and for the most part everyone was very respectful, but there were a few who were pushing you over just to get to a particular item! Anyway, I took $100 in an effort to get some last minute things for the baby, I ended up only spending $12 and a dollar of it was for Logan! HA!
Afterwards we headed to La Marque and visited with our friends Nikki, Travis and Aiden. I got to hold him for a good bit, I love that little baby! It was still early in the morning when we got there, so I felt bad stopping by, but it was great to get to hang out with them. JR got to see their new TV and I once again tried to get Logan to react to me holding a little baby...NOTHING!
We left there and went to my grandmother's house. We ate Michael Burger for lunch....LOVE that place! Basically I just spent time with her. It has been two months since my grandfather passed and she still cries daily. I feel so badly for her and I wish I could do more than just call and visit, but the only thing that would make her better is to have him back. I can't imagine what she is going through, after 60 years of being with the same person how is it possible to continue on?
From there we went to JR's mom's house to see the puppies. Logan got to see them for the first time and he really loved them...of course, his favorite is still Dezi Lu and he spent lots of time with her...they are just so cute together!
Finally we headed home and took some much deserved naps....it was 5:00! JR ended up going to a friends house that night for a guys night...I hate that I feel so jealous of him going, but I am glad he had fun...he finally got home around 4!
I put an ad on chron.com for the puppies in an effort to get them pre-sold so that the minute they are ready to go, they will all have homes to go to! My sister is getting a puppy, and we sold one to a very nice guy that we met on Sunday to get the deposit from. He has a nice house with a great yard, but said the dog would be an inside pet, which is great and he has two boys 10 and 12. I have another lady coming on Friday to look at them, her family really wants a girl. I was so surprised at how quickly and how many responses came through.
Anyway, we lounged around all day Sunday...watched the Texans! Woohoo! They won, and it was a great game, then we headed to Target. I have been waiting for my 10% off coupon to come in so I could buy some reamaining items, but it never did. I called the registry people and the said they sent it Aug. 31 and it take 7-10 days to get here...I guess it is another one of those things lost in the mail. I have several relatives who keep asking if I have received their card or gift, and I haven't because somehow, a lot of my mail is not being forwarded. I plan to give it until Wed. Then I will not only call the post office, but I will have to make a stop in La Marque to go directly to the source! GRRR! Target said they would resend the card, but ughh....I really wanted to make some purchases that day, and now I have to wait another 7-10 days. Oh well! Since I was there, and I wanted to do something, I went ahead and added a bunch of clothes to the registry...hahahaha, one, because when the card comes in, it will be 10% off, and two because I was bored!
That was it for this weekend...Logan and I got up at 8 this morning...looking forward to the afternoon nap! Going to a jewelry party tomorrow night with Tina, have a doctor's appointment and mail situation on Wed. Hopefully will have a play date Thursday and will meet with the lady about the puppy on Friday! Hopefully do some shopping next weekend!
Have a great week everyone!


Oh yeah....and Logan has been using the big boy potty....I wouldn't call him potty trained, yet...but he used it 3 times this weekend!!!

Friday, September 18, 2009

Good day or Bad day???

Logan is still sleeping and I am wondering what type of day Friday will bring. Yesterday, he was wonderful the day before he was a terror and the day before that he was wonderful...so should I be getting geared up for another bad day? He did have a few hiccups yesterday, he took my bio-oil and poured it all over 4 of his books! I was so mad that I had to walk away! I started crying and called JR who was kind enough to talk to me for about 10 minutes while I just bawled! after that we went to Lisa and Jasons so that he and his cousin Davin could have a play date! He did great there...I was nervous because of his behavior, but he was so good, he just played and played. I never got my grocery shopping done yesterday so, that is in the cards for today! Grrr... Tomorrow we will be heading down to our old stomping ground! Ha! We are going to a baby sale in La Porte, then we are going to hang out with some friends of ours, then stop by the old house to check the mail and stop by Nikki and Travis' to return the sander I borrowed to finish Landry's dresser, then we are headed to Galveston to see the puppies and then over to my Grandmother's house to spend some time with her! Whew! THEN, if Nikki and Travis are feeling any better we will go to dinner with them, and then we have to get back home to babysit Davin! Again....Whew! Talk about a busy day. Sunday I am pretty sure we will just stay home and sleep in and relaz all day! Sounds good!
I dont know if I said anything, but the swelling that started a while back ago, completely went away...in fact, I was all ready to show my doctor my feet about a month ago (she always looks for swelling) and the day I woke up to go see her....the swelling was gone! Anyway, it has come back full force....mainly just my right ankle, but I can feel the fluid retention in my calves as well. Grrrr. I have now officially stopped wearing my wedding band, but still wear my engagement ring (they are supposed to be the same size...but that's impossible since one still fits and the other doesn't!) I have 27 days left until Landry makes her way into the world. I am so excited! I hope we get lots of neat stuff this weekend. I was going to go by Target to get the carseat and stroller I registered for on Sunday, but since Saturday will be so busy I may wait until next week to do it. I am interested to see how my back seat will look with two car seats in it! Plus, I am trying to figure out how to arrange that, Do I put hers in the middle(the safest place) and his on one side, or do I put them each on their own side...A question I will be sure to ask my doctor and the people at babies r us. Anywho...thats it from me!
Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Hump Day!

Yesterday was AMAZING! I got so much of the dresser done...not all of it, but a lot! Woo hoo! Logan really hates loud noises (such as a sander or vacuum cleaner) but he quickly got over it! Even though it is still damp outside, Logan came out and played and played and played, He drove his car around the yard, he drew on the concrete with chalk, he had a blast! Time got away from me, so when I realized how hungry I was, it was already 1:00. Logan and I went in, and ate lunch. He helped me clean up and put the dishes in the dish washer, then we worked on some puzzles and read a book together. I decided not to give him a bath, I knew he would be going back outside after he woke up from his nap. By 2:00 he was asleep! Woo hoooooooo! I went back outside and worked more on the dresser. At 3:30 he woke up from his nap. All was well. He was such a good kid all day yesterday, I could actually envision myself with two of them and I built up a little confidence in myself as a parent! We went back out to play..I took special time to draw with him and play with him, then I let him go on his own while I went back to sanding. JR got home and was little help!! LOL Actually I think that Logan had such a good day with mommy that he just didn't want to leave my side. I could have really used JR's help in keeping Logan entertained while I cooked dinner, but it was a no go, and I had to cook with him under my feet the whole time! Even then, he was a great kid! Then we let him go diaper free for a bit, and low and behold he started holding his wee wee...I asked if he needed to go potty and he looked at me and said "yes" I was in shock, I took him to the potty and he actually went! WOW! Proud mommy moment. He had a bit of difficulty controlling his wee wee, so some of the pee went awry but, the point is...he went potty and was aware of the fact that he had to go!!! YAY for my big boy! Later he got his bath and he even let JR put him to bed!** All was good in the Luck House!
**Logan doesn't really do so well when JR puts him to sleep...he usually doesn't really fall asleep and then runs back and forth from his room to ours.....He actually went to sleep last night, but did wake up about 12 and come to me. I ended up having to lay with him until he fell back asleep!
Today, I was hoping to have a repeat of yesterday...Ummmmm! NOT SO MUCH! He has been crying all day, I can't figure out what he wants, he has been throwing fits. Ughhhh, all the confidence I gained yesterday has gone out the window! I am already worn out! (This has also put some perspective into why I get so tired...maybe it isn't just the pregnancy, maybe it has a lot to do with Logan!) It has been a very hard day and its only 12:20 Grrr! Hoping that it gets better....I want the Logan from yesterday back again! No, he isn't running a fever, he isn't sick, he got plenty of sleep...I am hoping he is just getting hungry...but it certainly doesn't explain him acting like this at breakfast!