So much..

There is so much going on right now...Some that I am so excited about, some that I am nervous about, stressed about, angry about, sad about, and some that fall into more than one of these categories. I am becoming a whale, and my back has officially started hurting, which sucks because I have been doing all these stretches in an effort to keep the aches away at least until the third trimester which is still over 5 weeks away. I am not getting a lot of sleep...and we seem to be playing musical beds in our house. Last night, Logan went to sleep in his own bed, but I woke up at 3:15 very uncomfortable. I quickly realized that I had very little room in the bed and when I tried to move JR over I realized that it was a tiny knee and elbow in my back and that meant Logan was in our bed!!! SO I gathered my pillows and went to his room...This morning when I talked to JR, he said..what happened last night? I went to bed with you, and woke up with Logan! Apparently, he didn't feel Logan crawl into our bed either...It's kind of scary to think that we are sleeping that heavily! I woke up hearing JR getting ready for work and went back to my bed to sleep with Logan. I keep having this horrible thought that he is going to wake up and walk out the front door, and then who knows what...get kidnapped, get hit by a car....i dont know. We have the child proof door knob things..but they dont really stop him...he can figure them out. I told JR we should go to Lowes and get the door chains, like they have in hotels, and put them at the top of the door so he cant even get a chair to reach them, but we haven't done it yet...It's a rent house and I dont want to get in trouble, but I dont think I am going to get any quality sleep unless I do it!
I have so much cleaning to do around the house, and I am completely unmotivated to do it. What I want to do is go to Humble, find a house that I love...come home, pack up all our stuff, and move this weekend! But, for many reasons, I cant do this!Grrrrrrr...I can't wait to go through all our stuff and throw shit away! There is so much stuff here that we dont use, some that I'm sure we have forgotten that we have. I look around and see so much clutter...I cant wait to get rid of it-and this my friends, is a side effect of pregnancy! At least for me, I did the same thing when I was pregers with Logan...I had a system for everything, I finally got SOOO organized, and I loved it..Then I had him and realized how hard it was to stay organized with a baby! Everything was everywhere, I walked around like a zombie for days...weeks. There were days that I felt like I accomplished something if I got my teeth brushed. I was usually in sweats and a T-shirt, and almost ALWAYS had baby drool or spit up somewhere on myself. WoW! I haven't thought about that in such a long time...there is so much I am remembering about becoming a new mom, maybe because I am about to have another one. I will have 2 kids under the age 3 (for 5 months). How am I going to do it? I will figure it out I am sure! I guess I am just to the point where I am so overwhelmed by ALL the things going on in my life...I just think if I could get one situation taken care of, then it will be one situation less to stress about! HA! I guess we will see!