Obsession

Well, my weight has officially become an obsession for me! I have never particularly cared to much about my weight. When I was younger I was incredibly skinny and I was always kind of awkward looking because I was tall with absolutely not an ounce of fat on me...and very little muscle. When puberty hit....things changed QUICKLY - I put on weight in all kinds of places!!! Even then, it never really bothered me. I guess I have always been comfortable NOT being comfortable with my body. Sure I might complain...but if it ever got to the point that I couldn't look in the mirror...I got my big butt out and started running, or walking, or doing whatever I needed to in order to feel better about myself. I have now gained a record breaking 15 pounds, and I am only 22 weeks pregnant. I was doing so well....and somehow I gained 3 pounds in 3 days....WTF! Growth spurts are one thing, but this is something all on its own. I DO NOT want to gain more than 30 pounds and I am already halfway there---What am I going to do??? It's not like I can lose weight right now....I am trying so hard to only gain a pound a week, but somehow it isn't working. I dont understand...I have been walking every morning...I have been eating better. What is going on???? UGHHHHH I have no idea what to do from here.