So today my little baby is 2 weeks old...
I am still plagued with hormones...I didn't even realize it until I was watching my baby sleep and thinking how small she is...I was reminded of Logan and thinking the same thoughts, and how I would do ANYTHING for my child, then I realized I was crying. When I stoped to think about why, I realized that my little baby boy is no longer little. He has gotten so big so fast. In the blink of an eye my baby boy became a toddler, full of life, and attitude, and a mind of his own. Dont get me wrong, I understand that you get older, but part of me wishes that I could have those days back...I dont regret anything...My little boy is amazing and he is still the best, but having gone through it all before, I am reminded to TRULY cherish all these times with Landry! One day she wont be so small... tear, tear, tear...yes I am crying as I write this!!! LOL
Several days ago, maybe a week, my husband was talking about how neat it would be to have Logan playing college ball somewhere and have the sports announcers talk about Logan's little brother playing High school ball, and how exciting it would be to have both boys play for the same school....I was having a very difficult time with this, because I was still stuck on the words "little brother" All I could think was, "IS he saying he wants another child? We had a girl!" Finally he stops and asks if I am listening..I say yes, and he says I looked confused...I said, "I AM" Afterwards we kind of just tabled the topic.
Two days ago...he casually points out that he might like to try for another boy....I thought we had mutually decided that this was the last child...I kind of just laughed...a little confused again. All I could think of was the pregnancy and the fact that I am STILL recovering from this child! Anyway, he said he was just wondering if I was dead set on not having anymore children or if it could be talked about again somewhere down the road...Ahhhh.....relief! We have always said we would talk about the prospect of one more child after several years had passed...Ideally IF we were to have another child I would want them to be spread out a little, meaning I would want Landry going in to or already IN Kindergarten before we have another child!!! JR agrees which was great news... Wheew!
I love my children but I am very content with just the two of them for now!!! Ask again in three or four years...I may be ready for another one!
I think what scares me the most is when I think about having Landry, I keep going back to one major thing...As I laid in the hospital waiting for them to come and take me to the OR I started to have a MAJOR panic attack....mainly because of the waiting, but let me just say, if it weren't for Brittany and Carol showing up right when they did I probably would have ripped out my IV and left the hospital...All I could think was that I had to get out of there. Obviously, it all turned out okay, but man....I still think about those feelings and I panic all over again!!!! So Scary!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
A day from hell!!!
So yesterday I took Landry for her two week check-up. First let me just say that we took her a couple of days after we left the hospital and we waited for over an hour before being seen! I was irritated but thankful that JR was with me to help with Logan! It was still difficult even with the two of us.
When I picked this office I was very happy with my choice. The office is nice and clean it has two separate waiting areas, a sick side and a well side, and when I first scouted it out, it seemed as though people were being seen at an average speed...yes I was 9 months prego sitting in a waiting room with NO intention of seeing a doctor...I just wanted to see how things ran! I picked my pediatrician based on the internet (recommendations, and I looked her up) I also got recommendations from the moms at the office. There is a large play area for the kids and they are always playing some typr of kid movie (Nemo, Madagascar...etc.) I thought I had found a great office! NOPE!
I will be searching for a new pediatrician...actually it isn't the doctor I have a problem with, she really is as good as I had anticipated---but the office is so poorly run, that I will not go back. I was at the office for nearly 3 hours yesterday...I had to feed Landry twice, while watching Logan...and there were several times that I had to go chase after him while holding Landry with one arm up to my breast (and hoping that the blanket draped over me didn't fall off and expose myself) using my other arm to practically drag Logan back to where he was supposed to be. Now to be quite honest...Logan did very well, for about as long as he could. The appointment was a 2:20, so I rearranged our schedule to accomodate...I let Logan sleep in, until 11:30 (WOW!!!) this pushed his nap time back to 4:15...which I thought for sure, we would be home or at least headed home by then...NOPE! Around 4:30 is when Logan started to come unravelled...tantrums ensued and I was about out of my mind! Have I mentioned that I hadn't had anything to eat all day? We finally left the office at 5:14. Logan was bawling, I was crying, and Landry (who just had her follow up newborn screening..i.e. heel prick) was screaming. I got everyone loaded in their carseats, buckled myself in and called my mother crying!!!
This was a lesson learned...for now on, I WILL NOT wait any longer than 45 minutes...at 30 min. I will go to the front window and ask for an eta....and if I am still waiting at 45 min. I will reschedule my visit for another day. If this means that I go to 12 different offices then that is what I will do until I find one that will see me promptly.
It turns out that they had to send a little girl to the hospital and that is why they were so backed up...but seriously....you can tell when you are getting that backed up...they could have let me know when I walked through the door...and if they continued to get behind they could have very easily made an announcement...at least that is what my old pediatricians office would do...as well as my OB/GYN!
Then last night...due to moving everyones schedule around...Logan stayed up until nearly 1 am which was Landry's feeding time...I fed her then FINALLY got to go to sleep..then she woke up again at 3:45 (perfectly normal) she fed, then WOULD NOT go back to sleep! I tried EVERYTHING. I finally got her to back to sleep at 6:00 am, right about the time JR's alarm was going off...I thought....well if she wakes back up, I am staying asleep, and JR can deal with her before going to work! But, luckily for him, she stayed asleep and we got up this morning at 8:45...so I haven't gotten ANY sleep..I am hoping for a better day..and I hope Logan goes back to his usual nap time (2:30) I hate getting him off schedule! Not that we have a definite schedule...but we are trying!
I had plans to get out today...I wanted to walk around the neighborhood with the kids...make a trip to Babies R us...Landry needs some pants...0-3 months are gigantic on her...so I need some, especially if we are going to be going outside in this cooler weather.
Instead, I am relaxing, and I am going to start on some beenies and scarfs for the kids! Also, I ordered some prints from shutterfly yesterday...so exciting! And I am going to finish working on a photobook that I started last night...It was for Landry, but thinking about it now...I think Logan is due for another one too!!! HEHEHEHEEEEE...
When I picked this office I was very happy with my choice. The office is nice and clean it has two separate waiting areas, a sick side and a well side, and when I first scouted it out, it seemed as though people were being seen at an average speed...yes I was 9 months prego sitting in a waiting room with NO intention of seeing a doctor...I just wanted to see how things ran! I picked my pediatrician based on the internet (recommendations, and I looked her up) I also got recommendations from the moms at the office. There is a large play area for the kids and they are always playing some typr of kid movie (Nemo, Madagascar...etc.) I thought I had found a great office! NOPE!
I will be searching for a new pediatrician...actually it isn't the doctor I have a problem with, she really is as good as I had anticipated---but the office is so poorly run, that I will not go back. I was at the office for nearly 3 hours yesterday...I had to feed Landry twice, while watching Logan...and there were several times that I had to go chase after him while holding Landry with one arm up to my breast (and hoping that the blanket draped over me didn't fall off and expose myself) using my other arm to practically drag Logan back to where he was supposed to be. Now to be quite honest...Logan did very well, for about as long as he could. The appointment was a 2:20, so I rearranged our schedule to accomodate...I let Logan sleep in, until 11:30 (WOW!!!) this pushed his nap time back to 4:15...which I thought for sure, we would be home or at least headed home by then...NOPE! Around 4:30 is when Logan started to come unravelled...tantrums ensued and I was about out of my mind! Have I mentioned that I hadn't had anything to eat all day? We finally left the office at 5:14. Logan was bawling, I was crying, and Landry (who just had her follow up newborn screening..i.e. heel prick) was screaming. I got everyone loaded in their carseats, buckled myself in and called my mother crying!!!
This was a lesson learned...for now on, I WILL NOT wait any longer than 45 minutes...at 30 min. I will go to the front window and ask for an eta....and if I am still waiting at 45 min. I will reschedule my visit for another day. If this means that I go to 12 different offices then that is what I will do until I find one that will see me promptly.
It turns out that they had to send a little girl to the hospital and that is why they were so backed up...but seriously....you can tell when you are getting that backed up...they could have let me know when I walked through the door...and if they continued to get behind they could have very easily made an announcement...at least that is what my old pediatricians office would do...as well as my OB/GYN!
Then last night...due to moving everyones schedule around...Logan stayed up until nearly 1 am which was Landry's feeding time...I fed her then FINALLY got to go to sleep..then she woke up again at 3:45 (perfectly normal) she fed, then WOULD NOT go back to sleep! I tried EVERYTHING. I finally got her to back to sleep at 6:00 am, right about the time JR's alarm was going off...I thought....well if she wakes back up, I am staying asleep, and JR can deal with her before going to work! But, luckily for him, she stayed asleep and we got up this morning at 8:45...so I haven't gotten ANY sleep..I am hoping for a better day..and I hope Logan goes back to his usual nap time (2:30) I hate getting him off schedule! Not that we have a definite schedule...but we are trying!
I had plans to get out today...I wanted to walk around the neighborhood with the kids...make a trip to Babies R us...Landry needs some pants...0-3 months are gigantic on her...so I need some, especially if we are going to be going outside in this cooler weather.
Instead, I am relaxing, and I am going to start on some beenies and scarfs for the kids! Also, I ordered some prints from shutterfly yesterday...so exciting! And I am going to finish working on a photobook that I started last night...It was for Landry, but thinking about it now...I think Logan is due for another one too!!! HEHEHEHEEEEE...
Monday, October 26, 2009
Little fun fact
Okay so here is a little fun fact -
JR's cousin and his wife delivered their baby girl on Oct. 12
My grandmother grew up with 3 sisters...Peggy, Jane, Frances (my grandmother), and Carolyn.
Peggy's grandson and his wife had their baby girl on Oct. 13
Carolyn's grandson and his wife had their baby girl on Oct. 14
I am Frances' granddaughter and JR and I had our baby girl on Oct. 15
Kind of crazy right?
JR's cousin and his wife delivered their baby girl on Oct. 12
My grandmother grew up with 3 sisters...Peggy, Jane, Frances (my grandmother), and Carolyn.
Peggy's grandson and his wife had their baby girl on Oct. 13
Carolyn's grandson and his wife had their baby girl on Oct. 14
I am Frances' granddaughter and JR and I had our baby girl on Oct. 15
Kind of crazy right?
Weekend update
So....we had a busy weekend..but it was soooo much fun!
Saturday, we took the kids to a local pumkin patch...it was at this exotic ranch, so Logan got to pet a bearcat and a pony, and he got to see chickens and kangaroo's and pigs...it was a blast!
(my uploader is having issues....will post pics later)
Later on Saturday, JR took Logan to play glow in the dark putt putt! It was some great "LOGAN ONLY" time with his dad...I get to do something with him this coming weekend....but it sucks that I am a little limited as to where I can go and how long I can be gone due to the fact that I am breastfeeding...Although I have started pumping and storing....so I guess I could go and have JR feed Landry a bottle....but we haven't introduced a bottle yet and I was hoping to hold off on it as long as possible!
Sunday, we did some picking up, and FINALLY got around to mopping the floor...It is so great having company over...1 - because you get to spend time with friends and 2 - because it forces you to do the little things around the house that we keep putting off! Amazingly we have been keeping the house pretty clean, so the cleaning didn't take too long or very much energy, which was great for JR who was entranced by football! LOL Texans won two in a row...woohoo! Sometimes it is frustrating when JR gets so in to all the football games especially when I need him to help me out...but some how it worked out really well yesterday. We did most of the cleaning before kickoff and he even went to get lunch and made it back about 10 minutes before the game started....then I did all the little stuff that was left...but he came and helped me out during halftime. I dont know what has gotten into him, but he has been wonderful. I truly love my husband always...but when he takes the time and effort to help me out, I cant help but feel so lucky to have him!
So anyway, Nikki, Travis and Aiden all came over and brought dinner!!! Amazing chicken fajitas! They even cleaned up after dinner....how nice! The meal was amazing and so was the company. It was great to catch up with old friends. JR and Travis got to watch some football and Nikki and I did what all new moms do....we talked about our babies, their milestones, and all the ins and outs of being a mom! It was great! Maybe next month JR and I can travel south and do the same for them!
Today has been rotten! Logan is so starved for attention, and I am trying to pay extra attention to him while Landry naps. He doesn't seem to understand or have the patience with me when I need to leave his side...for instance, he throws a fit when I get up from playing cars so that I can go to the bathroom! Ughhh...I even let him go with me, I let him "help" he gets me toilet paper!! LOL then I let him flush...Seriously though, I would really like to do this on my own...but for now, I am going to let him join me because, I feel so guilty. He seems to be okay when I have to leave him to feed Landry...in fact he usually comes and sits next to us and kisses Landry on the head. Today has been rough...he has been so whiny all day yesterday and then again today....and to make it worse it has been consistantly raining ALL DAY long! I was hoping to get out of the house, I wanted to go look for a costume for Logan and take the kids to the park....but its a no go. Before I can drive somewhere major, my doctor recommended driving in the neighborhood to make sure I was comfortable with it...but I dont want to try it out in the rain!
Landry has a doctor appointment tomorrow...I weighed myself this morning....I have 22 pound left to go to get back to pre-pregnancy weight, which means I have lost 28---thats right people, I gained 50 pounds!!! AHHHHH After I weighed myself I weighed myself again holding Landry and according to my scale she is back to birthweight...but we will have to see tomorrow! I am a little nervous about this issue, but hopefully it will all be fine!!!
Good Luck to everyone this week....Hope it goes well!
Saturday, we took the kids to a local pumkin patch...it was at this exotic ranch, so Logan got to pet a bearcat and a pony, and he got to see chickens and kangaroo's and pigs...it was a blast!
(my uploader is having issues....will post pics later)
Later on Saturday, JR took Logan to play glow in the dark putt putt! It was some great "LOGAN ONLY" time with his dad...I get to do something with him this coming weekend....but it sucks that I am a little limited as to where I can go and how long I can be gone due to the fact that I am breastfeeding...Although I have started pumping and storing....so I guess I could go and have JR feed Landry a bottle....but we haven't introduced a bottle yet and I was hoping to hold off on it as long as possible!
Sunday, we did some picking up, and FINALLY got around to mopping the floor...It is so great having company over...1 - because you get to spend time with friends and 2 - because it forces you to do the little things around the house that we keep putting off! Amazingly we have been keeping the house pretty clean, so the cleaning didn't take too long or very much energy, which was great for JR who was entranced by football! LOL Texans won two in a row...woohoo! Sometimes it is frustrating when JR gets so in to all the football games especially when I need him to help me out...but some how it worked out really well yesterday. We did most of the cleaning before kickoff and he even went to get lunch and made it back about 10 minutes before the game started....then I did all the little stuff that was left...but he came and helped me out during halftime. I dont know what has gotten into him, but he has been wonderful. I truly love my husband always...but when he takes the time and effort to help me out, I cant help but feel so lucky to have him!
So anyway, Nikki, Travis and Aiden all came over and brought dinner!!! Amazing chicken fajitas! They even cleaned up after dinner....how nice! The meal was amazing and so was the company. It was great to catch up with old friends. JR and Travis got to watch some football and Nikki and I did what all new moms do....we talked about our babies, their milestones, and all the ins and outs of being a mom! It was great! Maybe next month JR and I can travel south and do the same for them!
Today has been rotten! Logan is so starved for attention, and I am trying to pay extra attention to him while Landry naps. He doesn't seem to understand or have the patience with me when I need to leave his side...for instance, he throws a fit when I get up from playing cars so that I can go to the bathroom! Ughhh...I even let him go with me, I let him "help" he gets me toilet paper!! LOL then I let him flush...Seriously though, I would really like to do this on my own...but for now, I am going to let him join me because, I feel so guilty. He seems to be okay when I have to leave him to feed Landry...in fact he usually comes and sits next to us and kisses Landry on the head. Today has been rough...he has been so whiny all day yesterday and then again today....and to make it worse it has been consistantly raining ALL DAY long! I was hoping to get out of the house, I wanted to go look for a costume for Logan and take the kids to the park....but its a no go. Before I can drive somewhere major, my doctor recommended driving in the neighborhood to make sure I was comfortable with it...but I dont want to try it out in the rain!
Landry has a doctor appointment tomorrow...I weighed myself this morning....I have 22 pound left to go to get back to pre-pregnancy weight, which means I have lost 28---thats right people, I gained 50 pounds!!! AHHHHH After I weighed myself I weighed myself again holding Landry and according to my scale she is back to birthweight...but we will have to see tomorrow! I am a little nervous about this issue, but hopefully it will all be fine!!!
Good Luck to everyone this week....Hope it goes well!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Busy Day!
What are we doing today??? Let me tell you...
JR made an awesome breakfast...Sausage, bacon, eggs, and biscuits....yummy! He is now playing with Logan in his room! In about 5 minutes I will start getting myself ready and we will all head out for the pumpkin patch...SO excited...this will be my first time hehehe....hoping to make it a tradition for my kids!
Then JR is going to take Logan to play putt putt...just the two of them. We decided it would be a good idea to give Logan some extra special attention...where he doesn't have to compete with anyone...I wish I could go...if only to get pictures, but I will be at home with Landry, having some girl time! I am hoping to work on her baby book, write some thank you notes, and maybe catch a nap...although I doubt I get all that done in the amount of time it takes them to play. I should also try to clean up a little...and do some laundry....ughhhhh so much to do! How is it that babies dont really do much and yet your house becomes a disaster zone when you have them???
When JR gets home I am sure he will help out around the house...he already has...he cooked breakfast, unloaded the dishwasher, and cleaned up after cooking...WOW! I think he is going for some type of reward! Maybe Landry and I will order him a "World's Greatest Dad" coffee mug! LOL
Things are going so well...I dont want to jinx it, but JR and I are closer than ever, he has been so helpful and I cant thankhim enough for all he has done...I love my husband! We are so close to having a major debt paid off, and we aren't scrounging around for change in the couch...hahaha. Life is good!
Tomorrow...Football and Nikki, Travis, and Aiden come to visit! Exciting! I cant wait for Landry to meet her little friend! Aiden is only 3 months and like 3 weeks or something like that (not quite 4 months yet)....I am interested in seeing how much bigger he is. I am shocked every time I compare her tiny little feet with Logans monster feet!! Will she really be that big in just 2 1/2 years??? Why can't they stay stay babies? Oh....emotions!!!
Hope you all have a great weekend! I know that I will!
JR made an awesome breakfast...Sausage, bacon, eggs, and biscuits....yummy! He is now playing with Logan in his room! In about 5 minutes I will start getting myself ready and we will all head out for the pumpkin patch...SO excited...this will be my first time hehehe....hoping to make it a tradition for my kids!
Then JR is going to take Logan to play putt putt...just the two of them. We decided it would be a good idea to give Logan some extra special attention...where he doesn't have to compete with anyone...I wish I could go...if only to get pictures, but I will be at home with Landry, having some girl time! I am hoping to work on her baby book, write some thank you notes, and maybe catch a nap...although I doubt I get all that done in the amount of time it takes them to play. I should also try to clean up a little...and do some laundry....ughhhhh so much to do! How is it that babies dont really do much and yet your house becomes a disaster zone when you have them???
When JR gets home I am sure he will help out around the house...he already has...he cooked breakfast, unloaded the dishwasher, and cleaned up after cooking...WOW! I think he is going for some type of reward! Maybe Landry and I will order him a "World's Greatest Dad" coffee mug! LOL
Things are going so well...I dont want to jinx it, but JR and I are closer than ever, he has been so helpful and I cant thankhim enough for all he has done...I love my husband! We are so close to having a major debt paid off, and we aren't scrounging around for change in the couch...hahaha. Life is good!
Tomorrow...Football and Nikki, Travis, and Aiden come to visit! Exciting! I cant wait for Landry to meet her little friend! Aiden is only 3 months and like 3 weeks or something like that (not quite 4 months yet)....I am interested in seeing how much bigger he is. I am shocked every time I compare her tiny little feet with Logans monster feet!! Will she really be that big in just 2 1/2 years??? Why can't they stay stay babies? Oh....emotions!!!
Hope you all have a great weekend! I know that I will!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Landry's first week!!!
Well, I promised an update and here it is...also, I have changed my mind about quiting my blog. This is MY outlet and I am going to use it the way I want. My husband has encouraged me to keep doing it if it makes me happy, so that is what I am doing. Today marks the one week anniversary of Landry's birth...it is also my first full day at home alone with the kids! Ahhhh JR took half a day on Tuesday...but my mom was here until 10:30 and JR got home around 12:30 Then he took another half day yesterday because I still cant drive and we had to take Landry to her first doctor's appointment.
So from the beginning...
Landry was born at 9:39 am on October 15, 2009. She weighed 6 lbs 15.8 oz (so basically 7 lbs) and was 20 1/2 inches long. According to her first assessment, she is in the 50% for weight and the 105% for height...hahaha....apparently she is very long for her weight! All was well in the hospital...she did have to have chest x-rays which concluded that she had fluid in her lungs (probably due to the c-section) but was cleared to leave the hospital on Saturday, Oct. 17. All was well, the first night was a little rough...trying to sit up in a bed to feed her when every move I made felt like my incision site was being ripped apart!...OKay the first night was actually kind of horrible! The next night went better..but in the middle of the night I had another hiccup....I woke up and tried to go to the bathroom and thought I was dying. JR was wonderful...the entire time, we was so good to me! Landry looks nothing like I thought she would...First of all, she is soooo incredibly tiny....I mean Logan was 9 lbs. 6 oz. I was expecting another "big" baby...but she is soooo soooo soooo little! Next, Logan didn't have hair until after he was a year old, but out comes Landry with all kinds of hair...which is funny because she has a receding hair line.LOL it will grow in!Anyway, we had lots of visitors at the hospital and we were released on Saturday around noon. Our first night home was just JR, Landry and me...it was a little rough, but mainly because of my pain level. Hello, my stomach just got sliced open, my breasts are blown up to the point that puts Dolly to shame and I have had a baby with the tiniest mouth ever sucking on them every two hours...Every inch of my body was in pain at that point!!! Logan and my mom came on Sunday. Mom stayed until Tuesday morning and then went back to Galveston to be with my grandmother. Landry had her first appointment yesterday, she weighed 6 lbs. 12 oz. She goes back on Oct. 27 and I am hoping that she will be back at birth weight by then. After the appointment we were sent to a diagnosics lab to get her blood drawn and tested because they thought she looked a little yellow...I am still waiting to hear back from them! I think it is probably more her skin tone rather than anything else. Logan is actually doing REALLY well with her...he kisses her constantly and he wants to help out all the time, but he definitely gets jealous and he has certainly been much more whiny and clingy than usual. Anyway...here are some pictures, this is getting too long!!!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Happy and Sad!
Happy - I will be giving brith to my little girl in less than 24 hours!!! I am nervous and excited all at the same time!!! Wooohoooo
Sad - Unfortunately, this will be my last blog. I will, however; post a few pictures of Landry when she gets here as well as an overall update of how we are doing, but as for using this site as an outlet or a safe place to vent some of my emotions, I can no longer do that. I want to thank you guys for reading and for being such a wonderful support system for me! You have been there when times were so very difficult and when times were so amazing...I guess thats why I do this! I dont know what I would have done without this blog for the last year and a half!
Enjoy the rest of your week and your weekend!!!!
Goodbye,
Sara
Sad - Unfortunately, this will be my last blog. I will, however; post a few pictures of Landry when she gets here as well as an overall update of how we are doing, but as for using this site as an outlet or a safe place to vent some of my emotions, I can no longer do that. I want to thank you guys for reading and for being such a wonderful support system for me! You have been there when times were so very difficult and when times were so amazing...I guess thats why I do this! I dont know what I would have done without this blog for the last year and a half!
Enjoy the rest of your week and your weekend!!!!
Goodbye,
Sara
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