yuck

Okay, so July 4th of 2006 is when I conceived Logan....then for nine months, there was no period. I had him and at my 6 week check up I got on the Depo Shot, which I stayed on until Nov. 2008. During that time I never had a period. I got off the shot because we were told that if you are on for more than a year, it could take up to 18 months to get pregnant, and we knew that was what we wanted. I had a small, short period in December, and another in January. Landry was concieved Feb.1 and I just got my first period last month....so basically I have now had 4 periods since June of 2006....that is nearly 4 years. the point of all this is that I FORGOT how incredibly painful it can be. I have such horrible cramps, and I do not like it at all!
JR and I both agree that at this time we do not want another baby. I believe that JR doesn't want anothre one at all, which is fine by me. But I am wishing that I would have known this concretely when I had Landry, because I would have just had my tubes tied while I was there. Now I will have to make a separate appointment to have it done. BUT - this wont happen for a while. Although I know without a doubt that I dont want another child at this moment....I am only 75%sure that I dont want any more period. There is a very small part of me that thinks that I might want another baby here in about 3 - 31/2 - maybe even 4 years. But then again, 4 years from now I will be a few months shy of 31...so I dont know....When I think about how much I love my babies, it makes me think - there is room for one more...when I think about the sleepless nights and the fact that my body is still not my own, or 100's of other reasons that babies are so hard ....I still think - they are worth it. But at this time, I am not ready to go through it again. My baby girl is only 6 1/2 months old and I just want to enjoy her being little. It is going by so fast...it breaks my heart! Maybe.......and it is one huge MAYBE when Logan is in school and she is about 4, MAYBE we will think of having another one. If nothing else, at least I should be sure, one way or the other! LOL

Speaking of school....Logan is starting a 2 days a week school program at the end of August. He will go Tues. and Thurs. at the local baptist church from 9:00 - 3:00. I am so excited for him!!! Next year I am trying to decide whether I want hiim to do the 4 day program with the church or start the pre-school at the school.....probably the later....but the church will be much cheaper and he is going to be in school for a long time soo I kind of feel mmean making him start early - which is why I am only doing the 2 days a week. It will just be like extra long play dates and learning....hopefully they can help with his little tantrums! LOL