enjoying life

Last night as I was woken up by Landry at 3:33 in the morning I thought about how tired I was. After I got her changed and started feeding her, I started thinking. As I sat there in the rocking chair nursing my baby girl, I thought about how lucky I was. I have said many times that Landry is a great baby - and she really is. Of course, I also said this about Logan when he was an infant. My kids are so different. While Logan was sleeping through the night at about 4 weeks - and Landry is still working on it at 3 1/2 months...Logan was a much fussier baby. During the day, I felt like he would cry constantly - I could barely get him to take naps and even then is would sleep for about 30 minutes, and went back to crying. Now this only lasted a little while and there were days that I thought I wouldn't make it through it, but I did! And honestly, looking back at it now seems like it should have been harder. But I guess you just deal with life as it comes. At that time, I thought that is how all babies were....I couldn't even fathom the idea that he might be colicky. I realize now, that was what was wrong. Landry on the other hand takes great naps and rarely cries. In fact, she is kind of text book - when she cries, I can usually figure out EXACTLY what is wrong. She is either hungry, has a dirty diaper, bored, or she is sleepy. She smiles so much more than Logan did...I mean he smiled quite a bit...but it wasn't as early as Landry. Anyway, I was sitting there rocking and thinking how I am going to have to learn to treat each child differently but equally. They both have to know that I love them more than anything in the world and would do anything for them, but they are different and will have to deal with them differently. It sort of made me understand my mother a little better. She dealt with me and my sisters very differently, and yet I never felt equal to either of them. All I can hope is that I my kids dont feel that way. There are so many things that I want for my kids. I am so incredibly blessed in all aspects of my life, I look forward to the future and hope for more blessings!