update from earlier post

Went by this afternoon...dry wall is going up, cable is now in the living room. So...work is being done...I am getting happier. And in the spirit of being happier, I would just like to say that while I may argue with my husband, and he may drive me nuts, I know that I give as good as I get. Sometimes its nice to just get out what I am thinking or feeling, without saying it directly to him because I am not the best communicator and can come across as ummm, er, well, bitchy. So, while I will continue to say things about my husband and how he annoys me, I thought I should just also say that he is pretty awesome and I love him very much.

getting irritated

They finished the brick on the house yesterday! I went by today and the house was locked up, so I couldn't check on the cable to see if it was fixed, but I was able to see that they STILL HAVEN'T started to hand dry wall! Ughh...come on already. I can't believe that this whole thing is being delayed by a cable outlet...seriously, fix it and move on. They were out there with a bobcat to get ready to pour the concrete for the driveway...so, maybe that will be done sometime soon. Hopefully, by this weekend. We got an email from the bank yesterday saying that they recieved our information from KB that the completion date of the house wasn't until March 8 so she attached the information that she sent to our loan manager to extend the loan so that even if we don't close by March 25, we wont have to restart the loan process. This was good news, and took some pressure off...but I still want my damn house built faster. Ughh! I want to be in and set up and ready to go by Logan's birthday which is March 23. We had planned to do a Birthday/house warming party. I guess I just see all these things that need to get done, and yet, it seems like the house (at least the inside) is in the same state that it has been in for weeks now. It just feels stagnant.

Last night JR wanted to talk, so we laid in bed talking about the house, the kids, everything. I told him my fears about moving in with my parents. I didn't say we couldn't do it, just that I really wasn't looking forward to it, but I understood that the reasons for doing it outweighed the reasons for not doing it. He went into this whole thing about why we were going to do it...ummm, Iknow, I just agreed that we were doing it, I was only saying that I wasn't looking forward to it. He got a little upset with me...which pissed me off. I said, I thought we were talking? Sorry that I expressed my feelings...geez. Then he brought up our income tax return and what we were using it on, and pointed out that staying with my parents meant that we would probably be able to afford the King size bed that I want. Still, I was like...I KNOW, I GET IT. GEEZ! Anyway, so when he was naming off all the items on the list of things to buy, I said...well dont forget about my camera. He responded with, Do you want your camera or to upgrade your phone? UGHHH, SERIOUSLY? I told him I was doing both. I have already said before that he doesn't think I need a camera because if I upgrade my phone, the camera on it will be just as good! NO, it will not, and I have explained numerous times that I want a seperate camera. Basically, we started arguing about that, and I finally said...I AM GETTING MY CAMERA, WHETHER YOU AGREE OR NOT. JUST LIKE I DIDN'T AGREE WITH YOU GETTING GOLF CLUBS FOR OVER $400,BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY. JUST LIKE I DIDN'T AGREE WITH YOU UPGRADING YOUR PHONE FOR $300 WHEN WE WERE NOT COMPLETELY FINANCIALLY READY FOR THAT, BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY..AND PUT US BEHIND. I AM GETTING MY CAMERA, AND I AM UPGRADING MY DAMN PHONE. IF IT MEANS THAT I HAVE TO WAIT A FEW MONTHS UNTIL WE CAN AFFORD TO UPGRADE, THAT'S FINE...I CAN WAIT. I DONT GO AROUND BUYING THINGS WHEN WE DONT HAVE THE MONEY, JUST BECAUSE I WANT IT SO BAD...I HAVE ALWAYS WAITED, BUT I AM GETTING THE CAMERA THAT I WANT SO GET OVER IT. Then he tells me that if I buy the camera we probably wont be able to afford the house, so I need to choose between the camera and the house...ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? Ughh, I love him, but he can really drive me crazy sometimes.

I really try not to keep score, but the truth is, if JR wants something...no matter the cost, he gets it. While if I want something that is expensive, I have to wait. I guess I dont HAVE to wait...but I choose to save up for things, instead of putting it on a credit card, or re-arranging my bills to where I can get what I want now, but I may have to pay a few bills late. And I'm sorry...but my way is right and his is wrong..that's all there is to it. Also, it isn't like he isn't getting something. Hell, he is getting a 60" LED TV...ummmm, way more that my camera and phone upgrade combined. He's getting new tools (although, I can't really hold that one against him, since he needs the tools in order to install the floors). The point is, I get tired of him getting instant gratification, and almost always getting what he wants, while I sit around wanting and waiting. If he wanted practical things, I would understand...i.e. a camera, when you take pictures on a near daily basis. PRACTICAL. Super Expensive Golf clubs when you barely golf twice a year...NOT PRACTICAL. Just like the phone upgrade...I am eligible in March, but hello, we are moving into a house, we have Logan's birthday, AND he starts T-ball on the 24th, plus moving expenses and deposits for utilities...there is so much - which means that I may need to wait a few months before I can afford the upgrade. PRACTICAL - COMMON SENSE! Come on...I am not being crazy here, right? Trust me, I know that sometimes I see something one way and JR sees something another way, and that I can sometimes have a hard time seeing his point of view...but on this one...I really am right, right? I mean, again not to compare (but I am), a $250 camera v. a $1400+ TV. Anyway...I am done venting!

Brick, Diet, back to business and changes!

They started putting the brick up yesteray!! YAY! I took a few photos from my phone (which sucks...can't wait until March for my upgrade)..they are on facebook, but I am going to try to get by there today and take a picture, or I may send JR over to take a picture...his phone camera is much better than mine. But I will either post a photo later today or tomorrow. They weren't able to start on the sheet rock or dry wall yesterday because they were waiting for the inspectors but hopefully today...I need them to get this thing built...NOW because I need this loan thing to be over with!

Today is day 3 of our diet, and I have lost 2 pounds. I asked JR if he would still love me if all I had for breasts were nipples and a flap of skin. I told him if I lost much more weight that is exactly what would happen because while I have plenty of fat in my belly, hips, butt, and thighs...the only place that ever shrinks is my boobs! In a way, all of this was a semi-joke...I dont think I will lose much more, I think more than anything this is a result of losing water weight. No more Dr. Pepper:( But JR did say that if I could keep up the diet and get him under the 225 mark, then he would let me get a boob job! Hell, if he gets under 225, I may only weigh 90 lbs! LOL I told him he should move it to 240...we went back and forth, so I said if he gets under 225, I am getting lipo in my thighs, a tummy tuck, new boobs, something done with my flabby butt, and probably botox, and something done to my neck which seems to have excess skin! HAHAHAHAHA I figured if we were going to point out things that I found wrong with myself, I might as well name them all. LOL IF....a big IF he makes it under 225, he will have lost over 150 pounds. I think that he will probably do what he did before...I think the weight is going to fall off over the next few weeks, probably until he reaches about 260....but then I think its going to be a lot harder for the weight to come off. So I guess we will see, but I just dont think JR's body shape was ment to be thin....healthy and in shape - Absolutely...but I am a little afraid he is going to look anorexic at 225. His original goal was 250, and now he's lowered it...but I think he should aim more for 240, I think it's more realistic, but like I said, we will see.

Yesterday was Logan's first day back to school. He was so sweet when we said good bye. Big hugs, and when I stood up, he said wait mommy, i need a kiss remember? Awwww. Then he gave his sister a big hug and told her to be a good girl for mommy! Sometimes I feel like my heart could actually burst from being so filled with love. I know it sounds cheesy, but sometimes I catch myself just staring at one of my kids and thinking, " I did that!" Of course I had a little help from JR, but I do find myself getting overwhelmed by how beautiful they are, or how proud I am of them. Sure they aren't perfect, but they are pretty darn close. Now, on the other side of this...I am Logan has a tendency to CRY about everything. I dont know if it's just because he is tender hearted, or because he thinks I will coddle hime if he cries. Now, I wont lie, I do coddle my kids - I know I do it, but I do try to limit it. Usually if he is crying because he's hurt, I look at the injury, and if it's minor - I either tell him to brush it off, or I try to make him laugh...but that isn't really what I am talking about....example: "Logan, be quiet." I don't yell it, I dont even say it in a mean voice, but basically he just starts wailing and I can't decide if its because he's tender hearted or because he wants to talk loudly and I told him to stop. It's driving me crazy. I know some of it is just age, but crying about every little thing is going to put me in an early grave. Last night, he was playing with JR, and jumped down on JR's baby maker...JR of course howled, and Logan immediately started crying. Jr didn't even yell at him, so I said, "Logan, stop crying." which just made him cry harder. Finally I got him to listen to me, so I explained that Daddy wasn't mad at him, but that when he jumped on Daddy, it hurt him. I explained that it was an accident, and that instead of crying, he should tell his Daddy that it was an accident, and that he was sorry - and then be more careful...but there was no need to cry. I guess it kind of worked because later he knocked Landry over (on accident) and he said, "Sorry sissy, it was an accident." Then he helped her up and asked if she was okay. Then When Landry hit him with a toy, he told her it's okay sissy, it was an accident...just be careful! So I am trying to use each moment as a teaching opportunity, and hopefully he will get it, but man it's driving me nuts!

Because of building the house, I dont think we are going to be able to go on our cruise...which really sucks. One, because it pretty much already paid for, and two, because I have literally been looking forward to this since June. If you remember..this was supposed to me my birthday present from last year....YAAAAAAAAY(Sarcasm). So now JR is telling me its either the wood floors or the cruise. Insert several four letter words here! I haven't totally given up hope, as I am still trying to rearrange some funds to see if we can still do it, but JR and I decided that if we aren't able to go then we are going to give the cruise to my parents. One, it will be a nice gift to them for letting us stay there for a month, and two June 7 will be their 25 wedding anniversary. So, part of me thinks I should just give it to them as an anniversary gift, because I have always planned to do something like this for their 25th, and yet a selfish part of me still really wants to go. I have never left the country, I've never been on a cruise, and obviously this is something I picked out for my birthday last year!!! So, I will probably end up gifting it, and JR says we can book a cruise for the end of the year, or for next year....YAAAAAAAAAAY (Sarcasm) I get to wait another whole year...so, basically I will be 30 by the time I get my gift for my 28th birthday...which will totally mess up my plans to head back to Vegas for my 30th!

Perks and delays

We had our dry wall meeting yesterday with the contractor. All went well, they are supposed to replace the shower base today, so that is good news. We found another problem. In our living room, the electrician put in a phone outlet instead of a cable. So that has to be done before they hang the dry wall. Ughhh! I am hoping they get that done this morning so they can start on the dry wall later today. I went by this morning after taking Logan to school and they have put up the insulation. YAY! The plumbing inspector, and city inspector will go by today...so we are on our way, I guess. Some other things we noticed...when we were doing our upgrades we decided not to pay to have the garage door pre-wired. It was $220 and JR said he could do it himself for much cheaper, so we used the money elsewhere. However, they already pre-wired the garage! Ha! yay! so we got that for free! Also along the same lines...it was going to cost $75 for each ceiling fan to be pre-wired. We went back and forth on this, because I wanted a fan in the living room and the master at the very least. I would like to put a fan in each room, but once again - we used the money elsewhere because JR said that it wasn't a difficult thing to do and wouln't cost anywhere near $75 and we could use that money to buy the fan. But, guess what...yup, they prewired the living room and the master for fans! HAHAHA. Love it! Apparently the fans and the garage pre-wire is standard for all Heritage Collection homes in our neighborhood, and our house backs up to the Heritage Collection area, so I guess the electricians were just in a rythym of doing it and accidentally did it for our house as well, but hey - I'm not complaining! LOL Thanks for the $370 that you out in my house without me having to pay for it!

Now for the delays...When we first started this process it seemed like perfect timing because our lease is up Feb. 29 and we figured even if we weren't able to close until early March, we could always pro-rate a week or two here. Last Monday, however; we learned that when the bank gave us the commitment letter for our loan, that wasn't exactly final. We were asked for several more things to finalize the loan. I, of course; was like..."what do you mean FINALIZE, they are already building the damn thing, I thought that was pretty final!" Apparently, after getting the approval from the local bank, the loan is then sent to an underwriter at the national branch to be approved. From there, it has to go the the underwriter for the USDA to be approved! WHAT?? Ughh. So, we have already recieved approval from the national bank(or whatever you call it), but before it can go to the USDA, the house has to be appraised, and before the house can be appraised - it has to be finished! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? So, basically, once the house is complete (which as of now, the completion date is set for March 8), we have to get it appraised and sent to the USDA underwriter and then it will take 15-21 days to get the approval before we can close. Which leads to another problem...we have until March 25 to close on the house, because that is the "expiration" on the loan committment...if we don't close by then, we have to re-submit everything and start the loan process over! As you can imagine, this is driving me crazy. My hope is that they finish before March 8. The contractor told us yesterday, that it usually takes 45 days to complete a house once the dry wall starts..if so, they should finish the last week of Feb. if everything goes as planned and there isn't any terrible weather. So keep your fingers crossed, because I dont think JR can handle the stress of doing the paper work again.

JR has also asked if I would talk to my parents about staying with them instead of pro-rating the house we are in now. It shouldn't be more that 3.5 weeks...but I just dont know if I can handle staying there that long. Of course, I will just have to stick it out - but my goodness - I may not make it out alive. It will be much CHEAPER than paying for another month of rent here, but I hate the idea of having to move everything into storage, and then move it again into the house...it just seems like so much work - although JR did say that maybe we can use the money we save in rent for movers! I like that idea! Another cool perk...We told the contractor that before we move in we would be putting in wood flooring downstairs and painting the house, he gave JR some tips on the floor, and then said he had miles of extra quarter round trim that he would give JR so that saves us a little money. When I mentioned what a bitch painting the stair way was going to be he told me how to position the ladder and said he would provide a plank for us and even set it up to make it easier, then he said..or, when you are ready to paint, just give me a call and I can give you a number to the painter we use...and he can do it for cheap, and finish it in a day...the whole freaking house?? Really. Apparently the painter can take side jobs, but the contractor can't...but he said he would give us the guys number and since he doesn't speak a lot of English he would try to bring him over and explain it to him! Awesome...If I can get out of painting the whole house I am so for it! LOL

Really quick, because this is already long...a few months ago, I gave up one of my bad habits (dont worry, I still have plenty more). I stopped biting my nails. I have been really proud of myself...but while I was at my Nanny's, my thumbnails snagged on somthing and broke, so now it is driving me crazy because it doesn't match the length of the rest of my fingers. Then last night my ring finger on the opposite side broke (the nail, not the finger) so now it doesn't match. It is taking everything I have not to just clip all the other nails to match, but I have worked so hard to get them as long as they are, so I am going to try to keep them the length they are now and wait for the thumb and ring finger to catch up! Ughhh. It just look so strange right now!

Hope you all have a wonderful week!

Diet day 1 and Houston recap

We left for Houston last Tuesday because JR had to work for the Houston office all week. We didn't get to the hotel until almost midnight, but we were blown away at how nice the suite was. Logan didn't sleep at all the first night..I think he may have slept on and off for about an hour, luckily he was in the living room watching tv so it didn't bother Landry or JR. I woke up just about every 30 minutes to check on him.

On Wednesday, the kids and I hung out at the hotel, Logan fell asleep around 11 and slept until 4. I didn't have the heart to wake him up, especially since the two of them fought all morning long. JR got back to the hotel about 5 so I got all my stuff and the kids packed up. We went downstairs to the hotel happy hour for a couple of beers and hamburgers, then we got on the road to my grandmothers in Galveston. We arrived around 8 and JR went back to the hotel at about 8:30. It wasn't long until we were all in bed.

Thursday was a lazy day in a way. My Nanny wasn't feeling well, I think it was the first time I have ever seen her so run down, it scared the crap out of me. Nanny took several oppotunities to rest, but she just never seemed to feel better. She was shaking and it just really scared me. Nikki and Aiden came over about 5:30 and stayed for an hour. It was nice to catch up with Nikki. Logan was a brat towards the end, throwing a tantrum over a toy. Ughhh drives me crazy when he acts like that. The problem is, Logan doesn't forget. When he gets mad about something, it can go on for days. There are several ways I handle this, but I have found that ignoring the behavior works pretty well. Sometimes in order to ignore him though I have to send him back to his room. Anyway, Nikki is halfway through her pregnancy and she is still so tiny. She was wearing a fun flowing shirt, and with it, you couldn't even tell she was pregnant until the material bunched at the sides. She looked so cute, and I am so excited for little Mila to get here. Maybe she and Landry will be play mates. Logan and Aiden played together while Landry just sat in my lap and eventually fell asleep. Even though Landry and Aiden are only months apart, he seemed to have more fun with Logan. Landry is still in that "not leaving Mommy's side" mode. It's ridiculous, and she wont talk to anyone else...but I keep reminding myself that she will grow out of it.

Friday, my grandmother went to the doctor. She had to get some chest x-rays, and a whole pharmacy of medications. She also had to have oxygen delivered to the house because she was only breathing at about 82%. That took up the majority of the morning and once home, she napped for about 4 hours. I was happy to see that she was finally getting some rest, but it was hard to keep the kids quiet. Carol came to pick us up at 6 or so, so we loaded up her car and headed to meet up with JR and Brittany for dinner. We ate at Dickies BBQ...it was really awesome, then transferred all our bags from Carol's car to JR's truck and headed to the hotel.

It was good to be home on Saturday. We watched the Texans game...and yelled and had so much fun watching it. The rest of the weekend was pretty Lazy. We went over to the house to check things out, we were told they didn't pass the plumbing inspection...apparently, they used our showers in another house, so they new they wouldn't pass the inspection. But then when they put in the new showers....well one of them has a large chunk out of it...the missing chunk was laying on top, but I told JR, that I am not paying for a damaged shower, so they are going to have to order a new one, and I dont want to hear any kind of crap about them glueing it together or anything like that. NO - I want a new UNDAMAGED one. We have our dry wall meeting today at 2 and the plumbing inspector will be there today to test everything again.

Today is day one of our diet. So, I guess we are back to it! I still weigh 130, although when I weighed this morning it was 130.2 - LOL I am not on the diet to lose any weight. I am strictly doing the diet to help JR. He still wants to lose another 60-70 pounds, so I am here to encourage. I have said it before, and I will say it again...the layer of belly fat that I have isn't going anywhere without the use of a plastic surgeon. I have tried the eating right and the exercising...it doesn't go anywhere. I said last year that I was going to use my income tax this year to get it removed...but since everything is going into the house...I may have to wait a little longer. Plus, I still think we may have one more baby in another 3-4 years, so I might as well wait until I know for sure we are done. It depends on how soon I can start taking classes for cosmetology...it takes 9 months to complete if you go full time, and the thin is, I want to work for at least 18 months before I get pregnant again. So I guess we will see!

We are in Houston

Well, we finally got to Houston and into the hotel at about midnight last night. Luckily we are in a Suite so there is plenty of room. I am actually really impressed with the hotel. It's called the Staybridge Suites...if you ever need a hotel, I recommend this one. It has a full kitchen, which is awesome..I'm talking the whole thing, and regular size fridge, microwave, silestone counter tops with a breakfast bar, dishwasher, two top stove. Flat screens in both the bedroom and living room. AWESOME PLACE. The king size bed was so much fun last night, Landry slept with JR and I, but there was still plenty of room. Logan slept in the living room on the fold out couch and watched cartoons...I am going to have to take lots of photos of this place. It's spacious, clean...I love it. The original plan was for the kids and me to go to my Nanny's this evening when JR gets off work. We are all in one car, so I am carless...but, I think we may stay one more night before heading to Galveston. They offer free beer and wine from 5-7, so hmmm..sounds good to me. LOL. JR will be here at the hotel until Friday and then come pick us up when he gets off work so we can head home...anyway...I am just glad we are somewhere nice! All hotels should look like this. I think we may walk across the street here in a while to go catch a matinee!

Changing and mystery solving

I solved a few mysteries over the last couple of days. First, JR really wants a dog, which is where Logan got the idea that he wants a puppy. I think that JR also talked him into wwanting a brother as well - hopefully he was joking:0 Logan also got the idea to paint his room green from JR. Apparently JR asked what color he wanted to paint it and he said purple...of course JR didn't like that so he talked him into green! Those boys are going to kill me!

Last night I went grocery shopping, we are starting our diet again...at least we were supposed to. Granted, we have only gotten through breakfast, but so far I'm doing GREAT - LOL! The problem is that JR just got asked to go to Houston for the rest of this week since the Houston office needs help. So, I asked if the kids and I could come along. I mean, I don't really want to be here alone with the kids for 4 days. He is supposed to find out and let me know. I would really like to see my Nanny and some other friends and family in the Houston area. But, if we go to Houston, I can't exactly cook, so we will have to postpone the diet until next week:( Which sucks because I just got my head wrapped around doing it. I weighed myself last night and this morning, I weigh 130 on the dot, I am not worried about losing weight...I still have the same huge pouch of stomach fat, but oh well. I am only doing the diet to help JR because he still wants to lose another 60-70 pounds, so we are back at it. I will say, that I am happy to know that since we haven't been following the diet since MAY, JR has only gained back about 5 -7 pounds. He is starting at 290, so I guess we will see how it goes this time around. I did warn him though that the weight may not actually fall off like it did the first time, but we will see! So, no more sodas for me:( and back to 4 meals a day...which is actually good for me, because I have found that I have once again gotten in the habit of only eating once or twice a day.

As far as the house goes....everything seems to be going great. The problems we saw before have all been fixed. It is just coming along so fast. The electrical and plumbing have all been done, I know we are still waiting on the cable stuff to be done. I haven't actually been by since mid week last week, so I am going to try to go by today. We should be having our dry wall conference at the end of this week...which I dont know how if we will be in Houston. Maybe we can do it this weekend or maybe Monday??? When they called last weekend, the builder said we should still be set to close by mid Feb. if everything stays on schedule. The selling agent at the office says the deadline is March 7 to have the house finished. So it looks like we are still ahead of schedule. YAY