Bridezilla!

I started watching this show that I am sure you have heard of...its called Bridezillas! Anyway, the show is crazy....some of these people are seriously nuts, and yet I find myselfing wondering if I will be acting the same way! I truly hope not, I am hoping that I will have enough of the planning done that there will be no reason for me to act crazy or have any last minute planning. I understand why so many of these women act crazy. As a bride, you have a vision of what you want you wedding to be like, its something that you have thought about since you were a little girl, and sure things change overtime, but when you have this idea in your head, that's what you want. Then you have to think of all the comprimises the bride is already making...because of budget, the amount of space you have, the amount of time you have....there are so many factors that are already shaping and changing the vision that the bride shouldn't have to make any compromises that aren't necessary.

I guess the only reason I worry about being a bridezilla is because I have some outspoken people in my family....mainly my mom and older sister. I know them so well, and I can just imagine finding the dress of my dreams and them sitting there saying...no, its too expensive, or no, I dont like it..."you look weird in it" "I like the other one"... Or, I dont like where your having the wedding..."why are you doing that?" For this reason, I have done a lot of the basic work without them. I have found a church for the ceremony and venue for the reception...I pretty much know exactly which dress I want, I have the colors picked...and there is still so much to do, but plenty of time to do it...over a year! Hopefully, I will be surprised and they will love the places I have chosen and the dress and everthing else. Hopefully, all the comments will be kept to a minimum.

Oh god...I am already a bridezilla, I am already stressing my wedding and it is over a year away!!!!!

Feeling Great!

So I am almost at my three week mark (Wed.) and I have only taken 1 day off, due to my knees hurting so much. I am talking about working out! I feel so great...I even wore a tank top to work out in today, and only felt mildly self conscious...for about 10 minutes and then forgot all about it! I started taking glucosamine for my joints although it will take about another 2 weeks to see any results. I seriously feel so wonderful...I am up to 1 hour on the treadmill...which is 4 miles a day, and then I do some weights...and a lot of ab exercises. It turns out that we may not be doing the fire works stand at the end of the month, so JR and I are talking about spending fourth of July weekend with my family. It will be nice, we'll probably go float the river...what better way to show off my new body...that is IF it is any kind of shape to be in a swimsuit! There is still a little over three weeks until then so hopefully I wont be floating with a Tee shirt over my swim suit. JR is doing so well too..I dont know if he is feeling as well as I am, but I hope so. I will probably take a picture after week 4, I should have taken one before I started working out. The truth is, I really thought about it, but I decided that I didn't want any kind of proof of how fat I have gotten. I never want to look back even as a before and after and see the disguntingness of my belly. Yes it is a belly, there may be a stomach under there somewhere...but its a belly...I guess I should say WAS a belly, because I am starting to see signs of a stomach peeking through. Anyway I will see how comfortable I feel in a swimsuit next week, and determine if I want proof of that! I haven't really lost much weight, BUT I have lost 2 percent body fat in two weeks! Hell if I keep that up I will finaly be able to post a picture in about 10 - 15 more weeks!! Hahaha.

My 25th birthday is on Saturday...kind of bitter sweet I guess. I am really excited that I am getting an Ipod...cant wait for it to get here, I think I have checked the UPS website like 5 times today, and it keeps saying the same thing! Anyway, thats about it for tonight...gotta ice my knees, and then go to sleep! Yea...I am sleeping so much better these days.

Week End

Here is a picture of me a JR! It's nice to put a face to a name!!!

Yesterday, saturday, JR and I did a whole lot of sitting, which was nice...I got a bundle of work done, and we ordered his Father's Day/My Birthday gifts for each other....Ipods! Then I cooked dinner and we sat around some more...JR played on the computer and I watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding....Love that movie! Then we went over to our neighbors Nikki and Travis' House and played our weekly card game that we usually play on Sundays, but switched it up a little bit. Nikki's dad and brother are in town from Illinois, so we taught them how to play. It is actually kind of hard to learn but lots of fun afterwards. Anyway, I ended up winning, and I think I had 2 too many beers because I sort of stumbled home! Thank goodness its a short walk!

This is my super cute son, Logan!



After I got up today I just laid in bed, Logan and JR got up after we all played in bed for about 20 minutes....One of my favorite times of the day! He is so sweet in the morning....the more the day goes on the more energy he gets, and the more he drives me up the wall. But I love him anyway! I'm talking about Logan, not JR! At about 10:30 I ran to the store and got some breakfast for JR and I and then we both went next door to watch (supervise) the neighbors planting little trees in their yard. IT made me think about how much I want to plant some flowers in front of the house...JR isn't really into it, but I talked him into maybe buying some pots and plants and just starting small. Anyway, after being outside for a while I started to get a headache, and was feeling dizzy, so I went inside...The headache got worse so I ended up laying down and taking a nap...which means we didn't go to the garden center :( Now I am trying to figure out if I feel well enough to go work out....I want to go with JR, but the kids club is closed on Sundays, and I took yesterday off because of my knees so I already fell blah because of it. I dont want to take another day off, but the only option is to find someone to watch Logan for about an 1 1/2 or for me to go now, come home and then JR to go or vice versa, which I really hate doing it separately because its a lot of driving and its nice to have him spot me with some of the free weights....Grrrr...

Bow wow wow, yipee yo yippe yea

So I had a great workout today...I actually love it, I feel so good about myself, and even when I have a to-do list and I dont get one thing done...this make me feel like I accomplished something out of my day! JR said he was probably going to be sore tomorrow, but its normal, I think I was sore the whole first week. I am seeing some improvement in my body, but the number on the scale doesn't seem to be going down which is dissapointing...I know I know...I am burning fat but I am also gaining muscle...its going to take a while before the number goes down.....dont worry about the number, worry about how you look and feel! I know this in my head, but I still want to SEE that number go down by about 15 pounds. Anyway, I am so proud of JR, it makes me feel even better. I sort of felt like I was pushing him into it, but after today he seems kind of excited, which makes me so happy. That is just one more reason why I love him so much...he may do a lot to drive me crazy, but I know that when it really comes down to it, he would give me the moon just to see me smile.

Last night after I worked out, Logan and I went to JR's softball team, he plays on Wed. nights...for one more week and then back to Monday nights...anyway, they won. THere was basically no competition and they won easily so he will be in the playoffs next week. If they get first place they get a championship T-shirt, which he wants so badly! I am glad he has so much fun playing, even though it means that I dont get a break until late in the evening...either way, I am glad he has something he can do once a week for fun.

Work OUT!

So this will be short...I am so excited, my birthday is the Saturday after next...the big 25! I have been think about what I want...JR keeps asking, so I told him I wanted an Ipod so that I could take it with me to work out, and then it hit me...I have been asking JR to join the gym with me, but I haven't really gotten anywhere. Last night I told him that is wanted for my birthday, for him to join the gym with me. I am not asking him to go out and lose 30 pounds or anything, I just want him to feel as good as I do, not to mention be in good health! Anyway, I am about to leave to go meet up with him for our first day of working out today!!! YEA!

Remembering to Breath!

Have you ever been so busy that you all of a sudden feel yourself take such a deep breath and you wonder when the last time you actually took a breath was? Happens all the time to me. So I am trying to relax a little today, Logan has been asleep for almost 2 hours...AMAZING, I have actually gotten lots of work done today, and yet I still have so much more to do. I definitly have to step it up though, because I am going to be going out of town for two weeks at the end of June...from the 23 until July 5...It will be a long time to spend with my family. I hope all goes well, I am so nervous about it, but in reality I need to just relax. My sisters and I are going to be running a fireworks stand in Wimberley which is where my parents and sisters live....all the girls back under the same roof again...this could turn out to be a really bad idea. I am sure it will all work out, and I have no reason to worry...but for some reason I am! Anyway, thats about all, this is why I was afraid to start a blog....not much goes on in my day to day life!

What's missing???

So I have been wondering what I have been forgetting to do for the past few days...BLOG! Anyway, I am putting together a wedding website, but I probably wont post it for a while...there is just so much work to do on it, and I just dont wont to put it up until there is more information on it! I am still working out, tomorrow will be 2 weeks. I dont think I have lost any REAL weight...I have made my goal weight for each week which is 2 pounds...so realistically I have lost 4 pounds....but I dont look any different! I do however feel better, I have more energy and I just feel better in general. Let's see what else...I mowed the lawn on Saturday and I washed my car...and got a sunburn! Grrrr...on Sunday JR and I played cards with our neighbors Nikki and Travis. It has sort of turned in to our Sunday night ritual, kinda like the last hurrah before the work week starts up again! Logan has decided that pulling Dexters ears is a really fun game. Another Grrr...Anywho, I guess I will try to remember to blog more....remember I am new at this!