Whew, this weekend went by so fast. On Saturday I pretty much worked on the bookshelves all day long...and I have the sunburn to prove it. Yes, I put on sunscreen TWICE, but aparently that didn't do the trick. I am halfway finished thank goodness. I am a little disappointed in the finish...I bought this really dark finish and some black paint for the trim, I thought it would look amazing, and in my head it did look great. Unfortunately it didn't come out as dark as it shows in the picture, so it wasn't really what I had in mind...but they are still nice. I will post some photos soon. That night my mom and sisters and Isabella and Isaiah came over. Vanessa was in town and promised to come see us, so they all came over for game night. Unfortunately it was really late notice, and JR and I had already began to cook dinner for the evening. Randi went to McDonalds for the rest of them, but I felt a little guilty eating my delicious grilled pork sirloin chops, fresh green beans, and half a baked potato. I think my mom is boycotting anything healthy...but whatever, it's just her way. My mom loves green beans, but when I told her they were fresh and not from a can, she turned her nose up at them...She likes baked potatoes but when I told her we only used fat free sour cream and chives on it...she coughed and asked where the butter, cheese, and bacon bits were. In my eyes, here's what's happening....she is proud of us for making healthy decisions, but when she sits in front of us and is actually part of the dynamic, she gets angry with herself for not making those decisions for herself...in turn, she takes that frustration out on us. It doesn't make it right...but that is how she is. So after dinner the kids played while, the adults played scategories! First of all, I know I say this all the time, but my older sister Randi is an idiot. Seriously, she is just so dumb. It was a pretty fun time...but stressful. Vanessa was irritated with mom and Randi. Mom was irritated with Randi. Randi was irritated with Vanessa and mom, so there were all these little snide remarks between the three of them...ughhh! Randi brought and drank an entire bottle of wine by herself...she was the only one drinking - and it seems as though we all had something to say about it. "Don't you feel weird being the only one drinking?" "Can you not get through a few hours without the help of alcohol?" "You do realize you aren't supposed to gulp wine, right?" Then something came up about Vanessa's weight...she has put on a few pounds since getting on birth control...and she asked me how much I weighed now. I told her 132 and she started crying...mom was laughing as was Randi. Apparently she had weighed herself that day and was up to 130. I am 5'8" and Vanessa is about 5'3", so she was really upset. I told her to stop being so hard on herself...that I would gladly weigh 165 if it meant I could have her body. Yes, she has put on some weight, but for the most part she still has a rockin body. She made a joke that instead of the freshman 15 when she started college, she got the senior 15. I can't believe my little sister will graduate from college in May! Geez! I wish she wasn't so hard on herself, the girl is gorgeous! But I guess I am not the best example, since I am pretty much disgusted with my body all the time. At 10:00 Randi said she needed to go to her work to fill out some paperwork and asked if mom could take the kids home with her. So mom, ness, and the kids left at 10:30.
On Sunday, we did pretty much NOTHING. JR napped - a LOT and that was about it. at 2:00 I got a call from my mom asking if I had heard from Randi. I told her no, and said, "so, I assume Randi didn't come home last night?" Mom said that she text Randi at midnight and Randi said that she was at her friend Evelyn's hanging out. Mom asked if she was coming home and Randi said she wasn't sure yet. Mom said it was fine for her to stay the night but to be home by noon because she and Vanessa had plans in San Marcos. Like I said...it was 2 when my mom called. She sent me a text at 5 saying Randi walked in the door at 3:55 saying she was sorry but she overslept. Mom asked why she didn't call or anser her phone...and Randi said that she knew my mom was mad and didn't want to listen to it! Again, my sister is such an idiot. She is dropping the kids off with their dad today and they will spend their spring break with him. I seriously wish he would do his job as a father and file fo full custody of the kids. Then my parents could kick Randi out and live their own lives, and Randi could either figure it out and grow up and MAYBE have a chance at getting her kids back, or she can continue living her screwed up life..but at least then it wouldn't be as damaging to my parents and my niece and nephew!
Getting up and running is becoming more and more difficult...I am fighting harder with myself to get out of bed than I am actually running. Every Monday I increase the amount I run...I am up to running a mile and walking a lap afterwards to cool down but keep my heart rate up. I can't believe we only have 6 more days on the second cycle...I also can't believe that JR and I have stuck with something for 29 days. I am hoping JR can lose another 6 pounds before the end of this cycle, which would mean that he would start cycle 3 at 330 lbs. I think I have just reached a weight where it is going to be a fight to get off any more pounds. The only weight I have left to lose is literally FAT, and apparently taking fat off your body isn't as easy as putting it on! All I can do is keep trying...I better be down to 130 by Logan's birthday, 9 days from now...sure I can lose 2 pounds in 9 days, right? I will say that, while JR is in need of new jeans and a new belt because his are hanging off and he is literally having to fold over a section of his jeans....mine are fitting the exact same way - so I guess I wont be getting that new wardrobe that I wanted! The thing is, I have low rise jeans anyway, so my belly never really conflicts with my jeans...it just hangs over the top of them! LOL
Have a great week guys! My anniversary is on Thursday - I just can't believe it! JR and I have been married 2 years...legally - but since nothing really changed when we got married, except we got rings and legal documents...we have been together for over 5 years...I honestly can't believe it. The year have flown by!
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Randi drank a bottle of wine then went into work? I can't really say I'm surprised, but that is ridiculous.
Your mom sounds like my mom with food. I swear, my mom boycotts healthy food just because she can. She makes noises whenever I have "light" food in the house. I asked her once why she is like that, does she not like healthy food? She said that's not it at all, but she didn't really have an explanation for herself. I've come to realize that "old" women can be just as stubborn as old men.
Sara, you totally cannot compare your weight loss to JR's. You are not in the same boat at all. He has the ability to lose more weight than you do. Plus, to top it off, there are huge differences between weight loss men and women. I've come to the realization that the only way for me to lose weight is to be anorexic or designate all my free time to exercise. I don't have any desire to do either of those things. ;)
Yeah, Randi drink everyday and everynight, no matter what - she drinks while she's at work...as I said, she's an idiot!
I know there are major differences in JR and I, and our weight loss...I just get so sick and tired of this roll of fat around my midsection!
I actually like waking up early for a run...but its a constant battle...I haven't been able to do it on the weekends, so its just Mon - Fri...and even though I dont want to get up, I know that I will feel much better when I do it. On the weekends when I dont run, I think about it all day, thinking ughhh - I should have run today. Plus it gives me some alone time to just clear my head for the day ahead.
I seriously believe that the only way to get rid of it is to have it cut off...I am only starting week 3 of the running, but I swear...I could run 10 miles a day and the fat would still be there...it isn't going anywhere...I just JR would realize this and let me get the damn surgery instead of torturing myself everyday. Also, I know that a large part of this is a mental thing. I have an self image problem. I look in the mirror and see something that is much bigger than it is - I know that in my head...but when I look in the mirror, I still see it. I am pretty sure that only therapy can help with that - but who has time for therapy?? LOL
It's funny. Right after I had Aiden, I looked at myself pre-pregnancy and couldn't believe how skinny I was. Now that I'm back down at that weight, I still feel fat. I guess it doesn't help that I've had several people ask if I was pregnant. =( I'm fairly confident that this loose skin on my stomach will not go away without surgery. I told Travis I WILL be getting a mommy makeover after we're done having kids. LOL!
Where does Randi work? Maybe you could report her stealing drugs from there to her boss/owner?
Oh geez! You are skinny.... there are times when I look back and say oh my face looks great there...but only because I like my face when it is fuller. I seems to lose and gain weight in me face pretty easily and I am not a huge fan of the skinny face! But basically I was 165 pounds when I got pregnant with Logan. I was 145 when I got pregnant with Landry - and now I am stuck at 132...so I have lost 15 - 20 pounds after each child...but again...it isn't really the number...its the fat band around my belly...and I am with you, the loose skin on my belly is going to have to be cut off. I am counting down the days until I can meet with the surgeon..but I figure I might as well keep working on it, maybe it wont be as expensive if they have less fat to cut off! LOL
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