decisions...

I have been researching rehab facilities in Texas. I have a few ideas, 1)ask my aunt to pay for it 2) tell my parents to take out a loan if they have to 3)forget about the rehab and call CPS 4)write a typed letter to Luis telling him about everything Randi is doing and hope he does the right thing. Luis is a good father, but he could be more plugged in. I know that the information he has is the information my sister and parents tell him and of course mom and dad aren't going to tell him everything for fear that he will fight for full custody...but as a parent myself, I would want what was in the best interest of my kids and if it was JR who was making these decisions I would be furious...and I would remove my kids from him so fast he wouldn't know up from down - which Randi probably doesn't anyway because she is always high!
So let me break it down: option 1 - my aunt most likely will not pay for Randi's rehab. She has pretty much brushed randi off since she was fifteen and I think that the only way she would do it is if my mom asked her. So I would have to involve my mom in this plan...and she probably wont like it and then instead of dealing with the real problem (Randi and the drug use), I will become the problem for inciting a fight. I can't exactly go behind my mom's back and ask Angela(my aunt) because she will in turn call my mom...and we are back to square one.
Option 2 - asking my parents to take out a loan...they just aren't financially able to do this. They pay for the care and well being of Randi and her two kids as well as Vanessa and then they have their own selves to take care of...I dont see this a very viable option
Option 3 - Calling CPS and maybe supplying them with proof of negligence. Last summer, someone called CPS on Randi, she was given a drug test and came up dirty for marajuana...after 6 weeks, they closed the case and found in favor of Randi. So I dont have a lot of hope, unless I can get some sort of proof.
Option 4 - If I decide to write Luis, it will have to be typed...I dont want it to be able to be traced back to me. Again, it will become about MY betrayal and not about the issue at hand. The biggest flaw here is that he wont do what is necessary.
I am leaning towards going with CPS...letting them investigate. Hopefully being able to supply them with some sort of proof, and letting them make the decision to take the kids away from her. If they decide that it is in the best interest to live with their dad - then so be it. My parents will no longer have a reason to keep randi in the house and will kick her out and the kids will be better off as well. If CPS decides that the kids will be better off with my parents but away from their mom...then fine - kick randi out and let my parent's be the providers for the kids. I think that its time for a little tough love, sink or swim. Kick her out, and if she chooses to continue down this road - fine, but she doesn't need to do it around her kids....and if she decides to get help - AWESOME!
CPS is anonymous, so it will never be tracked back to me - hopefully. But something needs to be done before something really bad happens. Randi's luck is sure to wear off soon. I have often thought about calling the cops when she leaves the house and reporting her as a drunk driver - maybe the court could mandate rehab. But I dont want to take away her future - and then I say, she wont have a future anyway if she gets behind the wheel and kills someone or herself. I keep saying that I am going to just wash my hands of her...its not my problem. The one thing that just keeps haunting me is the idea of standing in a cemetary dressed in black, crying as we lay her, Isabella, and Isaiah in the ground. It literally haunts me. So I am going to do something...I have provided my parents with all the information I have on her drug use - stealing prescription drugs from them, from her patients at work, the pot, where they can find it, the drinking and driving, taking her kids with her to meet up with her dealer...and they haven't done anything. So while she makes her own choices in life - if the worst ever happens, it will be on her...I also feel as though it will be on me and my family as well, for sitting by and not doing everything we possibly can to stop her.
Any input on these decisions would be greatly appreciated!
Moving on to better things -
My anniversary is tomorrow! While we will most likely acknowledge it - we will be celebrating on Saturday. We are going to go to dinner and break our diet by going out for a few drinks afterwards. I am very excited.
Also very exciting - last night, Logan wanted to play baseball so badly...JR was tired so he didn't want to do it...I got really upset with him, and told him that I dont want to hear him complain ever again about Logan not playing or having any interest in it. So I went out and played with him...we played for over an hour - running bases, hitting off the tee, TRYING to catch! It was great. When he woke up this morning, the first thing he said was - mommy, I want to play baseball!!! Woohooo! So we will head to the park in a little bit and play!