Random

Well its Saturday and JR is off at work. I want to complain, but I can't. He was home last weekend - but seriously, when did it become normal for him to work every other weekend? I vividly remember the day he came home to tell me that he would have to work SOME weekends...hmmm. Another reason I can not complain is that we need the money. JR took two half days last week and this week has been rainy and gross so he has been home more than usual. This leads to another thought. Is this really why I want him home? It makes it easier when it is two adults to two kids. Did I get spoiled over the last two weeks? This is really why 3 day weekends are both wonderful and horrible. More family time, but then schedules change, I get used to having a helping hand, and then just like that - it's ripped away!
We got a letter from the lovely IRS saying that we owe $1,190 from 2008...WTF? Why are you just telling us now....ughh! I was ready to dispute it until I realized they were right, shit. What now? So then start the evil thoughts. Thoughts of inadequecy. Time for me to get a job. But that only leads us back to the same merry-go-round ride we always end up on. Will the job I get actually make us enough money two afford two kids in daycare AND make a profit? I doubt it. So I sit here stuck in limbo.
Speaking of the IRS...every year, JR and I end up spending our return way before it gets here. Well this years money is going to a new car! Thank you, Jesus! My car is seriously on the verge of crapping out....please, hold on until February. My passenger side window refuses to roll up, my drivers side window automatically rolls down when you start the car, then you must wait at least two minutes to roll it up - and once it's up, you can not roll it back down with out restarting the car. There is a hole in the resevoir that holds the coolant, so that has to be replaced every three or four days. So I rarely leave the house to drive anywhere, because yes, I realize that it would be cheaper in the long run to just get it fixed than to pay $10 every three or four days. hmmmm....problem is that we just dont have the money, which is my fault because I got too hasty and have been paying a double ring payment and double student loan payment for the last 4 months...My hope was to FINALLY be done paying the ring payment, and to cut the amount we owe on JR's student loan. We still have about 12 - 13 more years to pay, so I figured if I doubled the payments it would more than cut the years in half (due to interest). Plus, I want the ring paid off before we buy a car because we are going to need that money to make a car payment. I just dont think we could afford to add in a car note. Not with the bills we have right now. Plus, now we need to get this $1200 paid back to the IRS before febuary as well. The idea here is to minimize the bills before we start adding new ones! Geez!
Here is another kicker, JR and I were planning to buy the house we are in at the end of the year. But I just can't see that happening...I have to have a new car. As much as I love the house we are in, I just dont see how we can do it, unless the owners decide to owner finance. That is really the only way because, when our income tax return gets here, I am going straight to the dealership. Why do I get the feeling it will be pushed back? And will my car make it another year? Doubtful.