Pregnancy weight!!!

Yesterday I had to run a few errands before heading down to Galveston. As the weight is beginning to pack on, I realized that it was time for a new bra. I had lost some weight before I got pregnant and I was down to a size C, so because of the pregnancy and the weight I have been putting on I have been flowing out of my bra! I have been wearing sports bras a lot lately...so I thought it was time to get a new one. I bought a bra, size D, and I was in a hurry so I didn't try it on...I got down to Galveston and went swimming with my mom, my niece and nephew, Logan, and my aunt and cousins. We had such a great time, afterwards we went to my grandparents house...I changed clothes, and was oddly excited to put on my new bra. My excitement ended one I had the darn thing on...turns out, I should have tried it on, I needed a DD. After thinking about this a little more...I have decided that this is actually great news because maybe that means that most of my weight gain is in my boobs!!! HAHAHA Hey, a girl can hope right?

Now for the hard part. The course of my grandfather's cancer treatment has changed. They originally thought they would start his chemotherapy and if all went well, they would do surgery sometime around Christmas. They have now decided that they are going to the surgery followed by the Chemo. No one is really telling anyone what is truly going on. Apparently, my grandfather is having surgery on Tuesday, and there is a chance that he wont even make it through the surgery. He will be in the hospital until he recovers, but no one can say how long it will take him to recover. My grandmother is convinced, that this surgery will cure him. She thinks that they are going in to remove the part of the colon that is cancerous. She thinks that after that, he will be fine. What they are really doing is, they are going in to try to stop the bleeding...as I have mentioned before, he is conitnuously losing blood, and for the longest time the doctors couldn't figure out where he was losing blood from. This is what makes the surgery so difficult...he could very easily bleed out on the table. The reason they have changed the course is because they dont think he will be strong enough to sustain a surgery after chemo. I asked my mom for some more information, which is when I found out that he has end stage 4 cancer. Even with the course of treatment they are doing, curing the cancer isn't an option. They are only trying to prolong his life. If he chose to forgo the surgery and do nothing he would have about 6 months to live. If the surgery goes well and chemo goes well, he is looking at about 2 years. While it isn't my choice to make, nor can I really say what I would do in the situation, my mom and I both agree that 2 years isn't worth the pain and agony of going through chemo. We also both agree that we dont believe he will make it through chemo. I am so sad. Please, everyone think good thoughts that the surgery goes well. If we can just make it through this next week, we can deal with some of the other upcoming events.