Lets start with nights...we all know that pregnant women usually have some very intense dreams. Now that I am able to ***sleep through an entire night (more on that in a sec), I have been having very strange dreams about high school. I have heard that you usually dream about unresolved issues in your first trimester...I am in my second, so why I am I dreaming about these things??? I am ready for my dreams to move on to my future.!
*** The reason I am getting more sleep is because JR switched sides with me! **Logan is still in our room (more on this later), and he usually wakes me up by getting out of his bed and tying to get into ours seeing as how I sleep facing his bed, I am the one he wakes up! Also, he makes these wimpering sounds when he is uncomfortable or moving around which also wakes me up. So JR and I switched sides and now I make it through an entire night without waking up! YAY!
**We had planned on moving Logan's bed into his room this past weekend, but we chose not to...JR doesn't want to do it on a weekday because we know that the transition will be difficult at first which will cause all of us to get very little sleep. Since JR has to get up early, he would rather do it on days that he doesn't have to wake up and drive through Houston morning traffic...I agree with him! Too bad I have to wake up early on the weekends...but at least I get to take a nap at around 3:15.
The stress is getting to me... Last night I had a complete breakdown. Partly because I had a really hard day. I wasn't feeling well, and probably because my blood pressure was high. I am planning on going and having it checked again today...if it is still high, I plan on driving directly to my OB...I have called to let them know and haven't heard back from them which REALLY irritates me. Anywho, when JR finally got home I was crying I told him exactly what I needed...I needed his help and I was specific in what I needed help with....HE started off well, but I guess he got side tracked with the TV and computer, because nothing got done that I asked him to do. So now I am stuck picking up the house and doing all the dishes all by myself. I am once again in tears because I dont know how else to be more clear. I had such a horrible day, Logan was a little devil, and all I asked for was a little help, why is that so difficult? THe thing is, I dont allow him to treat me badly, but I wouldn't treat a person that I dislike this way. JR just seems to always do whats easiest for JR, even if that makes things harder for me. For example, we switched sides on the bed so that I could finally get some sleep...Well JR has decided that it is easier to just let Logan sleep with us. This makes it harder for me because it completely undermines the weeks I have spent getting him to sleep in his own bed. SO now I have to decide..do I move his bed into his room tonight which will be better for both JR and I in the long run, or do I wait another night, allowing JR to let Logan sleep with us for the third night in a row? We move on...for months I have been trying to 100% get Logan off the bottle, which means no night time bottle. Logan refuses to drink milk out of a sippy cup, so JR realizes that Logan will go to sleep much easier if he has his night time bottle...but it makes it more difficult for me because Logan thinks if he gets one at night, he can have one during the day!!! I am happy to say that after removing the bottles in the house Logan has gone 4 1/2 days without a single bottle...he still wont drink any milk, but the doctor says that at this point as long as he is getting plenty of fluids he will be fine without milk. If I am still concerned I can always give him vitamins to supplement! The other major issue with JR taking the easy way is the potty training...yes Logan is my son, but he is also JR's son...should JR take 50% of the responsibility in raising him? I know that JR does so much for us...but it has to be more than just financially supporting us. I started potty training Logan 2 weeks ago, but that really isn't accurate because we haven't done anything for the last week...Why? Because I dont feel like it is my sole responsibility and I would like JR to help me and because it would take to much work JR says, "he's not ready" (meaning Logan). Logan will bring us a diaper when he needs to be changed...he's already gone on the potty..He is ready, I think the truth is JR isn't ready to put forth any real effort. So I sit here crying wondering when JR is going to change, and yet if it hasn't happened in 3 years...will it ever? I guess the idea of having another baby in 4 1/2 months is really really scary knowing that i could very possibly be going through all of this again in a few short years...the only difference is that I will have 2 little ones under the age of 5.
I guess you could say the pressure is really starting to get to me!
2 comments:
Why is it that the doctor never calls back? I've had that same problem! It makes me hope that it means my worries are not an emergency, but still it would be nice to have the confirmation directly from the horse's mouth, ya know?
I say move the bed....i know it will make sleep an issue, but as u say in the long it is better...and you should do it now bc baby luck is NOT here yet. if you wait then you will have both of them with you...just saying...stick to your guts on this one girl. you got mothers instinct. and as far as JR not helping, here is what i say...LOL. stop washing his clothes, dont cook him dinner and dont do things around the house that benefit him. i know this sounds bad, but it will show him what all you do around the home, and that if he gives a little around the house with you and Logan, then you will go back to doing your wifely duties!
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