Ruptured ear drum???

Last Tuesday I awoke with some sinus pressure. No big deal, I brushed it off as allergies. As the day progressed, the headache got worse. Wednesday, I woke up with all kinds of mucous going on. So I changed my self diagnosis to a sinus infecion. By Thursday, I was incapacitated. It was definitely the worst day. I felt horrible. On Friday, I was much better but started to lose my voice. Saturday, I woke up and other than all the mucous, and scratchy throat I felt okay. My voice was gone...but I kind of felt like Pheobe in a friends episode where she gets sick and has a "sexy" voice. Well, mine wasn't sexy but it was definitely different. I was a little weak, and my right ear has some pressure, it sounded kind of like being under water...but only on the right side. We ended up going to float the river later in the afternoon. We had a great time. The kids still love it, although I think that they get a little bored after a while. Still they were great. Afterwards we went to eat at Bikinis, because I hadn't brought any other clothes for Logan or Landry...and obviously, swimsuits are excepted as normal clothes at that establishment! LOL When we got back our neighbors were out. The husband (Rolando) was working on hanging some outdoor wall sconces, so JR went over to help, and I went in to talk with Nikkita and her family. As the night progressed, it was harder and harder to hear out of my right ear. There wasn't any pain, just felt like my ear was closed off. Sunday rolled around, I was fine, but my voice was COMPLETEY gone. I was having to yell, but my voice was only coming out as a whisper. I finally realized it was easier to just whisper. Less straining. My mom brought Isabella and Isaiah over at 5. She had to work last night, and my dad is in Dallas for my cousin's graduation. I was feeling fine, other than the fact that I had no voice, and I couldn't hear out of one ear...oh and my nose was (and is) chapped from blowing it so often. Around 7 the pressure in my ear started growing. I tried all the tricks...holding my breathe, closing my nose to try to pop my ears, chewing gum, sucking on hard candy. Nothing worked, but the pressure continued to build. By 8, I was thrashing in pain. I didn't even realize I was crying, but the pressure had built, I became very weak, and dizzy and I could do nothing about it. JR didn't really know what to do. I wanted to go to the ER but we had 4 kids, and I was hoping the pain would go away. I text my friend Dana (who is a pharmacist) for some advice on what to take. I sent JR to the store for some sudafed after the 4th round of searing pain. While he was gone I went through 3 more rounds and realized the were getting closer together. The pain was unbareable. The pressure would build up so much causing me to become disoriented and dizzy. I felt like the right side of my face was going numb and I was really weak. Then the pain would fade a little...not much...but enough to where I was no longer at a 15 one the pain scale, I was only at a 9...so still really painful. Then about 10 minutes later I would go through it all again. JR got home and opened the medicine for me. About 30 seconds after taking the medicine I felt a release in the pressure (obviously it wasn't the medicine since it didn't have enough time to take effect, but maybe it was the swallowing, or maybe the pressure had finally built so much??? I dunno) There was still a LOT of pain, but that small amount of pressure being released was awesome. I felt like I had some fluid leaking from my ear, but I was too afraid to touch it so I ignored it, until I could feel it trickling down my ear lobe. So I touched it. When I pulled my hand away there was blood on my fingers. YAY! That's totally normal, right? As the night progressed more and more pressure released, with each release came more blood. I finally got all the kids in bed, and went to sleep myself. I woke up with more mucous (of course), which also had/has a good amount of blood in it. My voice sounds like an alien and my entire ear was covered in dried blood. I put a towel on my pillow last night to procect it from any blood, the towel had a large blood spot on it! So far today, no more pressure has been released, and there hasn't been any more blood, but I still can't hear out of that ear. I am still weak, and very tired. But I have 5 kids today, so I am hoping the day gets better for my ailments! I also think it would be great to hear again! So I guess I ruptured my ear drum...who knows. I am going to try to go to the doctor on Friday since I wont have Mark. My brother -in-law ans his wife and son are coming Thursday night, so maybe she can watch my kids while I run to the doctor??? Hopefully!