getting irritated

They finished the brick on the house yesterday! I went by today and the house was locked up, so I couldn't check on the cable to see if it was fixed, but I was able to see that they STILL HAVEN'T started to hand dry wall! Ughh...come on already. I can't believe that this whole thing is being delayed by a cable outlet...seriously, fix it and move on. They were out there with a bobcat to get ready to pour the concrete for the driveway...so, maybe that will be done sometime soon. Hopefully, by this weekend. We got an email from the bank yesterday saying that they recieved our information from KB that the completion date of the house wasn't until March 8 so she attached the information that she sent to our loan manager to extend the loan so that even if we don't close by March 25, we wont have to restart the loan process. This was good news, and took some pressure off...but I still want my damn house built faster. Ughh! I want to be in and set up and ready to go by Logan's birthday which is March 23. We had planned to do a Birthday/house warming party. I guess I just see all these things that need to get done, and yet, it seems like the house (at least the inside) is in the same state that it has been in for weeks now. It just feels stagnant.

Last night JR wanted to talk, so we laid in bed talking about the house, the kids, everything. I told him my fears about moving in with my parents. I didn't say we couldn't do it, just that I really wasn't looking forward to it, but I understood that the reasons for doing it outweighed the reasons for not doing it. He went into this whole thing about why we were going to do it...ummm, Iknow, I just agreed that we were doing it, I was only saying that I wasn't looking forward to it. He got a little upset with me...which pissed me off. I said, I thought we were talking? Sorry that I expressed my feelings...geez. Then he brought up our income tax return and what we were using it on, and pointed out that staying with my parents meant that we would probably be able to afford the King size bed that I want. Still, I was like...I KNOW, I GET IT. GEEZ! Anyway, so when he was naming off all the items on the list of things to buy, I said...well dont forget about my camera. He responded with, Do you want your camera or to upgrade your phone? UGHHH, SERIOUSLY? I told him I was doing both. I have already said before that he doesn't think I need a camera because if I upgrade my phone, the camera on it will be just as good! NO, it will not, and I have explained numerous times that I want a seperate camera. Basically, we started arguing about that, and I finally said...I AM GETTING MY CAMERA, WHETHER YOU AGREE OR NOT. JUST LIKE I DIDN'T AGREE WITH YOU GETTING GOLF CLUBS FOR OVER $400,BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY. JUST LIKE I DIDN'T AGREE WITH YOU UPGRADING YOUR PHONE FOR $300 WHEN WE WERE NOT COMPLETELY FINANCIALLY READY FOR THAT, BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY..AND PUT US BEHIND. I AM GETTING MY CAMERA, AND I AM UPGRADING MY DAMN PHONE. IF IT MEANS THAT I HAVE TO WAIT A FEW MONTHS UNTIL WE CAN AFFORD TO UPGRADE, THAT'S FINE...I CAN WAIT. I DONT GO AROUND BUYING THINGS WHEN WE DONT HAVE THE MONEY, JUST BECAUSE I WANT IT SO BAD...I HAVE ALWAYS WAITED, BUT I AM GETTING THE CAMERA THAT I WANT SO GET OVER IT. Then he tells me that if I buy the camera we probably wont be able to afford the house, so I need to choose between the camera and the house...ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? Ughh, I love him, but he can really drive me crazy sometimes.

I really try not to keep score, but the truth is, if JR wants something...no matter the cost, he gets it. While if I want something that is expensive, I have to wait. I guess I dont HAVE to wait...but I choose to save up for things, instead of putting it on a credit card, or re-arranging my bills to where I can get what I want now, but I may have to pay a few bills late. And I'm sorry...but my way is right and his is wrong..that's all there is to it. Also, it isn't like he isn't getting something. Hell, he is getting a 60" LED TV...ummmm, way more that my camera and phone upgrade combined. He's getting new tools (although, I can't really hold that one against him, since he needs the tools in order to install the floors). The point is, I get tired of him getting instant gratification, and almost always getting what he wants, while I sit around wanting and waiting. If he wanted practical things, I would understand...i.e. a camera, when you take pictures on a near daily basis. PRACTICAL. Super Expensive Golf clubs when you barely golf twice a year...NOT PRACTICAL. Just like the phone upgrade...I am eligible in March, but hello, we are moving into a house, we have Logan's birthday, AND he starts T-ball on the 24th, plus moving expenses and deposits for utilities...there is so much - which means that I may need to wait a few months before I can afford the upgrade. PRACTICAL - COMMON SENSE! Come on...I am not being crazy here, right? Trust me, I know that sometimes I see something one way and JR sees something another way, and that I can sometimes have a hard time seeing his point of view...but on this one...I really am right, right? I mean, again not to compare (but I am), a $250 camera v. a $1400+ TV. Anyway...I am done venting!