yuck

Okay, so July 4th of 2006 is when I conceived Logan....then for nine months, there was no period. I had him and at my 6 week check up I got on the Depo Shot, which I stayed on until Nov. 2008. During that time I never had a period. I got off the shot because we were told that if you are on for more than a year, it could take up to 18 months to get pregnant, and we knew that was what we wanted. I had a small, short period in December, and another in January. Landry was concieved Feb.1 and I just got my first period last month....so basically I have now had 4 periods since June of 2006....that is nearly 4 years. the point of all this is that I FORGOT how incredibly painful it can be. I have such horrible cramps, and I do not like it at all!
JR and I both agree that at this time we do not want another baby. I believe that JR doesn't want anothre one at all, which is fine by me. But I am wishing that I would have known this concretely when I had Landry, because I would have just had my tubes tied while I was there. Now I will have to make a separate appointment to have it done. BUT - this wont happen for a while. Although I know without a doubt that I dont want another child at this moment....I am only 75%sure that I dont want any more period. There is a very small part of me that thinks that I might want another baby here in about 3 - 31/2 - maybe even 4 years. But then again, 4 years from now I will be a few months shy of 31...so I dont know....When I think about how much I love my babies, it makes me think - there is room for one more...when I think about the sleepless nights and the fact that my body is still not my own, or 100's of other reasons that babies are so hard ....I still think - they are worth it. But at this time, I am not ready to go through it again. My baby girl is only 6 1/2 months old and I just want to enjoy her being little. It is going by so fast...it breaks my heart! Maybe.......and it is one huge MAYBE when Logan is in school and she is about 4, MAYBE we will think of having another one. If nothing else, at least I should be sure, one way or the other! LOL

Speaking of school....Logan is starting a 2 days a week school program at the end of August. He will go Tues. and Thurs. at the local baptist church from 9:00 - 3:00. I am so excited for him!!! Next year I am trying to decide whether I want hiim to do the 4 day program with the church or start the pre-school at the school.....probably the later....but the church will be much cheaper and he is going to be in school for a long time soo I kind of feel mmean making him start early - which is why I am only doing the 2 days a week. It will just be like extra long play dates and learning....hopefully they can help with his little tantrums! LOL

Day in and Day out

So far today has been an uphill battle. Do you ever just wake up and instinctively know that the day isn't going to be easy? Well that is how today started. I keep telling myself it will get better - but I am still waiting! Maybe its because today is the first cloudy day in a week, I dont know - But Logan has been testing me ALL day. I got up with Landry at 7:30 we hung out for a bit...at 8:30 Logan was on his way downstairs. He was all kind of moody. Then things just progressed from there. I wont go into all the details, but it has been rough - and it is only 1:03 GEEEEEEEZ. At this point I want a nap, then to wake up and start all over!
We have gone to the park every day this week, its all Logan can talk about! I am surprised at how much sun I have gotten even with the sunscreen...I know it's kind of redneck, maybe even a little trashy, but I started letting Logan play without his shirt on...we are usually the only ones there, so it doesn''t really matter....Plus he wears it when others are around. But he has such a Farmers tan, that it just looks ridiculous! LOL I soak Landry from head to toe in no less than 60 SPF but even then I keep her in the shade as much as possible - but she loves to swing.
I am amazed at the fact that I have been working out for 15 days now, and just when I think things are started to get a little easier....they throw in this hardcore crap and then the soreness starts all over again! But I just remind myself, it is sore because it is getting used! I have actually gained 6 pounds...but all my shorts and jeans are loose, I think I have lost an inch and a half on my waist. Pretty cool! I guess the 6 pounds are muscle! I have said it before, and I truly believe it now, it isn't the number on the scale, its how you look getting on it! I can actually see a difference in my arms, stomach, butt, and thighs.....so I am sticking with it - only 45 more days til the end of the program! I guess JR noticed a difference too, because he said he wanted to start when I do my next fit test...but its 8 days away, so I told him I would just start over whenever he wanted...just to let me know, until then I will stay on course. He told me today that he wanted to start on Monday, so I guess we will see! I really hope he does. I seriously didn't even see any changes until just a few days ago...then bam...all of a sudden!
I started my period yesterday....which means that it took 35 days from my last period....I have never seen a man so excited about his wife getting her period! LOL.

A wonderful day

Yesterday was an excellent day. Randi Beth (my sister) dropped off Isaiah (my nephew) at about 8:45 yesterday morning. He was fine, he and Logan played...I was extremely irritable, #1 I wasn't feeling well, #2 I was stressed about what is wrong with me, #3 JR has been working so much that I haven't had any quality "me" time in about 3 weeks....everything was just getting to me. My sister finished working and came to pick up Isaiah at a little after 1, and she was gracious enough to acknowledge how much I have been watching her son lately, so she offered to take Logan with her and give me a little break! I jumped at the chance...in fact, looking back I may have been toooooo eager to say goodbye! LOL After about 30 minutes Landry went down for a nap, and I just relaxed, read some of my book and watched a soap opera! I decided to go out and get some yard work done...I pulled some weeds in the back yard...my back yard is a wreck...They are building so many houses in our neighborhood, so every day this truck comes by to spray down the street...its like a giant pressure washer...my guess is that they do this in order to clear any debris, like nails and things that could puncture tires. The problem is that it also disperses WEEDS...We did weed and feed twice - and it is still overgrown with these little bastards. So I am trying to pull as many as I can and then do the weed and feed again. Anyway, so when I was finished I came inside and got my workout done, and then Landry and I went to the park. I fed her rice cereal and roasted pears from "Sprout" an organic baby food company that I have fallen in love with. Then we hit the swing and played around before heading back. It was relaxing. I put Landry down for bed at 8:15 and Logan didn't get home until 9:30...soooo peaceful. I was happy to see my little boy after a day away from him....but I was happy for the break as well. I am extremely glad for the break, because it isn't even noon - and Logan is already trying to make me cry - he is ALL BOY and sometimes it is a little much for me. The kid is so funny though - I just try to wait for the moments he is going to snuggle, or make me laugh!

Weekend fun and Medical mysteries

We will start with the shorter one - Medical Mysteries - About 4 days ago I woke up, went down stairs to eat breakfast, and upon swallowing my first bite of my yummy bagel I realized that something was wrong with my throat. I started to feel the area that was in pain, and felt that it was very tender to touch and I have swelling and some sort of lump. It is directly under my chin in the middle of my neck....I almost want to say that it is where the base of my tongue is located. I am actually extremely scared about this...I am making my appointment with the doc today! When I was 12 my mom noticed this bump on the side of my neck and took me to the doc....it turned out to be a "nodule" or what I call a cyst....He said as long as it didn't get any bigger and didn't bother me, then no action was needed. I still have it today....the point is - this is different...this thing IS bothering me, and the swelling makes me look like I have a double chin.
Related or Unrelated??? - On the very same day, I started my workout, and noticed that my right calf looked enormous...my left one was big too but not as big...I finished my workout thinking that I would have to find an alternative because I did not want mammoth calves. When it was over and I finished the strecthing and all that stuff I sat down and realized how badly my right hip, knee, and ankle were hurting. I seriously think it is probably a combination of a flare up of arthritis....the fact that I have torn the meniscus in my knee, and the fact that my body is still getting used to working out. But I should mention that my right calf and ankle have been swelling every day since Thursday....I wake up with it slightly swollen and by the time I go to bed it is BAD. So could this be related to the neck thing...Is some horrible pathogen attacking the cells in my body? I am really scared....definitely not something I will just put off.

Our Weekend - JR had to work on Saturday, but was lucky ehough to be finished and home at 2:30. Dana and her boyfriend Noe came to visit and were here at 3:15. It was so wonderful to see her. I miss her so much and am so proud of her. Her last final is on May 12, and shortly after that she starts her rotations. I am very excited that she has a rotation in Austin. Anyway, we drank a bottle of wine, and just had so much fun talking and catching up. It was my first time to meet her boyfriend, and I really liked him. He seems perfect for her - expecially right now. He lives in El Paso, and with Dana's busy schedule and studying and the upcoming rotations (she does 6 - I think - each one is 6 weeks long, and not all of them are in Houston) having a boyfriend in a different town is perfect for her! Its just enough distraction to keep her from going crazy, but not enough to interfere with her studies. I really like him, and believe he will be around for a while. She just seems so happy - which makes me happy! After they left, we loased up the kids and headed to some other friends of ours that live about a mile up the road. They were having a Bar-B-Q. We stayed all day and all night. It was a blast. Luckily the kids were pretty wonderful too. Logan fell asleep on the way so we put him in the guest bedroom as soon as we got there...Landry joined him about 45 minutes later! It was great to have a whole hour of time with friends, while not chasing a kid or nursing a kid....It was nice to just relax for a short period of time. We ate like kings, there was soooo much food, we drank, we talked, we played games, drinking games, and then more games. It was a blast.
JR had a little too much to drink, so he was hungover on Sunday. ughhhh.....Luckily, both kids took a nap at 11:00 and JR got to take one too....everyone was up at noon! I was outside doing some yard work....and I got a little sun! Hoping to repeat that today! I need to get more sunscreen! Around 3:30 my dad came to drop off Isaiah...he had two tickets to the Spurs game, so he took Isabella (she wants to be in the WNBA when she grows up). Isaiah stayed with us, and JR took the boys to the park because Landry was down for a nap. I used the time to get my workout done. Then when she woke up, I put her in teh stroller and met up with the others. We stayed and played for a while, Landry really liked swinging...and of course I FORGOT my camera. Then we all headed home, washed to boys hands and faces and headed to the Salt Lick for dinner...JR had never been so I was excited to see what he thought. For those of you who dont know, The Salt Lick is the best BBQ in the STATE of Texas. JR was in love! Dinner was obviously amazing, and afterwards we headed to Wimberley to drop off Isaiah with my mom. We chatted with her for about 30 minutes, and headed home.... I think we all crashed before our heads hit the pillows! We were tired! It was funny to see my mom...I haven't seen her since Easter and she lives 25 minutes away! LOL
Landry is now wearing size 3 diapers! Yay for my little growing princess! Two teeth and a new size diaper in one week! SLOW DOWN!

The teeth are coming!

Well well well...The time has arrived. Landry's two bottom teeth are poking through. She hasn't been fussy or anyhting...I mean, she was a little yesterday, but she has a cough - so I attributed it to that. Anyway, She was laying on the floor crying today and I saw the teeth...I was like...hello there! I am excited for her....steps to being a toddler!

sadness and politics

These days - the title of this blog "Sadness and Politics" seem to go hand in hand. But, for the purpose of this blog - they are two separate entities.
Sadness - As many of you know, I grew up in many different small towns in Texas. One of those places was a small town called Iowa Park. It is north Texas and about 30 minutes from a town called Wichita Falls. On Tuesday night, a man went into the Wichita Falls Hasting and started shooting. He shot four women. One of those women was a friend of mine in junior high and high school. In fact, over on the right hand side of my blog is a list of blogs I read and hers is one of them (LeAnn). LeAnn was shot in left arm and leg. From what I understand she went into surgery yesterday and is doing okay - well physically at least - as well as you can be after being shot. After leaving Hastings, then man went to a local bar and shot and killed the doorman, and then ran off into a house and killed himself. You can view the story on timesrecordnews.com This thing is so surreal and just tragic. It really hit home with me, probably because I knew someone involved. I pray for LeAnn and Aaron(her brother) and all of her family. I know that she has a very close relationship with God and that will help her recover from this insane violence.
Politics - For those of you that are living under a rock and haven't heard about the whole health care plan....olease get you head out of your ass! Anyway, whether you agree with the healthcare plan or not, o would like to encourage you to go to revereamerica.org Maybe you really like the health care plan that was passed, but have just a few issues with it, or maybe you hate the plan and want something different. Please go to the website. For those of you who agree with Obama's plan, you probably wont think anything of this website, but those of you who disagree, I encourage you to sign the petition. One thing I think we can all agree on, is that our healthcare system sucks. It needs improvement....but what kind of improvement depends on us. I personally have great health insurance as well as my children...but I want the choiced, I dont want my government to mandate what I need.
That's all for today....please check it out, and say a prayer for all the victims of the Wichita Falls shooting - if you dont pray, just think good thoughts and wish them well!

coughing and coughing

Baby, toddler, and mommy oh my! Well, Landry is trying so very very hard to crawl....She rolls around constantly while on the floor. Back to front, front to back....over and over again. I will put a toy just out of her reach and she will just kick kick kick her little feet and reach as far as she cna trying to get to it. It is funny, I eventually give it to her once she starts getting too frustrated! She is seriously so precious. Such a princess! I am going this weekend to see if I can find a slow flowing sippy cup. She seems to have no problem taking formula from Logan's, it is just hard to gauge how much she is actually getting because it is so fast that she ends up soaking wet! So silly, I am going to try a bottle again today...we will see what happens, but I am not enthusiastic about it! She has really enjoyed eating peaches and green beans...those two seem to be her favorite. Apple sauce seems to be too bland - but not to worry - Logan gobbles it up. Every time I feed her he sits next to her with his mouth WIDE open, so she shares all of it with him! Geesh - he is weird! Landry has been going to bed around 8:00 the last two nights...and actually sleeping. Both nights, I got up at around 2:00 and then again at around 8:00. AMAZING!
Logan is a little sick. I may be taking him to the doctor - he is acting fine...playing with his cars and other toys, playing the wii, going outside to play on the playscape. He is acting fine, but his voice is raspy and when he coughs, my throat hurts. It sounds awful. I noticed this morning that he is also congested, so it makes me wonder if it is some kind of head cold or allergies. Hmmmm. He is doing awesome at going to the potty! I am so proud of him! Such a big boy! I have even started packing extra underwear and shorts in the diaper bag when we leave the house in case of an accident. But he has been traveling without a diaper. In fact, a small package of diapers will last us two weeks with him, because he only wears one at night. When he gets up in the morning, off comes the diaper and on goes the undies! Every since I explained to him that the toilet was hungry and you have to feed it poo poo, he seems to be doing really well. Whe I put on his underwear I have to tell pee pee and poo poo in the potty...Dont poop on Buzz, or lightning, or spiderman, etc. Logan has become OBSESSED with his little sister. He plays with her all the time, he always wants to hold her or kiss her. Some days he makes my job very easy, because he is so entertained by her and he entertains her as well....just long enough for me to catch my breath! LOL
I have been working out for a week now....not much about my body has changed, except that it is sore! Actually that isn't really true, it has firmed up a little...not a lot, but a little. The weirdest thing about it all is that I have GAINED 6 pounds....of course I weighed myself after dinner, so maybe that was part of it - hopefully the other part of it that muscle is replacing the fat! LOL Only time will tell - one thing is for sure - my body will NOT be bathing suit ready by mothers day...I only have 16 more days, and yeah, it just wont happen! But I will keep going...hopefully I will see results soon!

Weekend

Oh my, what a weekend! We didn't really leave the house - but we got so much done! We finally finished putting everything away. I still have to vacuum and sweep the kitchen floor - but that is nothing! My house looks amazing! I am so happy
So yesterday I did my workout - yesterday's was cardio recovery - I had watched the video the day before to see what was coming..it was slow paced and there was virtually no cardio...but I am more sore today than I was after the first day! ughhh! The workout had a lot of yoga stuff and squats and lunges....and I dont know why but the area around my rib cage hurts so bad. Oh, how my butt is in pain! I just keep telling myself that it means it got a workout - I mean, it wouldn't hurt if the muscles weren't used. I am really okay until I move! LOL Plus, it may also have been the fact that I did some massive cleaning yesterday - I went up and down the stairs probably 50 times! Today's workout is called "Pure Cardio" and I am very scared! My sister is coming over to do it with me. Her first day was Friday, and she just does whichever video I am on...so today will be her second day! Poor Randi! I burned her a copy so that if she wanted to do it she could, and wouldn't have to drive over here every time. She said she is going to try to do it every other day. I hope she does. As sore as I am - I feel really good. Still not happy with the way my body looks, but hey, its only been 5 days! I hope its working though - I guess only time will tell!
JR left the house at midnight last night - he had a job at 1:00am. I talked to him this morning and he was happy to say that because of the rain, his afternoon job cancelled and he will be home around 11:00 this afternoon. So he will be sleeping for several hours! Poor guy! I think I mentioned before, but his offfice only has a handful of field technicians - JR, Chance, and another guy, and then the boss(but he only goes into the field if necessary). Well Chance broke his foot and will be out for 4 - 6 weeks, so JR has been covering almost all of his jobs! Gee...If he would have worked this afternoon, he would have been in overtime on Wednesday. My poor husband is working 70-80 hour weeks! It sure will be nice when the paycheck comes...but sometimes, I just miss my husband! I nkow he is doing it for our family - so that we can ppay off doebt and get ahead....all I can say is that I am so proud of him and greatful. He is amazing.
Last night was hellacious! During all the cleaning and putting away - I let the Landry sleep too long during one of her naps, which threw her off schedule, so she went down at 7:30 and got up at 9:00....ughhh she didn't go down for the night until 11:15...Luckily she woke up at 7:30 this morning...so as long as I keep her naptimes the same...she should have no problem going to be at 9:00 (her normal bedtime). On top of that - Logan refused to take his nap, and ended falling asleep on the living room floor at 7:00, he got up about 8:30 and was CRANKY CRANKY! He finally went to bed at 11:45. I finshed up the house, and said goodbye to husband, and drifted to sleep about 12:30. So I didn't get a whole lot of sleep, at least not the normal....but its okay...I just have to make sure the kids stick to the routine, and hopefully there wont be any problems tonight!
Logan poo pooed in the potty! Yay! He never pees in his pants...he only wear a diaper to sleep in...but the pooping thing has been difficult. This will sound awful to many of you....but I started putting Logan in the shower every time he pooped in his pants....HE HATES the shower...of course I may have scarred him from ever taking showers - but it must have worked because I have only done it twice, and all day yesterday, he would say mommy I have to poo poo...and we would run to the bathroom....and he would do it! So proud of him! I just hope he can keep it up!

randoms

I am less sore than I expected to be...So I will take that as a blessing! I thought I was going to vomit during last nights workout. It was hard but I got through it - thank goodness. I was all jello afterwards...I couldn't even go up the stairs for about half an hour. I remembered to take the before picture today....ewwww! Hopefully I will see dramatic results in the 60 days that this program alots! I am also hopeful that I can stay with it for 60 days.
I had a crazy dream that Landry was crawling last night. It was so real - when I woke up today and put her on the floor for belly time I was half expecting her to make her way across the room!
Logan is doing an amazing job at using the potty...the pooping is still on shaky ground but he is doing well. He is also talking up a storm. The boy is crazy, and seriously missing his daddy. He is on my heels all day long. Even when JR gets home....all he wants to do is cuddle with me, sit with me, follow me! It is annoying some of the time, but for the most part I love it. I love him so much...and I just enjoy being with him. He is my little prince.
The princess is 6 months old today! Can you believe how fast it is going by? I can't. She really cracks me up. She is so wonderful. I gave her a sippy cup today...its one of Logan's so it flows far too fast - but I was really just testing the waters. to my surprise she really took to it really well. She had a hard time swallowing most of it because how fast it came out, but what really had me laughing was that when I handed it to her she grabbed it and went at it with such vigilance. She held it by herself and knew just what to do. Too funny!
JR is still hard at work - I was so excited that today was Thursday...I just had to get through today, tomorrow, and Saturday and then I got 24 hours with my husband.....BUT not anymore - he has to work on Sunday - BOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! I am exhausted - very tired, all I want to do is take a nap. I seriously have to invest in a coffee maker - I need something to pick me up! Can't wait for Grey's Anatomy tonight! YAY!

half workout

So I only did half of the 45 minute workout last night...which is probably a good thing because I am still very sore, so I can't imagine what I would feel like if I did the whole thing. I didn't have time to do the whole thing because I didn't get to start until 10:00. I make it a habit to not go to bed after 10:30 - I may not be asleep by that time, but I have to be IN bed no later than 10:30. Plus, Landry went to bed at 9:00 which is 30 minutes earlier than usual, so I had a feeling we would be getting up in the night...and we did - 1:30 - 4:30 - 7:30 and we have been up since then. She was doing great at sleeping through the night...but like I said, I feel like we go 3-4 days of sleeping through the night followed by a week of waking up evvery 3 hours. We will see what tonight holds in store for us. Back to the working out...I have decided that I am going to try to do my work out during the kids nap time...the hard part is that they dont always take a nap at the same time. I guess I am just going to play it by ear and see how it goes.

On a good note, I got stuff done around the house yesterday, and it felt good. It wasn't much...the dishes, some laundry, I picked up all of Logan's toys in the living room - geesh-I still need to do JR's laundry and do some other things around the house...like finish hanging our pictures, but its hard because I haven't ordered the 8x10's of Landry and it will be hard to hang pictures without all of them....plus I hung some in the stairway...and I am not liking how it turned out, but I dont know how to remedy it...hmmmm. Just a thought, but surely going up and down the stairs over and over every day is helping to tune something, right?

oops!

Okay, so I did NOT work out last night! Ughhh...I really wanted to, but it is also something JR and I do together....It is an entire program so if I were to start before him, we would have to work out seperately when he decided to start. When he got home, he was so exhausted and just didn't want to do it. So late last night I looked at the calendar and did a little count...only 25 more days until I am at the beach.....O my! So with or with out JR I am starting today. I am even contemplating Doing it twice a day...once while he is at work and once again with him when he gets home. Now, I am 99% sure that this will not happen...but hey it's a thought! Every year we get out there, and everyone quickly strips down to their swim suits....everyone but ME. I am the one in my shorts and shirt the entire time. Well so is JR, so at least its the same for both of us. The thing is, I am not fat. I do have a gut....but it is the smallest it has been in a LONG time, but I am still self conscious. I am not saying that the people that go on this Mother's Day trip are all models. They aren't all super skinny...they just seem to have a lot more confidence in themselves than I do! I am a VERY confident person with my clothes ON....but take clothes out of the equation and it is no bueno! Anyway, I am hoping that I can firm some things up, and maybe flatten the belly a little bit (as much as it can flatten in 25 days, without starvation). Maybe then I will feel more comfortable....then again, maybe I am one of those people who chould be super fit and trim and still be self conscious! I guess we will see!

Missing my husband

So this weekend was pretty great. JR worked on Saturday, but got home around 3:00 which was nice. We went to our friend Desmond's house for a bit before I went with his fiance, Stephanie, to one of her bridal "kitchen" showers. It was a pretty cool thing. Weeks before everyone submitted different recipes and Desmond's mom had a book printed up with all of them along with pictures of Stephanie and the person who submitted the recipe. Apparently, the only thing she know how to make is cookies, so I hope the recipe book comes to good use for her! LOL She got all kinds of new kitchen supplies (i.e. dishes, flatware, spatulas, etc.) Anyway, it was really neat. Afterwards, Landry and I headed back to Desmond's for some ribs, and then I loaded up the kids and took them home to put them in bed (it was 9:00 - and I really dont want to get them off schedule). Luckily they live less than 5 minutes away, so that was nice. JR stayed to hang out a bit, which was fine.
Sunday, we got up and I finally primed the kitchen wall. I was really tired of staring at that awful orange! We didn't really do much of anything else, except watch movies with Logan.
Today, I got up and painted the kitchen wall the dark gray color, so now I am just waiting for it to dry so I can pull of the tape! JR called to tell me he would be working late today. One of the guys he works with broke is ankle this weekend, so he wont be able to work in the field, and the other field tech needed to take half a day off, so JR is covering both of their jobs this afternoon/evening, plus taking care of his. He probably wont get home until 8 or 9. :( He works again this Saturday. I am sad. Not like crying sad but I just wish we could have a whole weekend together. But, he keeps reminding me that it will be better for us in the long run. We are (well - HE is) almost out of debt, other than his student loan, which will take another 8-10 years to pay off! I on the other hand still have about 12 grand of debt (damn student loans!) We are excited though because it is hard to save money when everything you save is going to pay off debt. So the extra money will really help with the savings. Plus, I am sad to say that it has been 3 months since we have added any money to the kids college funds. But with all the overtime we can fix that! YAY. JR is working 70-75 hour weeks...I miss him. We are planning on taking a great vacation! I want to wait until the end of the year and go skiing! I haven't been in a while and would truly love it. Plus, I really want to talk my whole family into going...maybe doing Christmas in Ruidoso, New Mexico! We used to go there every summer and stay at my grand parents cabin, which they have now sold, but we could rent one! I think it would be a blast!
I have not been very consistant on working on getting Landry to take a bottle. She will be 6 months old in 3 days. The only way I can get her to take formula is through the syringe, so I dont really know what I want to do. I dont know if I should keep trying, or just wait until she is able to take a sippy cup. I know I need to be more consistant though. The thing that makes me want to keep trying the most is so that JR and I can have a night out alone. I cant really get a babysitter if she wont take a bottle! ughhhhh
The last two nights, Landry has slept pretty much through the night. Saturday night she went down at 9:20 and didn't get up until 4:30. She ate, went back to bed and got up at 7:30 for the day. Last night, she went to be at 9:25 and didn't get up until 5:30. She ate, went back to sleep and we got up at 8:15 for the day! I can only hope she keeps this up. Her doctors appointment got recheduled for next Monday! Cant wait to hear what they have to say! She is seriously so tiny. She only weighs about 16 pounds...which is another reason, I would like to get her on formula...she needs to put on some weight!
I am starting my INSANITY work out again tonight...If we are going to Mother's Day at the beach again, I would really like to tone things up. I am happy with the number on the scale -137!!!!!!!! But I am not really thrilled with the fact that there is still flab...ughhh. I am tired of being the only woman there with all my clothes ON. LOL

Busy day, MAYBE!

There is so much that I could and should get done today, but from the lack of sleep I dont know if I will get it done, or how much I will even attemp. Logan is going through something...He is even more of a momma's boy than usual. He wants to sit on my lap, follow me around...everything I do, he wants to help and be right next to me - I LOVE it! I mean it would be nice to go to the bathroom by myself, but hey - it all goes by so fast and truth be told, next year he may not want to be around me at all. So I am just enjoying it! Plus, I love all the kisses and snuggles. Landry is a little roly poly. She wants to crawl so badly - I will put her on the floor with a toy just out of reach, and eventually she will scoot to it! She is so cute!
I am determined to not let her sleep any longer than an hour for each nap today. Hopefully, that will allow her to sleep tonight. I dont know, I am so tired I can barely come up with ideas. LOL Yesterday I noticed that her gums where her two bottom teeth should be were really white...soooo I am thinking MAYBE her teeth are coming - but who knows...this has happened before and then her teeth dont come and her gums go back to pink after a couple of days!
Things I need to get done:
Hang up all the photos, finish doing my closet and JR's closet...rearrange Landry's room, go to the grocery store, go by the bank, pay some bills.
This weekend: I am going to try to get the kitchen wall painted, and I am going to talk JR into hanging Logan's shelves so that he can put up all his sports stuff!
JR is working on Saturday...BUMMER! Dont get me wrong, the paycheck in two weeks will be AMAZING, but having hiim home is pretty amazing too! I feel like that is the reason Logan is so up my butt - he hasn't gotten much Daddy time. He has been working so much lately, but hey - no complaining here, because at least we will be able to pay our bills...it could be worse - he could be NOT working, and then what would we do??? Today, is beautiful....oh JR will need to do some yard work too! I am hoping to get stuff done so that Logan and I can play outside! He loves having the playscape in the back yard. He always wants to push me when I sit on the swing...too funny! Anyway, I am off to change a diaper and then into San Marcos to get the groceries. I guess the only way to get things done is to get up and start doing them. Sitting and thinking about doing things doesn't really accomplish anything! DARN

Galveston on the endangered list

Here is a cool website I found while looking at yahoo news today! Kind of Sad
http://www.preservationnation.org/travel-and-sites/sites/southwest-region/cast-iron-architecture.html

Sleep will come

There are so many things I could bitch about right now, hell I wrote an entire blog in my head while laying upstairs praying Landry would fall back asleep....Instead, I will just say a few words. I NEED SLEEP!
Landry had a low grade fever on Sunday night and through Monday morning. By Monday evening it was gone. I checked her again Tuesday morning and it was back, I called the doctor. Tuesday evening it was gone - It never came back yesterday. Great, right? Okay so no fever, BUT her voice is hoarse. I tried to look down her throat, which doesn't seem to be inflamed, but what the hell do I know - My MD is in television medicine. So I put in a call to the doctor, they said to wait it out. If she doesn't seem to be in any pain it could just be allergies. HUH? I may call a different pediatrician, and if that doesn't make me feel any better, I will just take her in anyway...but I would rather wait until her 6 month appointment (Monday). She went to bed at 9:15 woke up at 12:00 ate went back to bed got up at 2:30 ate and went back to bed, got up at 4:00 ate, and wouldn't go back to sleep...at 4:30 I asked for help, at 4:45 I was back rocking Landry. By 5:30 I was back in my bed, Landry woke up at 7:00 this morning. Seriously? This would be different if I just had her....you know you expect to be up constantly...but LOGAN was sleeping throught the night at 6 weeks...LANDRY wont sleep for more than two hours! Ughhh....I am hoping it is due to her not feeling well. I usually try not to compare the two of them, because so far they are day and night. Nothing seems to be the same the second time around - except for how much I love them.
I got Landry to eat 4 oz. of the ready made formula....She ate 2 ounces early in the day and the another 2 ounces at about 7:00. Of course, she wanted nothing to do with the bottle, so I used the syringe...but hey whatever. I read you are supposed to introduce the sippy cup at 6 months...so maybe she will just eat/drink from a sippy cup. Although I am not sure she is ready to start the sippy cup. She is still not sitting up on her own...which makes me worry. Again - not to compare but Logan was crawling at 6 months and walking at 9 months...I think he was sitting at or around 4 months...I am sure it is just one of those spectrum things...anywhere from this time to this time is normal.....I dont know - I just dont like feeling like something is wrong, or she is behind. I felt the same way with Logan's speech. I still would have liked him to talk earlier and he still has a way to go...but that kid developed his speech so quickly over such a short amount of time...I am so proud of him. There is still the occasional babble...or when he doesn't know what something is, he makes up a name for it - which means that I dont know what the hell he is talking about. LOL His new favorite game is "What's that?" No matter where we are, he asks "What's that?" I answer - "A table" he repeats, "table"...then he moves on the the next item he sees. It is very cute (at first) but once you've named seven hundred items in a grocery store, it gets a little old! Plus, if you try to ignore him, he just gets louder and then he throws in the "MOMMY, WHAT"S THAT" LOL he is too funny. He seriously is talking up a storm these days! I love it!

Nearly a week

We have been in the house for nearly a week now, and there is still so much to do. Unfortunately, I didn't get a single thing done yesterday. I can't tell you how happy I am to be done with it. I am going to try to work on the house today, but what gets done, gets done and the rest will be done another day. Over the last month, my "stress less" resolution was put in jeopardy, but I am trying to get back to it. Which is SO much easier really now that I have my own space.
I am happy to say, that we are doing great on the sleep schedule (at least the going to sleep and waking up part). Landry has been going to bed at 9:15 every night...except last night when she went to bed at 9:30. Not a big deal, things were chaotic, but its another reason that I dont want to watch my sisters kids. She didn't get here until 11:45, Isabella would NOT go to sleep, so I am sure she had a wonderful time waking up this morning! But it also puts my family off schedule too, and I have worked too hard to get us on a schedule! JR went to bed at the usual time...10:15, we have both gotten into the habit of going to bed at a better time, and only on the weekends do we stay up past 10:30, which makes our days much better! Logan fell asleep on the floor, so I had to carry him upstairs. By the time Randi and the kids were gone, my headache had become so intense that I was nauseous, so I put Logan in bed with JR and I slept in his room. Of course Landry woke up at 2:30 and 4:30 and we were up at 8:00. I dont know what to do about that. She will go three nights of sleeping through the night and then three nights of waking up. Last night was not the night for her to be waking up, because I was SOOO tired. I am lucky that I am a light sleeper though because I still haven't found the box that has the baby monitors, not that I have even used them with Landry...I always here her cry, which is kind of funny, because I can sleep through JR's snoring, JR getting ready for work...I can sleep through storms and all kinds of things, but I can always hear her cry. Anyway, the point is, that although she may be waking up in the night still, at least she is consistantly going to bed at around the same time.
Logan is more difficult, because I cant put him to bed and then have him just stay there. If I leave his room then he will get up and follow me. I still haven't set up his dvd player, so I am hoping that once I get that done I can put a movie on for him to go to bed with...he inevitably always finds his way into our bed every night. geesh. I guess this is why I am so adamant about Landry sleeping in HER room and having a schedule...I didn't worry about it with Logan when he was a baby and now I can't get him to sleep when I want or where I want. Although, at least now, he is never up past 10:30 and he usually doesn't get up until 9:00.
I haven't been working on the bottle with Landry, due to being incredibly busy with the house and everything else, but I am going to give it a go again today. So far, the only way I have been able to get her to eat formula is by giving it to her with a medical syringe. It takes forever because you have to just barely push it...you can only let a few drops in at a time, otherwise she just spits it out. As much as I want her to be able to take a bottle, I am not ready to completely stop nursing. I was thinking about it yesterday, and I started getting concerned that maybe she isn't getting enough milk. Although, she is voiding normally and gaining weight, so I am sure there is nothing to worry about. It's just, that my breasts don't feel like they are getting full anymore...anyone who has breastfed there baby knows what I am talking about. I am really proud of myself for being able to nurse her exclusively for this long, and like I said, I dont want to stop completely, but I am ready to have my body back to myself. If I could just get her to take the bottle I could at least have one feeding that JR is responsible for - which would probably be the one after he gets home!!! I was thinking about quiting the nursing altogether once I got her on the bottle, but then I thought about the price of formula, and thought....ehhh, we will still have to buy formula, but I would rather use a can a month rather than a can every 4 days!!! So for now, wwe will just try to get her on the bottle, and then worry about dropping the nursing later! Baby steps!

Worn OUT

So today was the day I was absolutely DREADING. My sister dropped off Isaiah at 1:00, then left for work. At 2:15, I loaded up all the kids and drove the 30 minutes to Wimberley, got in the line outside the school and waited and waited...I finally got Isabella in the car and headed away form the school at 3:20, then headed to Wal-Mart in San Marcos to get a few items. I ended up buying a bag of chips for the kids...mainly because they wouldn't shut up about being hungry. I can see why my sister can't save enough money to get out on her own...her kids never stop eating. Seriously, the month that I was at my parents house I was so irritated at the kids eating habits. They eat junk food ALL day long and barely eat their dinner. As soon as Isabella gets home from school she eats two bowls of cereal, and not cheerios or some sort of healthy cereal, the sugary kind. Then there is usually the large bag of chips that her and Isaiah share and lets not forget all the candy that is stashed all over that house. I seriously dont see how they aren't extremely overweight, it sickens me to think about how much they eat...oh and drink, I mean seriously, it is soda after soda after soda. So we finally get back to my house, and they go out to play after eating the entire bag of chips in less than 5 minutes. I told Isabella she needs to take a larger lunch if she is that hungry after school. I mean I understand an afternoon snack, but come on. Anyway, they play outside, which is great for me, because I was just trying to relax a bit and nurse my horrible headache. Then started the in and out...I quickly put that to a stop. They just came inside and I instructed Isabella to get out her homework, which was followed by an arguement because she didn't think she needed to do it right then. Ughhh....can they not see that I am in a bad mood! I am so pissed. I dont want to this anymore. Next week, no matter what, when my sister TELLS me which day I will be watching the kids, I will be making up some other plans. I am not doing it. I need a week off...I need a week of being with MY family. I am so tired...4 kids really drain me.

Benefits of Breastfeeding

This was on CBS today...I am proud to say that I am part of the 13.6% of women exclusively breastfeeding at 6 months!

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2010/04/05/health/main6364292.shtml?tag=cbsnewsLeadStoriesAreaMain;cbsnewsLeadStoriesPrimary

slow moving

Well we are in the house, unfortunately; getting everything in its proper place is more of a challenge! First, it is hard to balance the time of working on the house and playing with the kids. Once Landry goes down I can get some stuff done, but I seem to have made a bigger mess than I began with. Unpacking a box trying to figure out where it all goes.....ughhh. I thought I would be finished by now. My current problem - I unloaded all the photos, which are now laying all over the living room because I am not sure of where to place them all. Another big problem is that I dont seem to be able to focus on the task at hand. I start one thing, then 30 minutes later I find myself on a different job. I almost started taping the kitchen wall to get ready to paint, before realizing that I am not ready to take it on yet. It is just such a big job!

On another note, JR and I were talking about doing a BIG float trip - I am trying to come up with a catchy name for it...suggestions are welcome - We were thinking we could do a weekend get together, with our families and friends. Maybe floating the river one day and going to Schlitterbahn the next. Doing a big bar-b-q...maybe some camping, maybe just staying at the house...not sure yet. I am probably going to get a babysitter, maybe 2 or more depending on how many children there are. I obviously dont have ANY details...we just started talking about it this morning. Anyway, I think it would be a lot of fun! Email me or comment to share ideas!

Peace in Chaos

I just have to say thank you to the Man in the sky for so many things. JR is working today, but just found out that he will be off tomorrow - HOORAY! Today was the first time in a LONG LONG time that I woke up feeling rested. I can't really remember when it was that I didn't get up in the morning and beg for more sleep! I dont know if Landry is in a growing spell or if she just had a hard day (which she REALLY did) but she went to bed at 8:15 last night and woke up at 5:07 am for a meal, and went back to sleep and didn't get up until 9:15 this morning! Geeeee - Even Logan got up before her! INSANE!I went to bed at 10:30 and got up at 8:30....which is still sleeping in, so I am happy. Our house is still pretty chaotic....I still have a lot of unpacking to do...but it is OURS! My sister brought her kids over yesterday and all the kids colored eggs, but there was just so much to do....and I didn't get it done. I am excited to have the house to myself today...just me and the kids, no family, no extra kids, just me, Logan and Landry. It will be nice to get back into our own routines....with is the lack of a routine (except for the sleep). I am going to continue to work on getting these kids to bed at decent times.
There is soooooo much to do, but I am sooooooo enjoying the peace and quiet. It wont last long - ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.