So Landry and I are back on schedule, at least halfway....he have been getting up at our usual time....around 7:30, but on the other half of that, she hasn't been getting to bed until 10:20. But hey we are getting there. To think that ONE single event has her knocked off course for two weeks blows my mind! She isn't back to sleeping through the night, but last night at 2:30, when I picked her up to feed her, I realized I was really hot, and took notice to the fact that she felt clammy - so I am going to turn the fan on tonight....I just turned it off last weekend due to the weather being so cold. We will give it a go.
Logan on the other hand is still not liking the going to bed early so mommy and daddy can have time to ourselves...I realized quickly trying to make him go to bed when I wanted was going to end in an UGLY power struggle, so I started a routine...(yes, I realize that it is a little late in the game for STARTING a routine). And every night, I have started it 10 minutes earlier than the night before...things were going pretty well....Two nights ago, I had him asleep by 10:15....But then I hit a wall last night...He didn't pass out until 11:30! Geeeee. You would have thought he would be exhausted. We PLAYED all day. He and Isaiah ran around the house, then I took them to the park, then came home and they played on the trampoline and in the back of JR's truck, then we took them to the baseball game, in which they played, played, played....then came home, ate dinner and played some more....all of this and he only had a 20 minute nap in the car! Ughhhh....I am still going to start the routine 10 minutes earlier than I did last night...I am going to keep trucking along! Hopefully one day, both my kids will be asleep at 9:30, and JR and I will have an hour to ourselves.
This whole going to sleep at 11:45 and getting up at 2:30 to feed the baby, then again at 5:30 to feed the baby then again at 7:30 and not getting to go bed until 11:30 at night is KILLING me! I am getting about 6 1/2 hours of sleep and it isn't even consecutive hours!
General Mayhem: One word...my MOM! Surprise Surprise!
I am counting the days until I am not in this house anymore, the woman drives me crazy. She comes home in a horrible mood every night from work, and on her days off, she sleep until noon, gets on her computer for an hour, then goes back to sleep and sleeps until 4:00...the rest of the time she is on her phone, talking to a friend about her farmtown on facebook... She is seriously the most miserable person I know. 2 nights ago she came home from Lubbock...a 7+ hour drive, she walks through the door, throws her keys across the room and slams the door...we dont see her for 10 minutes, she comes out starts kicking stuff around, grabs her computer and starts her farming...never says a word to anyone - and of course no one wants to talk to her...JR goes to our bedroom, after a while I go to check on him, and he tells me he was uncomfortable being in the living room because of the tension. I was thoroughly embarrased. She is 46 years old....the days of throwing tantrums are over! Last night she comes home takes a shower and gets on her computer...I had tried putting Landry down at 9:30 usually she might cry a little but then fall asleep, if she is still crying after 3 minutes...I know she is not going to sleep! So I went outside with JR and Randi Beth...I was right outside the bedroom window so I could hear her, when my mom opens the front door and says, "You know the baby is crying?" Yes, mom I know, I am trying to get her to go down for the night. And she says, "Wow, great parenting Sara...." then slams the front door. Randi and JR told me not to go back in but I was FUMING mad...this is about the 6th time since being here that she has told me that I am not a good mother, I am not a good wife....basically I am not good enough EVER. I walked in the door stood in the living room, and said, "I would just like to say thank you so much for allowing us to stay here - I wish I could say you have tried to make it as easy as possible, but instead you have just reminded me of why I wanted out of here so badly growing up. Do NOT ever tell me that I am a bad mother again. I do things my way, and you can't stand it because you have no control over the situation. If at any time I do something wrong in my parenting skills or as a wife it is because of the horrible example that you gave me." My dad looked a little shocked....I apologized to him, told him that I know he raised me better than to speak back to my mom, but until he could get her to control herself, I would no longer hold my tongue and allow her to abuse me. I said, her only goal in life seems to tear people down and make them feel awful. Of course, she was sitting at the kitchen table shaking her head, so I looked at her and said, "If you are so miserable in life, do something about it, stop trying to make every one else as miserable as you are."
At her job she sometimes has to do suicide watch, which always cracks me up because I feel like if the people that were in the padded room could talk to her for just 30 minutes, they would probably find someway of completing their mission! LOL
Anyway, she later got on the phone with my little sister, and tore in to her, telling her that she never succeeds at anything. If you know Vanessa, she has always been self-conscious about her brain....she doesn't believe that she is smart...even though she is, so mom plays on the weakness. She kept telling her how stupid she was. That she was a spoiled little bitch...(ummmm...who spoiled her?) This all came about because Vanessa is not doing well in Spanish 3, which is a required course for her major. Vanessa had asked my mom after the 1st three weeks of class if she could drop the class and take it this summer, my mom said no....So know she is probably going to fail or make a D, which means she will have to repeat the course anyway. She even hired a tutor almost 2 months ago and it hasn't helped much. IF she fails the course it will be the first F she will recieve in her 3 years in college....Geez....really? She doesn't succeed? Really? I just dont get it. How can you be so horrible to people you are supposed to love unconditionally. Then she told Vanessa that if she didn't find a way to make a C in the class she would no longer pay her tuition! That is when I told my dad, he needed to get up and go stop her. It was getting ridiculous...he asked me what he was supposed to do....ummm, I dont know, he has been married to the crazy bitch for 22 years...has he not figured out how to deal with her.....yes, he has, he ignores her.....but come on, step in and help your daughter who is being bashed every which way. I guess that is just my mom's M.O. cut down and threaten you with what is importand to you. Sometimes, I really HATE her....I guess I dont Hate her personally I just hate the way she does things.
So sad - wish she could be better - I hope my children never think of me the way I think of her. She does these horrible things and yet, I am the bad mother for letting Landry cry for 4 minutes! Let's just say I am not taking ANY parenting tips from that woman!
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