Panic is setting in! I realized last night after looking at my list, that I have so much stuff to do and not much time to do it! I told myself that I wasn't going to go all crazy like I did with Logan and have everything done by month 7, and I held to it...but now I am realizing that I probably could have done a little bit more! OOPS! I plan on knocking out a good quarter of my list today. I really want to take this time to relax and enjoy being a mommy to Logan before he has to share me! I have all these thoughts and ideas about how things should be and different ways JR can really help me out, but I doubt any of them happen. We talked last night about me taking the first night feeding, and JR taking the second...or the one that is closest to his wake up call. He said he was fine with that, but we will see. I also told him I wanted to incorporate an hour per week break for each of us. Not where we leave the house or anything, but one hour a week that I can go to my bedroom and read a book or take a long bath or whatever I choose with out being bothered, and he should get the same thing. I said an hour because I dont want to over do it! I am trying to make some realistic goals! I would love for an hour a day....but that is totally UNREALISTIC! I am completely freaking out right now though! I talked to my mom to see how long she would be able to stay....ughhhh! I was hoping she could stay at least a week.....BUT my mom is never clear on ANYTHING and she doesn't make plans AT ALL! her philosophy is "Why make plans? THey never go accordingly, you should always be on your toes and be ready for anything!" She is one of those- never leave the house without shaving your legs, doing your hair, putting on makeup---you never know what could happen kind of people! Anyway, so I asked how long she could stay and her response was, I will stay for a bit....HOW long is a bit???? JR is taking Thursday - Friday -Monday - and Tuesday off which will be great...but I was hoping that he could go back to work on Tuesday so we could save that day of vacation time for the holidays! But...it all depends on how things are going, and how much help I am getting. If my mom isn't going to be here, then I need him to be. I am just scared...I will be recovering from surgery, on pain meds, having to chase Logan and an infant. I was trying to pay attention to how many times I have to pick Logan up or lean over in one day....and that just wont be possible for a "bit" after I get home from the hospital!
Any encouragement would be greatly appreciated!
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