OOPS!

We went to visit Nikki and Travis last night...they are doing very well....but tired. Nikki looked amazing! I couldn't get over how beautiful she looked. Aiden is a very handsome little baby. He has so much of the two of them. He has Nikki's hands and Travis' feet! He was so incredibly tiny and has the bluest eyes. He is perfect! I am an idiot and didn't take a single picture!

It has been in the plans for well over a month now that we would be going to Wimberley for the 4th of July. I have been pretty excited about it, but as the time got closer, I was actually starting to dread the trip for many reasons. Since my grandfather has been sick everything has been put on hold. I talked to my mom last weekend and she said she wasn't sure what the plan was. Then she ended up coming on Sunday and has been here all week. I just got a text from my little sister yesterday asking if I was still going to Wimberley, so I assumed that was still the plan, although JR and I were contemplating whether we would still go. Then, I got a call at 10:30 from my older sister saying that they were packing up there things and were coming down here, would I mind if they stayed with me??? UMMMMM....how do you answer that? So, now instead of spending the day relaxing (as planned) I will be cleaning my house, doing laundry, going to the store for groceries to feed her and her kids. I understand that it isn't her fault - I mean it wasn't her idea to come down, and maybe I am being incredibly selfish, but I am not looking forward to this! So much for enjoying a family weekend, with no community service...we were going to go to Moody Gardens, and the Houston zoo! Looks like those trips are now cancelled...who knows when we will have another opportunity to do it! Iam so frustrated....and the sad thing is....this is completely TYPICAL behavior. Other than not wanted to spend the money, my sister is the main reason for me not wanting to go home this weekend, and now I get to be trapped in my own home with her. YAY! I am seriously thinking about telling her that my house is an alcohol free zone! But, then she would probably leave her kids with me and leave to go drink! I just dont have the patience for her.

On another note...I found out that the day after my grandfather was moved out of ICU, he was put right back in. This means that 2 out of the 22 days he has been in the hospital have NOT been in the ICU. He is again taking a turn for the worse, and it seems to me that his organs are shutting down- but I am not a doctor. His kidneys are no longer functioning properly, he was given a temporary pace maker two days ago, his lungs are still having to be drained from fluid and have still not recovered from pneumonia, he has cancer in his colon and liver. He spends every day on his back, unable to move, unable to talk (although he has a clipboard in order to write things down.) HE goes about 2-3 hours on the ventilator and about an hour breathing on his own, and is only lucid about a quarter of the time...every one says we have a long road to recovery ahead of us, but I am beginning to wonder is recovery is even an option. IF he recovers from this he will go to a rehabilitation center until he is strong enough to get around on his own---we are talking MONTHS here, and then we still have the cancer to deal with. I am very sad, trying to stay positive, but starting to realize that he may not ever leave the hospital. Everything that makes up my grandfather---his stubbornness, his promptness, his drive - all of it seems to be gone - he just isn't my Papa anymore.