Not getting better!

So I am not getting any better...in fact my eyes and nose burn so badly. Logan on the other hand is getting better which is wonderful. His nose is still runny but no fever for two days and his cough is much better. Yeah! As of right now, this is the only thing that makes me feel better. I even tried to change the scenery a little, I got out of the house...although I looked like white trash. That truly didn't help...it completely wiped me out, and while Logan is feeling better and wanted to play, I thought I was going to fall over. It was such a beautiful day so I took Logan outside to play and was miserable the whole time...but Logan seemed to enjoy it. That is of course until he started playing with his new golf club set!!!
Logan is definitely your typical 2 year old, complete with the tantrums. The bad thing is that when I get frustrated or overwhelmed or angry, I tend to scream...not at a person..I dont even use words...I just scream to get it out of my system....sounds stupid but it helps.....well it did until now. Without thinking this through, I have been doing this for the last 7-8 years now. Which means I have been doing it since before Logan's birth. So now, he gets frustrated or angry and starts to scream!!! I know that this is completely my fault and it is up to me to correct it. Ughhhh why did I do this! Part of me feels like he shouldn't be punished for something he learned from me, the larger part of me KNOWS that it isn't acceptable behavior and that I cant allow him to get away with it. This also means that I have to stop doing this.
His tantrums are ridiculous and seriously need to be put to an end QUICKLY! JR isn't really one to research things...he just says this is what we need to do and thats what we do. I on the other hand have this incessant need to read articles and get as much information as possible. I like to look at all the different options and then choose a plan that fits my child or my situation...I mean what is right for one may not be right for another, right? So starting tomorrow we will be trying time out...but I have seen so many different ways of doing this. Some people say that you put the child in time out then walk away and ignore the cries, but what if he doesn't stay in the corner??? Also I have heard that some people spank and then put them in the corner....isn't that punising your child twice??? JR and I dont spank Logan (maybe thats the problem) but that is a personal choice and doesn't mean we never will...we just dont right now. He has gotten swats on his hand...and we have "popped" him on the butt a few times, but it isn't really a spanking and its always with his diaper ON. Anyway, we are going to be trying the time out thing pretty hard core. I know that he is 2 and he is going to throw fits...but he literally throws a tantrum every time he doesn't get what he wants...I know that makes it sound aweful, and it really isn't. He truly is a sweet little boy, and he has been such a good baby...but the time has come for him to learn some behavioral lessons that he will need throughout life. When he gets older and is living all on his own and going to therapy for all the crap I put him through...his therapist may suggest that he scream out loud, or into a pillow to help release frustration....and that will be fine, and after he has his first child I will be there to tell him to stop, or he will regret it!!!!!
So wish us luck...hopefully the tantrums will be under control in a week or two!