So, My grandfather finally got his colonoscopy yesterday. He has colon and liver cancer. When I called yesterday evening my mom answered the phone (to my surprise...have I mentioned that my mother has been in town for two weeks, and we haven't seen each other once! I know that she is busy and I sound like a brat. I just feel like the least we could do is speak to each other.) I asked how the colonoscopy went, and her reply was, "Pretty much what we expected." Trying to get information from my mother is like pulling teeth. She will talk around the answer for days...it drives me crazy. I said...."well, what does that mean? What were you expecting." You have to be very specific if you actually want to get an answer. She told me that they found more cancer in his colonoscopy. I told her how sorry I was and asked how she was doing...even then she wouldn't give a straight answer. I tried to ask about prognosis...I got nothing. He was released from UTMB and taken to a rehab facility in League City. He will be there for about a week because he needs a full time nurse for right now, at least until he recovers from the surgeries. Anywho, I will have to call my grandmother again to actually get some information. I am more irritated with my mother now. I know it seems a little petty, but she ughhhhhhhhh.... drives me crazy. It's like she thinks that she is the only one allowed to be with my grandfather, and that she is the only one that can have the information regarding him. I understand that it is her father and that she is a daddy's girl...but when will she ever grow up? Anyway, I dont know where we are going from here. My grandfather really isn't the kind that will do chemo, so that really concerns me. Even if he decided to do chemo, I dont know if his body could actually handle it.
Right now I am waiting for the cable guy to get here...we are switching from Comcast to dish network. We seriously hate COMCAST. It cuts in and out all the time...we have a HD box, which runs very slow. When I want to rewind or fast forward...I hit play and it takes forever for it to kick in. Also, we pay $160 per month...which is just RIDICULOUS. I cant believe that we pay more for cable than for electricity. So, we finally made the switch to a different company. We will be getting all the same stuff, plus more HD channels and we will be paying one-third of what we pay now!!! Yeah!
As for Idol - I was wrong about the bottom three...it turned out to be Matt, Kris, and Adam..I was right about my prediction of who was going home though...it was Matt!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
100's
So this is my 100th post....also I just realized that I have completed the first 100 days of my pregnancy! Yay!
Now for Idol
Kris - I truly like you....I really like this song...I hated your version. I hated your last note. "The Way You Look Tonight" was the song. You sang it very well, but I just didn't like it.
Alison - Very good. You aren't my favorite, but you did well.
Matt - HATED IT! "My Funny Valentine" is a great song...your voice was good the arrangement was aweful. I think Jamie Fox gave you some bad advice.
Danny - You were just okay to me.....tonight has been a very disappointing night.
Adam - Once again, you were the best. They seem to always save you for the last performance...most likely to keep viewers tuned in for the whole show. You are AMAZING! I thought it was a little indulgent....but by far the best!
Bottom 3 Prediction: Matt, Alison, Danny
Going home Prediction: Matt
Now for Idol
Kris - I truly like you....I really like this song...I hated your version. I hated your last note. "The Way You Look Tonight" was the song. You sang it very well, but I just didn't like it.
Alison - Very good. You aren't my favorite, but you did well.
Matt - HATED IT! "My Funny Valentine" is a great song...your voice was good the arrangement was aweful. I think Jamie Fox gave you some bad advice.
Danny - You were just okay to me.....tonight has been a very disappointing night.
Adam - Once again, you were the best. They seem to always save you for the last performance...most likely to keep viewers tuned in for the whole show. You are AMAZING! I thought it was a little indulgent....but by far the best!
Bottom 3 Prediction: Matt, Alison, Danny
Going home Prediction: Matt
Confusion
So, I talked to my grandmother yesterday...it turns out that my grandfather has cancer. I am really confused and very irritated with the medical profession right now. I know that doctors are not magical creatures that can fix everything, but I do count on them to make me feel better. I understand that you live life, hopefully its a long life, but that at some point it comes to an end, and no doctor can make you live forever. I guess I have always thought that doctors were there to tell you what is wrong with you and then treat it (if treatable).
My grandfather went into the hospital on Friday, April 17. On Monday, he had a surgery on his cheek...they went in and cut off the nerves in his cheek because of the excrutiating pain he was in. On Tuesday, they put in a feeding tube due to the fact that he hasn't been able to eat. He had lost 7 pounds in a week. You should know that my grandfather is about 6' 2" and probably weighs 110 pounds, so to lose any weight is devastating. On Wednesday, he had another surgery on his cheek because they were unable to cut all the nerves that were hurting him. Finally, on thursday he was able to rest. On Friday, they gave him 3 units of blood. Yesterday he had a C/T scan where they found a mass on his liver. After taking a biopsy they determined that they were cancerous cells.
This is where my confusion starts. I was thinking that meant he had liver cancer...which he does, however they said that these cancer cells had spread from somewhere else....but they dont know where. Hmmmmm...What do you mean you don't know where? If the only cancer you found on the C/T scan was on the liver, it stands to reason that is where the cancer is....but I am not a doctor, and the doctors wont explain this to me, because they can't determine the source of the cancer at this time. Today, he is having a colonoscopy...this will help rule out colon cancer, but also they are trying determine why my grandfather keeps needing units of blood. They cant determine where he is losing blood from.
Basically, they cant tel where the cancer is, or where he is losing blood. Hmmmm...Confused? I am. Blood isn't just evaporating...it has to be going somewhere. Why cant they figure this out? Also, I dont know if any of you have known elderly people, but in my experience, once something goes wrong, followed by a long list of other things it usually doesn't last for long. I, sadly, have come to the conclusion that my grandfather isn't going to be living much longer. I wish I had more faith, but the very fact that the doctors cant seem to find their head from their ass is very discouraging.
My uncle is getting married on Saturday, and I dont know if my grandmother will go...obviously someone will have to take her. The woman that my uncle is marrying...her mother passed away a couple of weeks ago. I have a feeling it is going to be a very sad, emotional wedding.
As far as my family goes, my grandmother is the person that I am closest to. I spent every summer with them growing up. Even though we didn't do fun, exciting things, I always felt like it was the best time of my life. I usually had to share a couple of weeks...usually one with my sisters, who always went home after a week, and then once I got to highschool I finally had some cousins that I shared a week with, but for the other 2 months...they were all mine. For a whole summer, I got to be away from my family, away from my mom...I loved it! My grandmother and I would go on walks, and about 2-3 nights a week we played Liverpool Rummy...my favorite card game. I am very sad. I can't help but think about everything my grandparents have done for me. I can not possibly begin to repay them. I dont kow what my grandmother will do on her own.
They are very old fashioned...my grandmother cooks and cleans, my grandfather takes care of the bills. If they need to go grocery shopping, he drives her to the grocery store (which they still call "the market"). They still buy all their meat directly from the butcher...even ground beef!
The reason I think about this is because if we purchase our home...we want to be out of here in 2 years...in a bigger home, in a good school district. Basically we want to go further north...if my grandfather isn't here at that time, I dont know how I can move further away from my grandmother. I am just incredibly sad and worried.
My grandfather went into the hospital on Friday, April 17. On Monday, he had a surgery on his cheek...they went in and cut off the nerves in his cheek because of the excrutiating pain he was in. On Tuesday, they put in a feeding tube due to the fact that he hasn't been able to eat. He had lost 7 pounds in a week. You should know that my grandfather is about 6' 2" and probably weighs 110 pounds, so to lose any weight is devastating. On Wednesday, he had another surgery on his cheek because they were unable to cut all the nerves that were hurting him. Finally, on thursday he was able to rest. On Friday, they gave him 3 units of blood. Yesterday he had a C/T scan where they found a mass on his liver. After taking a biopsy they determined that they were cancerous cells.
This is where my confusion starts. I was thinking that meant he had liver cancer...which he does, however they said that these cancer cells had spread from somewhere else....but they dont know where. Hmmmmm...What do you mean you don't know where? If the only cancer you found on the C/T scan was on the liver, it stands to reason that is where the cancer is....but I am not a doctor, and the doctors wont explain this to me, because they can't determine the source of the cancer at this time. Today, he is having a colonoscopy...this will help rule out colon cancer, but also they are trying determine why my grandfather keeps needing units of blood. They cant determine where he is losing blood from.
Basically, they cant tel where the cancer is, or where he is losing blood. Hmmmm...Confused? I am. Blood isn't just evaporating...it has to be going somewhere. Why cant they figure this out? Also, I dont know if any of you have known elderly people, but in my experience, once something goes wrong, followed by a long list of other things it usually doesn't last for long. I, sadly, have come to the conclusion that my grandfather isn't going to be living much longer. I wish I had more faith, but the very fact that the doctors cant seem to find their head from their ass is very discouraging.
My uncle is getting married on Saturday, and I dont know if my grandmother will go...obviously someone will have to take her. The woman that my uncle is marrying...her mother passed away a couple of weeks ago. I have a feeling it is going to be a very sad, emotional wedding.
As far as my family goes, my grandmother is the person that I am closest to. I spent every summer with them growing up. Even though we didn't do fun, exciting things, I always felt like it was the best time of my life. I usually had to share a couple of weeks...usually one with my sisters, who always went home after a week, and then once I got to highschool I finally had some cousins that I shared a week with, but for the other 2 months...they were all mine. For a whole summer, I got to be away from my family, away from my mom...I loved it! My grandmother and I would go on walks, and about 2-3 nights a week we played Liverpool Rummy...my favorite card game. I am very sad. I can't help but think about everything my grandparents have done for me. I can not possibly begin to repay them. I dont kow what my grandmother will do on her own.
They are very old fashioned...my grandmother cooks and cleans, my grandfather takes care of the bills. If they need to go grocery shopping, he drives her to the grocery store (which they still call "the market"). They still buy all their meat directly from the butcher...even ground beef!
The reason I think about this is because if we purchase our home...we want to be out of here in 2 years...in a bigger home, in a good school district. Basically we want to go further north...if my grandfather isn't here at that time, I dont know how I can move further away from my grandmother. I am just incredibly sad and worried.
Monday, April 27, 2009
So much to say...
Okay I dont really have time to be doing this...I have tons to do today!
Friday....we went to the Galveston County Fair and had lots of food....It was delicious, and I ate Way too much. We also got soaking wet from the rain! YAY!
Saturday, JR and I got the grass mowed...he did most of it, but I did the front yard...then felt like I was going to die, so I went in and started on Logan's room. I FINALLY went through his closet and removed 5 boxes worth of clothes! The saddest part, after doing all the laundry in the house this weekend...his closet is still completely packed! How in the... Logan's room looked as if it would be a quick little thing I could get done before going to our friends wedding...it wasn't. The clothes are going into storage until June 1 (my next ultrasound) and if they say its a girl...remember, I think its a girl...and the last ultrasound said they were 70% sure it was a girl....then the clothes will go across the fence into Nikki and Travis' garage until 'lil Wodie is about 7-9 months old!
Friday....we went to the Galveston County Fair and had lots of food....It was delicious, and I ate Way too much. We also got soaking wet from the rain! YAY!
Saturday, JR and I got the grass mowed...he did most of it, but I did the front yard...then felt like I was going to die, so I went in and started on Logan's room. I FINALLY went through his closet and removed 5 boxes worth of clothes! The saddest part, after doing all the laundry in the house this weekend...his closet is still completely packed! How in the... Logan's room looked as if it would be a quick little thing I could get done before going to our friends wedding...it wasn't. The clothes are going into storage until June 1 (my next ultrasound) and if they say its a girl...remember, I think its a girl...and the last ultrasound said they were 70% sure it was a girl....then the clothes will go across the fence into Nikki and Travis' garage until 'lil Wodie is about 7-9 months old!
Logan giving his Daddy kisses
Me, Logan, Nikki, and Travis
I have recently realized that I have very few emotions....Irritibility, and Anger are two that surface the most! After the ceremony we were looking for a table to sit at, when a woman walked up to Nikki and said something along the lines of...Please dont pop! When Nikki said she had another 2 months to go, the lady's eyes got really big and then she did something even dumber....she asked, are you sure there aren't twins in there? Ughhhhh....Nikki handled it gracefully...I wanted to shout at the woman and punch her in the face....I wanted to say...And how far along are you? Knowing that she was fat and not pregnant. Instead I just looked at her and said...."She's really not that big!" Ughhh.
Mary, and the Pregos (I was trying to hide the food I was holding)
Later in the evening I went to the bathroom...upon coming out of the bathroom I ran into a woman I know (lets just call her BIA). Bia asks me when I am due and I tell her October....her eyes too get very large and she says WOW! I thought you were 6 or 7 months along. I say NOPE! I'm only 14 weeks. And The IDIOT keeps it going by saying, "Well, you are really showing." Ughhhh...I also wanted to punch her in the face along with telling her that she has given birth to 3 children and that she should know better than to say things like that....Also, Yes I know that I am showing early, but it is my second pregnancy, and lets face it...my first child was 9 pounds 6 oz. This one will probably be bigger...at least going by statistics...so as of right now they say the baby should weigh 2.5 oz. It probably weighs about 4!!!! Also, I wanted to tell her that she is 5'2" with heels on...so when she was pregnant she looked like a bowling ball. She gained weight EVERYWHERE and she reminded me of one of those trucks on the highway that take up a lane and a half and have to be escorted by trucks in the front and in the rear...You know...the ones with the big yellow ribbon across the back that say, "WIDE LOAD".
Okay So I am big...I get it, but I definitely dont look 7 months pregnant.
Nikki at 16 weeks
Me at 14 weeks (obviously bigger...but I started out bigger, and this is my 2nd)
Nikki at 31 weeks (or 7 months)Today, we are meeting with Walter, our landlord, to discuss buying our house. Hopefully it all works out...we are ready to be home owners..plus this meeting has been rescheduled about 5 times! Grrr....So now I am off to finish cleaning!
BTW....My uterus has tilted back....which means that I am back to where I started...I feel like I have to pee all the time, but nothing really happens! Grrrr. Ohhhh and sorry Nikki....I used your pics for reference...I hope you dont mind, if so, PLEASE let me know and I will remove them immediately!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Questions, Comments, Thoughts, Concerns
The other day there was a woman (Mary McCormack) on Ellen. She is from the television show, "In Plain Sight"...I dont really watch the show, but am going to have to start...She is hilarious. The point is I have finally met some that is as passionate about television as I am....check this out to understand!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=768N6v7a5Qk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=768N6v7a5Qk
couple of topics
Yesterday:
Yesterday was a SOMEWHAT productive day. I got up and took care of a few things...Logan and I went grocery shopping...Grrr! Logan had his fun in the sun time, and I went on a walk with Nikki. I was going to put up a baby name poll on here, but then I remembered out of nowhere that one of the names I was really leaning towards happens to be my sister-in-law's dogs name!!!! The name was Chloe, for those of you wondering!
AI:
I am an avid American Idol watcher. My mom and I used to watch the show every week and then email each other our thoughts on each contestant and our predictions on who would be kicked off the following night. Since she found out I was pregnant, we haven't exactly been on speaking terms...AGAIN! I wont get into all of it but that is the basics...She is mad and we aren't speaking! So, since we aren't sharing our thoughts, I am going to share them with you. If you dont watch the show...just skip through, but please be prepared because I will most likely be doing this every Tuesday evening...On the bright side...for those of you who dont watch...we are down to the top 5, so it wont be going for much longer!
Lil - More of the same...I partially feel badly for you because I can see how frustrated you are with the judges comments, but the reality is YOU AREN'T LEARNING ANYTHING! You are a good singer, but you aren't an artist. You lack the ability to make a song your own....basically, you would do better in a karaoke competition.
Kris - WOW! You started off as just a mediocre, cute guy. I seriously thought the only reason you would make it this far was because you would fly under the judges radar and get the vote from all the 12-40 year old girls. You are adorable, although the singing out of one side of your mouth is a little annoying. Even better than being adorable...You are very, very talented.
Alison - You are getting on my nerves!!!! You are a great singer and you are an okay artist....but please, branch out a little. I am tired of the same old same old! You can sing ONE genre of music, and ONE genre ONLY! And your hair is going to fall out by the time your 20! Do you color it every other day???
Danny - You are also a good singer. I really like you, and I have since the beginning...but just like Alison, you are starting the same every week.
Matt - You did okay, but if you dont go home this week you will go next week! The mole on your forehead is driving me crazy...please if you make it in this business, have the mole removed!
Adam- WOW! You are the winner of the show! What else is there to say...YOU ARE AMAZING!
Anoop - I really like you...I think you have finally found your comfort zone. However, I think it may have come a little late, if you dont go this week, it will be next week.
So there is the breakdown....It turns out...Lil and Anoop went home. My prediction for the following weeks. Next week, Matt will go home....after that...it's all up in the air. I would like to see Alison, then either Danny or Kris. But for sure I think Adam should win!
If you are wondering why I do this in the format that I used...its because after all the judges have said there peace, I say mine. I act as if I am talking directly to them....It's crazy, I know!
Yesterday was a SOMEWHAT productive day. I got up and took care of a few things...Logan and I went grocery shopping...Grrr! Logan had his fun in the sun time, and I went on a walk with Nikki. I was going to put up a baby name poll on here, but then I remembered out of nowhere that one of the names I was really leaning towards happens to be my sister-in-law's dogs name!!!! The name was Chloe, for those of you wondering!
AI:
I am an avid American Idol watcher. My mom and I used to watch the show every week and then email each other our thoughts on each contestant and our predictions on who would be kicked off the following night. Since she found out I was pregnant, we haven't exactly been on speaking terms...AGAIN! I wont get into all of it but that is the basics...She is mad and we aren't speaking! So, since we aren't sharing our thoughts, I am going to share them with you. If you dont watch the show...just skip through, but please be prepared because I will most likely be doing this every Tuesday evening...On the bright side...for those of you who dont watch...we are down to the top 5, so it wont be going for much longer!
Lil - More of the same...I partially feel badly for you because I can see how frustrated you are with the judges comments, but the reality is YOU AREN'T LEARNING ANYTHING! You are a good singer, but you aren't an artist. You lack the ability to make a song your own....basically, you would do better in a karaoke competition.
Kris - WOW! You started off as just a mediocre, cute guy. I seriously thought the only reason you would make it this far was because you would fly under the judges radar and get the vote from all the 12-40 year old girls. You are adorable, although the singing out of one side of your mouth is a little annoying. Even better than being adorable...You are very, very talented.
Alison - You are getting on my nerves!!!! You are a great singer and you are an okay artist....but please, branch out a little. I am tired of the same old same old! You can sing ONE genre of music, and ONE genre ONLY! And your hair is going to fall out by the time your 20! Do you color it every other day???
Danny - You are also a good singer. I really like you, and I have since the beginning...but just like Alison, you are starting the same every week.
Matt - You did okay, but if you dont go home this week you will go next week! The mole on your forehead is driving me crazy...please if you make it in this business, have the mole removed!
Adam- WOW! You are the winner of the show! What else is there to say...YOU ARE AMAZING!
Anoop - I really like you...I think you have finally found your comfort zone. However, I think it may have come a little late, if you dont go this week, it will be next week.
So there is the breakdown....It turns out...Lil and Anoop went home. My prediction for the following weeks. Next week, Matt will go home....after that...it's all up in the air. I would like to see Alison, then either Danny or Kris. But for sure I think Adam should win!
If you are wondering why I do this in the format that I used...its because after all the judges have said there peace, I say mine. I act as if I am talking directly to them....It's crazy, I know!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
New Ticker!
Hey I found a cool new pregnancy ticker that I have added to my baby blog and to this one...but you have to scroll all the way down to the bottom of the page because there is not enough room for it!
To Beautiful Days!
Today is absolutely gorgeous. Logan and I got up at 9:30 this morning...we did our usual morning routine, then I went outside to put new, clean water in his pool. He, of course, had to come along, so outside we went! He was such a big helper, although he had more fun watering himself and the grass than actually getting the pool full. My intention was to get it full, come inside, do a few things around the house while the water was warmed by the sun. This didn't work out, Logan was having so much fun that he didn't want to come in. So I stripped him down naked, because he was soaking wet, and asked him to come put his swimsuit on. TO MY SURPRISE, he listened. We came in put on swimsuits, and lathered up with Coppertone! Then back outside we went. We got out there around 10:30...not let me just say...I never do this. If we go outside to play, we go out around 3:00 or 3:30. I DONT go out during peak hours!!! But, I made an exception! We got out there, and I decided to get out the canopy shade. Anyone who knows me knows that I do not particularly like the sun very much. Maybe it is due to the fact I have been burned too many times, WHILE WEARING SUNSCREEN! I am a complainer by nature. I dont like to be hot, I dont like the sticky feeling of sunscreen all over, plus sweat. I am also not a big fan of teh beach. Mainly due to the sun, but also because I dont like the way sand feels. I hate that it gets stuck to you, then you ahve a mess in your car....which smells for days, then you track sand into your house...unless you hose off in the freezing cold water, then you make a sand pit in your shower. Anyway, I have digressed....I dont like the sun, but I LOVE seeing Logan have so much fun. Let me just say....WOW, did he have fun. So, I put up the canopy so that I could sit in the shade...even though it took me about an hour and a half to put together by myself! I have a major headache, which I always get from being inthe sun, but it was worth it today. Logan actually talked me out of the shade and we played ball. then we played some "golf" then I got into the pool and we chased each other around. It was so much fun. He did get a little annoyed with me while putting on his third application of sunscreen, but he took the 4th just fine!:) JR said that he probably had enough sunscreen and that I should let him get a little bit of sun....but we were out there for for 3 hours. I try to re-apply every 30 - 45 minutes. If you are wondering why...look at my picture. I am not really white, I am whiter than white. I have red hair and freckles everywhere. I DO NOT TAN. I have two colors....RED AND WHITE. My mom has had several skin cancers removed in the last couple of years, and although I take care of my skin now....that hasn't always been the case. I used to get burned on purpose so that it would turn into a tan......oh stupid, stupid youth!
I think I have mentioned that every mother's day JR's family goes to the beach. This is mostly because Carol, JR's mother LOVES the beach. Now after telling you how much I dont enjoy the beach. I think I should tell you that this is the one exception to the rule....and sometimes if we go on my birthday. I love spending time with his family, we all just sit around chatting for hours. Plus, we take the canopy thing, and I spend a lot of time in the shade!
So that is what I have been doing all morning, and afternoon. Now I need to fix lunch...mmmm, and then a nap for the little one, and I may have to indulge today...the sun takes so much out of you! Until next time....
I think I have mentioned that every mother's day JR's family goes to the beach. This is mostly because Carol, JR's mother LOVES the beach. Now after telling you how much I dont enjoy the beach. I think I should tell you that this is the one exception to the rule....and sometimes if we go on my birthday. I love spending time with his family, we all just sit around chatting for hours. Plus, we take the canopy thing, and I spend a lot of time in the shade!
So that is what I have been doing all morning, and afternoon. Now I need to fix lunch...mmmm, and then a nap for the little one, and I may have to indulge today...the sun takes so much out of you! Until next time....
Monday, April 20, 2009
Weekend Update
So we ended up not going to the crawfish festival on Friday due to all the rain. It turned out to be a good thing because it made me available to be with my grandmother. My grandfather was in massive amounts of pain, due to some sort of nerve damage in his cheek. He has been in out of the ER all last week and has been on hydrocodone and methadone. Over the weekend my mom took him back to the emergency on Saturday, where he was admitted and has been there every since. They were supposed to do his surgery this morning, but I haven't heard anything yet. I was pretty upset about not getting my corn and potatoes...I have been craving it for a week now! JR promised we could find a place on Saturday.
Saturday comes around and we were soooooo lazy. Finally, after making me wait all day (not really, I was sleeping) we decided to get in the car and head up to Clear Lake for the crawfish for JR and the corn and potatoes for me. The problem was it had been raining ALL DAY long. So when we finally got to our exit...we couldn't get off because the feeder road was flooded. So we decided to go up to the next exit and try to turn around. Guess what, after turning around the exit we needed was also flooded, and there were cars that were headed straight for us on a one way street, because everyone that exited was turning around to avoid being flooded. We turned off into a parking lot, to try to get out of the hell we were in. It was the ONLY way out of the mess, so there were about a thousand people all trying to go the same way! Oh, it was so much fun. We had now been on the road for about an hour at this point....I seriously just wanted some corn and potatoes! After waiting for forever, and being incredibly stressed out, we finally made it back to the freeway. We decided that going north didn't work, so we decided to go south. We made it down to Galveston and ended up going to The Spot....lots of people like this place....I have never had a good experience with the food! I didn't want to go there, but after 2 hours of driving I also didn't want to argue. We got inside to find out that 2 pounds of crawfish was 15.00 they were selling crawfish at 7.50 a pound....ARE YOU KIDDING ME. No one gets full off 2 lbs of crawfish....especially not JR. So, he ended up with a burger...I got a burger and ordered a side of corn and potatoes. I was so excited to finally have my corn and potatoes.....and then I took my first bite. UGHHHHHHHHHHH....it was not very good...it wasn't nasty, but it wasn't good at all. I was so dissapointed. So now I still crave the corn and potatoes and we had to endure an evening of HELL for absolutely nothing.
Sunday, JR and I did absolutely NOTHING. We literally laid around the house all day long. We didn't get any cleaning done. We didn't go to the store like we were supposed to....We did nothing! Well, that's not true...we did finally get around to transforming Logan's crib into a day bed. We also moved it into our room temporarily. This may not have been the wisest decision, but I am scared that he wont go to bed like he is supposed to. The first thing he did was jump up and down on his new bed, and I can just imagine him doing that all night long. So we moved the bed into our room in order to monitor him. He did very well last night, and if he continues to do well, we will move the crib back to his room in a few days. Hopefully, it will all work out.
That was my weekend in a nutshell. So, until next time!
Saturday comes around and we were soooooo lazy. Finally, after making me wait all day (not really, I was sleeping) we decided to get in the car and head up to Clear Lake for the crawfish for JR and the corn and potatoes for me. The problem was it had been raining ALL DAY long. So when we finally got to our exit...we couldn't get off because the feeder road was flooded. So we decided to go up to the next exit and try to turn around. Guess what, after turning around the exit we needed was also flooded, and there were cars that were headed straight for us on a one way street, because everyone that exited was turning around to avoid being flooded. We turned off into a parking lot, to try to get out of the hell we were in. It was the ONLY way out of the mess, so there were about a thousand people all trying to go the same way! Oh, it was so much fun. We had now been on the road for about an hour at this point....I seriously just wanted some corn and potatoes! After waiting for forever, and being incredibly stressed out, we finally made it back to the freeway. We decided that going north didn't work, so we decided to go south. We made it down to Galveston and ended up going to The Spot....lots of people like this place....I have never had a good experience with the food! I didn't want to go there, but after 2 hours of driving I also didn't want to argue. We got inside to find out that 2 pounds of crawfish was 15.00 they were selling crawfish at 7.50 a pound....ARE YOU KIDDING ME. No one gets full off 2 lbs of crawfish....especially not JR. So, he ended up with a burger...I got a burger and ordered a side of corn and potatoes. I was so excited to finally have my corn and potatoes.....and then I took my first bite. UGHHHHHHHHHHH....it was not very good...it wasn't nasty, but it wasn't good at all. I was so dissapointed. So now I still crave the corn and potatoes and we had to endure an evening of HELL for absolutely nothing.
Sunday, JR and I did absolutely NOTHING. We literally laid around the house all day long. We didn't get any cleaning done. We didn't go to the store like we were supposed to....We did nothing! Well, that's not true...we did finally get around to transforming Logan's crib into a day bed. We also moved it into our room temporarily. This may not have been the wisest decision, but I am scared that he wont go to bed like he is supposed to. The first thing he did was jump up and down on his new bed, and I can just imagine him doing that all night long. So we moved the bed into our room in order to monitor him. He did very well last night, and if he continues to do well, we will move the crib back to his room in a few days. Hopefully, it will all work out.
That was my weekend in a nutshell. So, until next time!
Friday, April 17, 2009
It's a....BABY!
Today was the ultrasound, and I know that some of you have been waiting to hear...but it was at 8:00...Logan and I came home and took a nap.
The ultrasound went well, all the blood work was already entered into the system so they were able to get my results almost immediately. According to my ultrasound and blood work I have a 1 in 3,789 chance of the baby having down syndrome and a 1 in >10,000 chance of the baby having Trisomy 13 or 18. I would say those are pretty good odds.
As for the sex of the baby....we were told NOT to buy anything yet, but if she had to say right now one way or the other...she said it was a girl. Apparently at this point in the pregnancy there is just a peak....if it's a boy it points up, a girl it points down. She said most of the time, it is so hard to tell because it just looks as if it is pointing straight up. My baby's peak; however was pointed down. So we are at about a 70% chance of the baby being a girl...but because of my own personal feelings...I am going to bump it up to about a 90% chance!! We will find out for sure on June 1 at the anatomy ultrasound. Tonight we are traveling up to Conroe again, we are going to the Crawfish festival. JR's cousin is in a band and he plays every year, but this will be the first year that we will be going. I do not eat crawfish, but I am looking forward to some corn and potatoes.
I once again woke up this morning with the same headache. This is going on 3 days with the same headache...it wont go away. This is what I have tried so far.....
Cold rags on the forehead
Tylenol
Ice pack on the back of the neck
Scalp massage
Quiet, Dark room
Rest
Nothing is working...I am getting extremely good at noticing when I am about to vomit, which means that I have been doing really well at making it to the toilet. YAY! Last night at 10:30 I ran to the bathroom and started...and JR calls from the living room, "Are you throwing up?"...Ummm...Hello? Logan was standing next to me the whole time...he was so concerned, he kept trying to hand me the toilet paper....if I wasn't vomiting, I would have been laughing.
If you have any advice on how to get rid of this headache...please let me know.
The ultrasound went well, all the blood work was already entered into the system so they were able to get my results almost immediately. According to my ultrasound and blood work I have a 1 in 3,789 chance of the baby having down syndrome and a 1 in >10,000 chance of the baby having Trisomy 13 or 18. I would say those are pretty good odds.
As for the sex of the baby....we were told NOT to buy anything yet, but if she had to say right now one way or the other...she said it was a girl. Apparently at this point in the pregnancy there is just a peak....if it's a boy it points up, a girl it points down. She said most of the time, it is so hard to tell because it just looks as if it is pointing straight up. My baby's peak; however was pointed down. So we are at about a 70% chance of the baby being a girl...but because of my own personal feelings...I am going to bump it up to about a 90% chance!! We will find out for sure on June 1 at the anatomy ultrasound. Tonight we are traveling up to Conroe again, we are going to the Crawfish festival. JR's cousin is in a band and he plays every year, but this will be the first year that we will be going. I do not eat crawfish, but I am looking forward to some corn and potatoes.
I once again woke up this morning with the same headache. This is going on 3 days with the same headache...it wont go away. This is what I have tried so far.....
Cold rags on the forehead
Tylenol
Ice pack on the back of the neck
Scalp massage
Quiet, Dark room
Rest
Nothing is working...I am getting extremely good at noticing when I am about to vomit, which means that I have been doing really well at making it to the toilet. YAY! Last night at 10:30 I ran to the bathroom and started...and JR calls from the living room, "Are you throwing up?"...Ummm...Hello? Logan was standing next to me the whole time...he was so concerned, he kept trying to hand me the toilet paper....if I wasn't vomiting, I would have been laughing.
If you have any advice on how to get rid of this headache...please let me know.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
The streak is OVER!
As you know, I have had morning sickness....all day sickness for the past 12 weeks and 6 days. As of yesterday, I was on a 3-day NO-vomit streak....but it came to a screaching halt. I think I have mentioned before about our water situation. Well, recap really fast....Our water got turned off AGAIN. I just paid the damn bill on the 25 of March, so I am not sure why it didn't last a whole month. The thing is, our water bill is sent to our landlord, who lives in Houston. We have asked him many different times to let us know how much it is for and when it is due.....We have yet to hear from him. When we first moved in March '08 he said we were responsible for all the bills...we paid the water the first 2 months we were here, then all of a sudden he started paying it. About 7 months later he said we would need to start adding the cost of the water bill to our rent payment. We told him that wasn't a problem as long as he sent us a copy of the bill. We have never recieved a copy of the bill. Then he just stopped paying the water, randomly...it got cut off, we called him and he came down the next morning to pay it. Then I guess he paid it the next month or two...We got home from Vegas on the 23 of March, the water was cut off on the 24, I paid the bill on the 25. Today is the 16 of April, the water was cut of yesterday the 15....so I am about to go pay it......The point is I am pissed about this. I need water folks!
So the reason I mention this is because yesterday, I was feeling sick, but hoping not to vomit, when it all of a sudden hit....I looked at JR and was like, "OH NO! I cant flush the toilet....Where do I go to vomit?" He quickly points to the door and says in a loud somewhat scared voice, "OUTSIDE!" I got out there and sat for a few minutes, Travis was doing laundry or something, and Nikki came out to hurry him along since we started talking. I am some what of a "chatty kathy" plus the longer I was talking, the less I was focused on the fact that I felt like I need to be sick. Sure enough after they went inside, I turned to get the mail.....BAM! there I was on my front porch vomiting for the whole world to see. It hit me as I was vomiting..."I should have gone to the back yard!" Thank God I bought all that bottled water, it sure helped with washing my hands and face, brushing my teeth....too bad it wasn't enough to shower with!
I really thought I was getting somewhere...I thought 3 days without being sick...woohoo. I only have 1 more week from tomorrow until I hit the 2nd trimester, when things are supposed to ease up.....I am wondering if they ever will!
Some symptoms of pregnancy:
Major headaches (had those with Logan, but I had them earlier and they were gone by now)
Restless Legg syndrome ( this is a new one..didn't have it with Logan)
Incredible Thirst (Don't remember it with Logan)
Nausea (Had it very mildy, gone by now with Logan...I only threw up twice with him)
Frequent Urination (had it with Logan)
Tilted Uterus (Didn't have with Logan...This causes pressure on your urethra, so that when you pee, you can not fully empty your bladder. It makes you feel like you constantly have a full bladder, but when you pee, only a small amount comes out!
So the reason I mention this is because yesterday, I was feeling sick, but hoping not to vomit, when it all of a sudden hit....I looked at JR and was like, "OH NO! I cant flush the toilet....Where do I go to vomit?" He quickly points to the door and says in a loud somewhat scared voice, "OUTSIDE!" I got out there and sat for a few minutes, Travis was doing laundry or something, and Nikki came out to hurry him along since we started talking. I am some what of a "chatty kathy" plus the longer I was talking, the less I was focused on the fact that I felt like I need to be sick. Sure enough after they went inside, I turned to get the mail.....BAM! there I was on my front porch vomiting for the whole world to see. It hit me as I was vomiting..."I should have gone to the back yard!" Thank God I bought all that bottled water, it sure helped with washing my hands and face, brushing my teeth....too bad it wasn't enough to shower with!
I really thought I was getting somewhere...I thought 3 days without being sick...woohoo. I only have 1 more week from tomorrow until I hit the 2nd trimester, when things are supposed to ease up.....I am wondering if they ever will!
Some symptoms of pregnancy:
Major headaches (had those with Logan, but I had them earlier and they were gone by now)
Restless Legg syndrome ( this is a new one..didn't have it with Logan)
Incredible Thirst (Don't remember it with Logan)
Nausea (Had it very mildy, gone by now with Logan...I only threw up twice with him)
Frequent Urination (had it with Logan)
Tilted Uterus (Didn't have with Logan...This causes pressure on your urethra, so that when you pee, you can not fully empty your bladder. It makes you feel like you constantly have a full bladder, but when you pee, only a small amount comes out!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Days go by...
Mowing the pool
Golfing in the pool
Dexter and Dezi
Dezi Lu
Mowing the Grass
Playing in the pool '09
Logan Play Driving
Only two more days until my ultrasound. I am trying not to get my hopes up about knowing the sex of the baby....but I really want to. It seems that at least 2 people we know found out the sex of their baby at about 12 weeks. I dont know if this has anything to do with the new ultra screen testing that is done at this point in a pregnancy, but I am hoping that we dont have to wait another 7 weeks to find out. As most of you know, I had a bad experience with finding out the sex of the baby when I was pregnant with Logan. I really dont want to go through that again. Not that is was the worst experience of my life or anything drastic...it was very difficult though. I want to find out now, because I am guaranteed another ultrasound on June 1, that way I can make sure that whatever they tell me Friday....it is the same 7 weeks from now. If they say its a boy, then 7 weeks from now, I want them to tell me its a boy...same goes for a girl. As much as I think about it, I am not extremely concerned. I mean, what are the chances of it happening twice?? I should say that....I dont want to jinx it.
Yesterday was another beautiful day. I used to smoke, so I would take Logan and the dogs out to play while I had a cigarette. Since I stopped, I haven't been doing much of that. Yesterday, I filled up Logan's kiddie pool and we spent a couple hours outside. He had lots of fun, and he got a new swimsuit. The water didn't have a whole lot of time to warm up, so it was cold, but he didn't seem to mind to much. I was glad to have an active day, plus it was nice to get some fresh air for a while. Anyway...here are some pics...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Hmmm...
Okay so I have a question....how come when you are in the early months/weeks of pregnancy you belly area gets bigger. I mean technically the baby is located just above the pubic bone....it is way down there, so shouldn't that be the area that is getting bigger. I know that in second and subsequent pregnancies you tend to get larger faster....but seriously, I wasn't this big with Logan until about week 20. I am still in that "Oh! She's put on some weight." stage, and it probably wont go away for another month or two...GRRRR I have a wedding to go to this weekend, another wedding next weekend, a baby shower the weekend after that, and then the next weekend is mother's day weekend which we annually spend at the beach...
(side note...can I just say that I love JR's family...we always celebrate together, and I ust really enjoy being in the company of people who actually like seeing each other and spending time together. Growing up we didn't celebrate holidays like Mother's Day or Father's Day or Easter. We really only celebrate Thanksgiving, Christmas and birthdays....and really birthdays were only celebrated if my mom was in the mood. I guess that is why I am the way I am at holidays...for example...Halloween...I love taking my son around the neighborhood (not our neighborhood) but I haven't gone trick or treating since I was 8 or 9....after that my mom always said we were too old for that. Easter...I haven't hunted easter eggs since about the same time for the same reason...and when it comes to birthdays, I am happy with a card and dinner! The point is I am glad that I get to raise my children differently....I am glad that I married someone that grew up in the complete opposite fashion, so that our kids can enjoy holidays.........off the soap box)
As much as I had hoped that I wouldn't get so big so fast, now I am wishing that I would just hurry up and look pregnant. Anyone who has ever been pregnant knows what I am talking about....You start off with your normal body....then you start to get this "baby bump". It's so cute and exciting....AND THEN....you dont look magically pregnant, all of a sudden you look like you've put on about 10 lbs, which lasts for a couple of months, and then finally you get the bump you've been waiting for....this is usually followed by an incredible growth spurt and then you wonder why you can no longer shave your legs, tie your shoes, or see your feet for that matter! This is an incredible process, and as much as you will probably hear me complain !!!! I LOVE IT! I have gone two days without vomiting YEA! the nausea is still there....but no where near as bad as usual. I will post my 12 week picture sometime today or tomorrow....I keep forgetting! Or maybe I am just not ready for everyone to see the LARGE growth spurt of my belly!
(side note...can I just say that I love JR's family...we always celebrate together, and I ust really enjoy being in the company of people who actually like seeing each other and spending time together. Growing up we didn't celebrate holidays like Mother's Day or Father's Day or Easter. We really only celebrate Thanksgiving, Christmas and birthdays....and really birthdays were only celebrated if my mom was in the mood. I guess that is why I am the way I am at holidays...for example...Halloween...I love taking my son around the neighborhood (not our neighborhood) but I haven't gone trick or treating since I was 8 or 9....after that my mom always said we were too old for that. Easter...I haven't hunted easter eggs since about the same time for the same reason...and when it comes to birthdays, I am happy with a card and dinner! The point is I am glad that I get to raise my children differently....I am glad that I married someone that grew up in the complete opposite fashion, so that our kids can enjoy holidays.........off the soap box)
As much as I had hoped that I wouldn't get so big so fast, now I am wishing that I would just hurry up and look pregnant. Anyone who has ever been pregnant knows what I am talking about....You start off with your normal body....then you start to get this "baby bump". It's so cute and exciting....AND THEN....you dont look magically pregnant, all of a sudden you look like you've put on about 10 lbs, which lasts for a couple of months, and then finally you get the bump you've been waiting for....this is usually followed by an incredible growth spurt and then you wonder why you can no longer shave your legs, tie your shoes, or see your feet for that matter! This is an incredible process, and as much as you will probably hear me complain !!!! I LOVE IT! I have gone two days without vomiting YEA! the nausea is still there....but no where near as bad as usual. I will post my 12 week picture sometime today or tomorrow....I keep forgetting! Or maybe I am just not ready for everyone to see the LARGE growth spurt of my belly!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Crazy Cookies
So I just tried to sign in and post a blog about Easter...I had to go delete my cookies in order to sign in.....Ughhh! Yesterday, we went up to Conroe, to JR's brother's house. They had a few people over for Easter. It was a lot of fun, and the sun finally came out to make fo a very nice day. We all just hung out, and I was glad we got to finally see their new home. The kids got to have a little Easter eggs hunt. Logan found the egg with the $20 in it. They hid over 50 eggs between four kids. One egg had 20 dollars in it, there were a few that had lottery tickets in them, but most had candy. All the kids had to cut off pretty quickly, so that they wouldn't all get tummy aches. Here are a few pictures....also Logan got his first "big boy" haircut Saturday night. He is growing up so fast!
Friday, April 10, 2009
more news
So, I also wanted to tell everyone that I got a job yesterday. It isn't anything glorious, but it will give me some extra income. I will be working in Kemah, at the boardwalk...I really didn't want to do anything that would make me have to think too much, or have to work too hard. So anyway, I guess it is good for now. I start on Tuesday, so I am kind of confused as to how I am supposed to feel. I can't really say that I am excited, but I'm not - not excited either. I am really just kind of blah about it. I have to find a daycare for Logan though. I am only going to work afternoon/night shifts so I will still get to stay at home with Logan for most of the day. I have to be at work at 4 which means that I will need to drop Logan off about 3:15 and JR will pick him up at the very latest around 6:00. So at least he wont be there too much and hopefully it will only be 3 days a week. I am not really excited about being on my feet for hours at a time...but luckily the second trimester is just around the corner, so hopefully my tiredness will start to let up a little (even if the nausea doesn't) I started looking around yesterday for some daycares...I started locally....bad idea. First of all, I went in to it with a bad attitude to begin with. I told myself I wasn't going to like anything in La Marque....and I didn't. Even though it isn't an entire day of daycare, I still want him to be somewhere safe, somewhere with a curriculum. I want him to be able to play and LEARN. Maybe I am just wanting too much. But really I dont think I could possibly want too much for Logan. Anyway...any of you local followers that know of a good daycare, or have some advice....please let me know! Anyway...that's about it for now!
Pride!!
There are so many things to be proud of right now! I am so greatful that I am pregnant again and that in the not so distant future I will be holding my new little baby! I am so incredibly proud of Logan. He is growing up so fast and learning so much every day. Potty Training is just around the corner, he has begun to reckognize when he poops. He brings me the wipes and a diaper and lays down next to me so I can change him. It's actually quite funny! I am so proud of JR who has quit smoking!!! YAY! I am proud of myself too, but the truth is...I never really thought it would be hard for me to stop, but I didn't think JR would be able to quit so easily.
This weekend is Easter. I think we are going up to north Houston on Sunday to spend Easter with JR's brother. It will be a lot of fun. Logan doesn't get to play with his cousin very much, so it will be nice to see them together. Once again, I am side tracked...i will have to finish this later!
This weekend is Easter. I think we are going up to north Houston on Sunday to spend Easter with JR's brother. It will be a lot of fun. Logan doesn't get to play with his cousin very much, so it will be nice to see them together. Once again, I am side tracked...i will have to finish this later!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Expecting!
So for all of you internet followers of mine, the time has come to tell you a little secret...JR and I are expecting another baby! I am 11 weeks along and looking forward to the second trimester to roll around! JR and I are so excited and we cant wait wait to meet our newest little one. I have started a baby blog I am going to put a link over with the other blogs I read...but until I figure out how to do it.. the website is www.babysites.com/sites/babyluck Although I can not promise that I will not talk about babies at all on this blog, I will leave some of the more detailed information to the baby blog!
I have a lot to say, but I have had a really long day and I need to just relax for a bit! So I will tell you more later, but its ta-ta for now!
I have a lot to say, but I have had a really long day and I need to just relax for a bit! So I will tell you more later, but its ta-ta for now!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Enough is enough!
Okay so I know that this is all I have blogged about lately so I will keep it short. Logan and I STILL sick. We were getting better and now...we are back to where we were 3 days ago. Grrrr....
Monday, April 6, 2009
Yikes!!!
I went to blow my nose and I think I blew my ear drum clean out of my ear! I really thought I was getting better..and I really am, but I think my cold has turned into a sinus infection...GRRR! Will I ever get better?? My friend is also sick with this crap and although she blames it on her husband, I am scared that I may have had something to do with it. When I first got sick, I went over to borrow her vacuum. I stayed in one corner of her kitchen, and I told her I was sick. When I left I told her to spray some lysol on the door handle and in the corner of where I was. I just would hate to think that I had anything to do with her getting sick.
The weather has taken a turn for the colder side which is only making my nose stuffier. This weekend was BEAUTIFUL and while most people were outside enjoying the great weather, I was inside sleeping most of the day away. I cant really smell anything but I have this aweful smell that wont go away....like it is stuck in my nostrils or something, and it smells like ant killer. It really grosses me out and makes me feel nauseous all the time. On top of that, I have this nasty taste in my mouth that just adds to the feeling of sickness. It doesn't matter how many times I brush my teeth or rinse out my mouth...the taste is there. I really just wish I could feel good again!!!! UGHHH!
PS...Those of you wondering, Logan has been in time out countless times now, he is getting better, but far the sweet little boy he should be. It kills me because when my mom and JR's mom watched him while we were in Vegas, they talked about how wonderful he was, and how he listened and did what he was told. WHERE IS THAT LITTLE BOY! Anyway, the point is that he is doing much better!
The weather has taken a turn for the colder side which is only making my nose stuffier. This weekend was BEAUTIFUL and while most people were outside enjoying the great weather, I was inside sleeping most of the day away. I cant really smell anything but I have this aweful smell that wont go away....like it is stuck in my nostrils or something, and it smells like ant killer. It really grosses me out and makes me feel nauseous all the time. On top of that, I have this nasty taste in my mouth that just adds to the feeling of sickness. It doesn't matter how many times I brush my teeth or rinse out my mouth...the taste is there. I really just wish I could feel good again!!!! UGHHH!
PS...Those of you wondering, Logan has been in time out countless times now, he is getting better, but far the sweet little boy he should be. It kills me because when my mom and JR's mom watched him while we were in Vegas, they talked about how wonderful he was, and how he listened and did what he was told. WHERE IS THAT LITTLE BOY! Anyway, the point is that he is doing much better!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Success
So for the first time in days I can breathe through my nose! Yipeee....the bad part is that I slept for like 16 hours in the last 24 and now it is 1:30 in the morning and I can't fall asleep! Whew! I have made some changes to my blog so that other people can comment and other little things that I have been meaning to do for a while now. Also, a friend of mine from high school just starting blogging and I am super excited about that!
I am about to start looking for a job....ughhhh! We could really use the extra income, but I just dont want to do it. I had a dream that my old boss called and said she wa starting the foundation up again and that she needed me back....too bad it was just a dream. See I used to have this really great job where I got to work from home and made good money, but my boss dissolved the foundation when her parents got sick and now there is no more job. I would love to find another stay at home job...but I am skeptical of things found on the internet. When I was pregnant with Logan I thought I could sell Mary Kay, because I would be at home most of the time, but that never really worked. I learned that I am not a salesman, I dont have the ability to talk someone into buying something they dont want...in fact it makes me uncomfortable! Like the people at the mall kiosks...the ones that get your attention by practically jumping out at you and then want you to come try their product and then sell it to you....I could never do that. I really just want something I can do over the computer or over the phone, without having to sell something or hassle people!
So far I have had no luck finding something like this. I am also not looking for a full time job, which I guess is good...I dont know. Anyway, I just need to find some part time work, that doesn't require me to put Logan in daycare everyday for 8-9 hours a day. I would like to find a daycare that he can go to maybe 3 times a week (MAX) for just a few hours a day. I think that daycare is really good for kids, and I think Logan is at an age that playing with others and some other basic behavioral skills would be really good for him. I just dont want to overload him too quickly... Maybe a couple of hours at first, then a couple of days, and before you know it...BAM! My other issue with daycare (on the flip side) is that I dont want to go to work just to make enough money to pay for daycare....what is the point. That has been my issue from day 1 and it is still there. Why get a job that pays 1000/month and spend 800 on daycare? THe other 200 wouldn't even cover the cost of gas to daycare--to work--back to daycare--home! Anyway...I am still stuck with this, which is why I said I would get a part time job and take things slow! We will see!
The other part of the success is that Logan did pretty well for his first day of time out! We had some issues with him staying in the corner...and he will NOT face the corner, but I quickly learned to put him facing the corner, step away, with my back to him and just wait out the two minutes with him. It doesn't stop him from crying, but at least he doesn't run away! Tomorrow, I am going to take two steps away from him! Eventually I am hoping to tell him he is in time out and he will just go...We'll see! I can tell it is making an impact on him though. After each time out he comes and gives me a hug, as if to say that he is sorry. I tell him what he did and why it isn't acceptable...quick short words, not a long drawn out explanation. "When you throw and fit, you go to time out!" By the end of the day if he started to throw a fit, I would tell him no and mention time out, and he would stop! YAY! Not that I want to go around threatening my kid all the time but at least it gets him to think about consequences. I just have to figure out how to handle this situation in public!!!!
Any advice???
I am about to start looking for a job....ughhhh! We could really use the extra income, but I just dont want to do it. I had a dream that my old boss called and said she wa starting the foundation up again and that she needed me back....too bad it was just a dream. See I used to have this really great job where I got to work from home and made good money, but my boss dissolved the foundation when her parents got sick and now there is no more job. I would love to find another stay at home job...but I am skeptical of things found on the internet. When I was pregnant with Logan I thought I could sell Mary Kay, because I would be at home most of the time, but that never really worked. I learned that I am not a salesman, I dont have the ability to talk someone into buying something they dont want...in fact it makes me uncomfortable! Like the people at the mall kiosks...the ones that get your attention by practically jumping out at you and then want you to come try their product and then sell it to you....I could never do that. I really just want something I can do over the computer or over the phone, without having to sell something or hassle people!
So far I have had no luck finding something like this. I am also not looking for a full time job, which I guess is good...I dont know. Anyway, I just need to find some part time work, that doesn't require me to put Logan in daycare everyday for 8-9 hours a day. I would like to find a daycare that he can go to maybe 3 times a week (MAX) for just a few hours a day. I think that daycare is really good for kids, and I think Logan is at an age that playing with others and some other basic behavioral skills would be really good for him. I just dont want to overload him too quickly... Maybe a couple of hours at first, then a couple of days, and before you know it...BAM! My other issue with daycare (on the flip side) is that I dont want to go to work just to make enough money to pay for daycare....what is the point. That has been my issue from day 1 and it is still there. Why get a job that pays 1000/month and spend 800 on daycare? THe other 200 wouldn't even cover the cost of gas to daycare--to work--back to daycare--home! Anyway...I am still stuck with this, which is why I said I would get a part time job and take things slow! We will see!
The other part of the success is that Logan did pretty well for his first day of time out! We had some issues with him staying in the corner...and he will NOT face the corner, but I quickly learned to put him facing the corner, step away, with my back to him and just wait out the two minutes with him. It doesn't stop him from crying, but at least he doesn't run away! Tomorrow, I am going to take two steps away from him! Eventually I am hoping to tell him he is in time out and he will just go...We'll see! I can tell it is making an impact on him though. After each time out he comes and gives me a hug, as if to say that he is sorry. I tell him what he did and why it isn't acceptable...quick short words, not a long drawn out explanation. "When you throw and fit, you go to time out!" By the end of the day if he started to throw a fit, I would tell him no and mention time out, and he would stop! YAY! Not that I want to go around threatening my kid all the time but at least it gets him to think about consequences. I just have to figure out how to handle this situation in public!!!!
Any advice???
Friday, April 3, 2009
Not getting better!
So I am not getting any better...in fact my eyes and nose burn so badly. Logan on the other hand is getting better which is wonderful. His nose is still runny but no fever for two days and his cough is much better. Yeah! As of right now, this is the only thing that makes me feel better. I even tried to change the scenery a little, I got out of the house...although I looked like white trash. That truly didn't help...it completely wiped me out, and while Logan is feeling better and wanted to play, I thought I was going to fall over. It was such a beautiful day so I took Logan outside to play and was miserable the whole time...but Logan seemed to enjoy it. That is of course until he started playing with his new golf club set!!!
Logan is definitely your typical 2 year old, complete with the tantrums. The bad thing is that when I get frustrated or overwhelmed or angry, I tend to scream...not at a person..I dont even use words...I just scream to get it out of my system....sounds stupid but it helps.....well it did until now. Without thinking this through, I have been doing this for the last 7-8 years now. Which means I have been doing it since before Logan's birth. So now, he gets frustrated or angry and starts to scream!!! I know that this is completely my fault and it is up to me to correct it. Ughhhh why did I do this! Part of me feels like he shouldn't be punished for something he learned from me, the larger part of me KNOWS that it isn't acceptable behavior and that I cant allow him to get away with it. This also means that I have to stop doing this.
His tantrums are ridiculous and seriously need to be put to an end QUICKLY! JR isn't really one to research things...he just says this is what we need to do and thats what we do. I on the other hand have this incessant need to read articles and get as much information as possible. I like to look at all the different options and then choose a plan that fits my child or my situation...I mean what is right for one may not be right for another, right? So starting tomorrow we will be trying time out...but I have seen so many different ways of doing this. Some people say that you put the child in time out then walk away and ignore the cries, but what if he doesn't stay in the corner??? Also I have heard that some people spank and then put them in the corner....isn't that punising your child twice??? JR and I dont spank Logan (maybe thats the problem) but that is a personal choice and doesn't mean we never will...we just dont right now. He has gotten swats on his hand...and we have "popped" him on the butt a few times, but it isn't really a spanking and its always with his diaper ON. Anyway, we are going to be trying the time out thing pretty hard core. I know that he is 2 and he is going to throw fits...but he literally throws a tantrum every time he doesn't get what he wants...I know that makes it sound aweful, and it really isn't. He truly is a sweet little boy, and he has been such a good baby...but the time has come for him to learn some behavioral lessons that he will need throughout life. When he gets older and is living all on his own and going to therapy for all the crap I put him through...his therapist may suggest that he scream out loud, or into a pillow to help release frustration....and that will be fine, and after he has his first child I will be there to tell him to stop, or he will regret it!!!!!
So wish us luck...hopefully the tantrums will be under control in a week or two!
Logan is definitely your typical 2 year old, complete with the tantrums. The bad thing is that when I get frustrated or overwhelmed or angry, I tend to scream...not at a person..I dont even use words...I just scream to get it out of my system....sounds stupid but it helps.....well it did until now. Without thinking this through, I have been doing this for the last 7-8 years now. Which means I have been doing it since before Logan's birth. So now, he gets frustrated or angry and starts to scream!!! I know that this is completely my fault and it is up to me to correct it. Ughhhh why did I do this! Part of me feels like he shouldn't be punished for something he learned from me, the larger part of me KNOWS that it isn't acceptable behavior and that I cant allow him to get away with it. This also means that I have to stop doing this.
His tantrums are ridiculous and seriously need to be put to an end QUICKLY! JR isn't really one to research things...he just says this is what we need to do and thats what we do. I on the other hand have this incessant need to read articles and get as much information as possible. I like to look at all the different options and then choose a plan that fits my child or my situation...I mean what is right for one may not be right for another, right? So starting tomorrow we will be trying time out...but I have seen so many different ways of doing this. Some people say that you put the child in time out then walk away and ignore the cries, but what if he doesn't stay in the corner??? Also I have heard that some people spank and then put them in the corner....isn't that punising your child twice??? JR and I dont spank Logan (maybe thats the problem) but that is a personal choice and doesn't mean we never will...we just dont right now. He has gotten swats on his hand...and we have "popped" him on the butt a few times, but it isn't really a spanking and its always with his diaper ON. Anyway, we are going to be trying the time out thing pretty hard core. I know that he is 2 and he is going to throw fits...but he literally throws a tantrum every time he doesn't get what he wants...I know that makes it sound aweful, and it really isn't. He truly is a sweet little boy, and he has been such a good baby...but the time has come for him to learn some behavioral lessons that he will need throughout life. When he gets older and is living all on his own and going to therapy for all the crap I put him through...his therapist may suggest that he scream out loud, or into a pillow to help release frustration....and that will be fine, and after he has his first child I will be there to tell him to stop, or he will regret it!!!!!
So wish us luck...hopefully the tantrums will be under control in a week or two!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Sick
Okay...so Logan and my cough has turned into a full blown cold! I think I am giong to die. I am so sick. I am so tired....Logan is running a small fever and his nose wont stop running and his cough is just aweful! My head is about to explode, my nose is driving me crazy it also wont stop running, although I will say my cough isn't as bad as Logans. Most likely because I can blow my nose to keep the phlem from going down my throat! I was hoping Logan would take a long nap with me, but I gave him some medicine about 45 minutes ago, and his nose has miraculously stopped running (for a short amount of time) and I guess he is feeling better because he is all of a sudden running around like everything is fine. His head is still a little warm, so I am trying to keep him still, but he is going crazy. He is also being as defiant as possible. He is doing things that he knows not to do. Usually I only have to say "no" or some form of no and he will stop what he's doing...on days that he is really being a little fart, I may have to say no a few times followed by a talk or a time out, when things get really bad I have to raise my voice, which makes me feel aweful. As anyone knows, when you aren't feeling well, you aren't exactly the most patient person. Logan is intentionally doing things he knows not to do, when I tell him no he continues doing the "crime" I tell him no over and over and then I have physically remove him from what he is doing...even when he sees me coming he still keeps doing it! UGHHHH!! The worst part is that I have raised my voice several times, and it kills me because I know he doesn't feel well either, but why is he being so defiant! I know he isn't doing this on purpose, but it sure feels that way! Anyway, I am going to try to talk him into a nap....maybe it will be better this time around!
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