More Money, More Problems...MY ASS!

You know the saying, "More more, more problems" well I am pretty sure that is just bull shit! If I had more money, I wouldn't have half the problems I do now. JR's bank account is at 0.00 and still has a week before payday...I just used the last 5.00 in my bank account to get milk for Logan, and yes a chocolate bar as well....I need something to help me cope! Luckily, I got my paycheck today in the mail...remember that I get paid once a week for job #1...which is the only thing that has gotten JR and through many situations....so my paychecks aren't exactly huge....anyway got check today (230.00) I have a doctors appt. on Friday at 11:00 which will cost 108.35, the cable bill was due on the 21st (183.00), I need gas (51.00/per tank), gas bill (15.22), and we need money to live on for the next week (which is how long it will take to get JR's check and my next check!...Oh yeah, and I almost forgot that I have my 51.00 check from job#2 for my first 3 days of training!..Okay so even with the 51.00, my total amount I HAVE is 281.00 the total amount that I owe is roughly (I rounded) 360.00....Obviously, In my situation, more money would lead to less problems!!! So what to do....I will have to wait to pay the gas and the cable, my 51$ check will fill up my tank, and then the 230...I will use 108.35 for my shot and the rest we will have to use to get us through the week.....I sure hope thats enough, I guess it will have to be...OH SHIT! I also need diapers, okay, I can get a small package to get us through the week and then get a big box next week after payday.

Now the big question, once I get my first check from job#2 do I use it to get us out of our financial jam???? The whole reason I took this stupid job was to save for the wedding...I am supposed to be saving all the money from those paychecks for the wedding, not so that we can have more money to spend. If I use it to get out of the situation we are in, it will never be replaced. Solution: reevaluate on the 10th (payday) see what needs to be done and only use what needs to be used and save the rest...sounds reasonable, right!

I recently recieved an e-mail from a good friend of mine that was actually a blog written by one of her friends...the question was, "Are you a complainer?" the answer is ABSOLUTELY! I know that I wish that I didn't complain so much, but the truth is everyone has problems, and there are people out there who truly believe everything will work out...dont dwell....think good thoughts and good things will happen! Well I think that is all bull shit. I am an optimist, I do believe that things will get better, I know that we will work through this, I know that in a couple of years we will be laughing at many of the situations we are in today...hell we laugh about things from a couple of years ago now! I truly believe that life is a bumpy road, that some people have more bumps than others. But honestly trying to go through life without complaining??? What kind of life would that be...Some may believe it would lead to a much happier life...I dont think so (again just my opinion) What the hell would we all blog about, an update of our life....well if that was the case then here would be today's blog:

Woke up at around noon today (thank you Logan)
Worked on the computer and caught up on some soap operas
Played with Logan...Logan was super sweet and gave me lots of kisses, and asked for hugs
(obviously I cant tell you about any of the things that he did that drove me nuts!)
I could tell you about how he got in trouble and had 1 time out for climbing on the dining room table. (It's a fact, not a complaint)
I ate hot pockets for lunch
Spent the next hour and a half with Logan, we tried to go outside, but the mosquitos were so bad we had to come inside (again, that is a fact not a complaint)
Logan and I took a nap...him from 4:00 - 5:45....mine from 4:30 - 8:15
Went to the store for milk
Blogged
(the rest of the night/morning) I will continue to watch TV....get some work done, put Logan to bed at 12:30am leave for work at 1:00am get home around 5:00 or later, depending on the paper and how much time it takes for the truck to get there, then how much time it take to roll, and then how much time it takes to deliver. Come home go to sleep, and pray I get to sleep until noon again! Woo Hoo
Now that would make for something interesting...NO

Blogging is nothing for me if not my own personal therapy session, without having to pay the $175 per session (and that was with insurance and four years ago, so who knows how much it costs these day). If any of you have noticed, I have started blogging a lot more lately, and I have found that the level of my anger and the rollercoaster of emotions has calmed and somewhat leveled out...so I think my therapy is working....and just to let you know I will continue to complain, but to all of you out there who want to buy the bracelet and try not to complain for 21 days straight...MORE POWER TO YOU! I think it is an awesome idea, I really do...Its just not for me...plus, why do you need to BUY a wristband to remind yourself not to complain....How about you just take an everyday rubberband and use it....The idea is that you wear it on your wrist and every time you complain you switch the rubberband to the other wrist and you are supposed to go 21 days without a complaint.