My birthday is coming up (2 more weeks) and for some CRAZY reason, when we first got together JR and I made this rule that all gifts would be equal...if I spend $10 on his gift, he spends $10 on mine. If I spend $400 on his, he spends $400 on mine - no more, no less. EQUAL Honestly, this has been a problem on several occasions because JR always seems to have champagne dreams on a beer budget..okay we will call them Whiskey dreams! Growing up as the middle child, I was always comfortable with ANY gift...I guess any acknowledgement was better than nothing at all. For Birthdays, and Christmas my sisters always had a long list of wants, while I usually just tried to come up with one thing...even then, I usually copied it off one of my sisters' list! LOL It isn't that I never WANT anything, I just usually want them for so long, that once I get around to saving up for it...it just doesn't seem worth the money! So - JR got $400 golf clubs this year for his birthday, meaning that my gift has to total the same amount. I thought about getting a computer, that way I wouldn't have to share with JR...but I am just not on it enough to really justify it. Then I decided I would get a membership to the local gym. I haven't been able to run in 3 weeks because it is honestly so flippin hot outside. I have tried for an entire to week to wake up to an alarm so that I can get up and run in the mornings like I used to. I just can't do it. I know that I haven't been feeling well, and that has drained a lot of my energy, but I am on the mend, so it shouldn't affect me anymore. The other thing draining me is the fact that JR is putting in some really long days. He doesn't get home until 6:30, and at that point he just wants to relax..and honestly, I dont want to be a bitch and ask him to do things when I know how hard he is working. The only thing that really irritates me about it, is that the kids are so excited to see him when he walks through the door, and the first thing he does is get out of his work clothes and then gets on the computer to do his fantasy baseball. Then he eats his dinner that I have cooked (while watching kids at the same time)and he goes back to the computer, or the baseball game, or he goes to shower...or to bed. Meanwhile, I am doing the dishes, while watching the kids, or giving the kids baths, or picking up toys...that somehow never seem to be put away for more than a minute...seriously - these toys are like the laundry - they never end. I pick them up, I turn around and there they are in the living room floor again! I am starting to think maybe Toy Story isn't just a movie! LOL Okay back to the gym idea....there are a few problems with this idea...
#1 WHEN WILL I GO...if I can't wake up in the morning to go run outside, I wont be able to wake up and drive 5 minutes to the gym. I guess I could go around 9:00pm but then it would be very difficult to go to sleep at night, and I would have to move up my dinner time to 6:00 (which doesn't really work for JR), and I dont like the idea of going up there at night (even though there are camera's all over and they have these necklaces you where so that all you have to do is push the button and it goes straight to the police dept. - but still, what if I get attacked? SCARY)
#2 JR DOESN'T LIKE IT....So what? I didn't like that he was getting $400 golf clubs but it was his birthday gift...so why should he have to approve my gift? JR says he just can't wrap his head around the idea of an extra bill each month. I totally get that - but here is the problem...because of these new golf clubs, JR want to go golf ALOT...we made an arrangement that he could go once every pay period (which means once every two weeks....twice a month) It cost him $42 dollars each time he golf...$84 per month for something he only does twice a month...it would cost me $47 a month for something I could do every day. My point is that if he only went once a month we would be paying the same amount of money (okay there is a $5 difference) for something he could do once a month and I could do every day...so how can he say that my gym membership is too expensive but him golfing is okay?
Really, none of this matters because I dont have time to go to the gym...but its just the fact that he thinks this way...it's okay to spend money as long as it's for something that he wants...but if I want it...oh, well - we just dont have the money right now! Ughh, its frustrating....not to mention that I could definitely use the hour - hour and a half away from the house each day!...Actually now that I am writing all of this..I am starting to lean more towards the gym membership again. AHHHHHHHHHH
moving on....my next thought was that I would get a treadmill for my birthday...this way I can work out at home, in the AC and I would feel much better considering I feel like crap since I haven't worked out. Then I thought, I just need more discipline. I really like working out outside, so I just need to get my sorry butt out of bed in the morning and go do it. I used to be able to, so why can't I do it now...the thing is, even when I was getting up in the mornings, I knew it wouldn't last - and after a few weeks, I started working out at 6:00, right as JR walked through the door from work, I was on my way out to go run...this worked for a while, but it is literally 98 degrees at 7:30pm...and it doesn't cool off to the lower 90's until almost 9:00 at night. I just can't do it...I walk outside and I can barely breath... So my next idea was that I could get an exercise machine...a cable machine, because I really need some new workouts for my arms and legs...then with a little determination and discipline, I could run in the mornings for my cardio, and then move inside to the machine, and maybe for Christmas I can look into getting a treadmill. But once again I am on the fence...wouldn't it just be easier to go to the gym than have to buy equipment for the house...I mean on hand I would have the comfort of working out in my own home with out having to leave...on the other hand...I WOULD GET TO LEAVE - WITHOUT KIDS! Which brings me to another thing...I would use the office as my exercise room. The office is off of my bedroom, and I ALWAYS keep the door closed because the kids like to get in there and pull all the books off the shelf...but I worry that having heavy equipment in there, they might get in and get hurt...SCARY!
Bottom line...here is the dilemma...Do I get the gym membership...and if I do, will I actually go for an entire year, or will it be something I end up paying for each month without using..and then when will I go? There is no day care there, so how will I fit it in to my schedule? OR Do I buy exercise equipment for the house...and if I do, what should I get? the treadmill so that I will have no excuse to not get my cardio, and I can just keep my strength training routine..and maybe buy heavier weights? OR do I get the strength training home gym and try to get up in the mornings to run and get my cardio? AND will I stay committed or will it become a place to hang clothes? Seriously...I dont know what to do - any ideas are welcome!
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
3 year anniversary
I forgot to say anything but yesterday was my blog's 3 year anniversary! I honestly can't believe I have kept up with it or how thankful I am to have it!
JR is VERY busy at work right now. He is going to be working all day today. Tomorrow he is going to take Logan to see the tractors and other machines, and HOPEFULLY he is going to be off on Monday! We are going to try to go the the river when he gets off work tomorrow and JR is going golfing on Monday...I am not too happy about this. JR doesn't like to sit around which is great...I would rather be doing something as well. But I have not felt well in two weeks, and I need to rest. ALSO, I HATE starting a week tired. That really sucks, because you know you have to get through the next 5 days when your low on fuel. JR comes home and complains about how tired he is on a daily basis...but then fills his weekend with plans - I dont get it. He says the things he is doing are relaxing - but what he doesn't see is that while he's relaxing, I am with the kids getting worn out!
So I am thinking that on Monday night I may go to the theater alone....although all I really want to do is rent a hotel room, take my book, and spend several hours there! I am seriously just wiped out...and it isn't good to be around me when I feel this way...I tend to get pretty cranky! When I am in this state - I get a little irrational...so - I am going to try to rest as much as possible...and when JR gets home today - I am going to disappear into a room and not come out until tomorrow! Maybe then I will be up for the rest of the weekend!
JR is VERY busy at work right now. He is going to be working all day today. Tomorrow he is going to take Logan to see the tractors and other machines, and HOPEFULLY he is going to be off on Monday! We are going to try to go the the river when he gets off work tomorrow and JR is going golfing on Monday...I am not too happy about this. JR doesn't like to sit around which is great...I would rather be doing something as well. But I have not felt well in two weeks, and I need to rest. ALSO, I HATE starting a week tired. That really sucks, because you know you have to get through the next 5 days when your low on fuel. JR comes home and complains about how tired he is on a daily basis...but then fills his weekend with plans - I dont get it. He says the things he is doing are relaxing - but what he doesn't see is that while he's relaxing, I am with the kids getting worn out!
So I am thinking that on Monday night I may go to the theater alone....although all I really want to do is rent a hotel room, take my book, and spend several hours there! I am seriously just wiped out...and it isn't good to be around me when I feel this way...I tend to get pretty cranky! When I am in this state - I get a little irrational...so - I am going to try to rest as much as possible...and when JR gets home today - I am going to disappear into a room and not come out until tomorrow! Maybe then I will be up for the rest of the weekend!
Friday, May 27, 2011
decisions made
Well, it's been about a week and a half long discussion, but JR and I have decided that we are going to wait another few years before having another baby discussion. I wish that he could understand that the entire conversation is really hard for me. Let me give you a little back story....My pregnancy with Landry was difficult...not exactly in the physical sense, although it was much harder than my pregnancy with Logan. The emotional aspects of the pregnancy were extremely hard on me. I was very clear on the fact that I did NOT want to go through it all again. I know I may sound like a horrible person for saying these things...but they are the truth. I love my kids more than anything, but I am just not certain I want another one. To tell you the truth, if I got pregnant tomorrow...I would be perfectly fine with it. But sitting back and planning it and thinking about all the things you go through scares the hell out of me. Maybe the hormones were worse because I was having a girl, or maybe it was worse because it was the second time around...I don't know...all I know is that the whole "pregnancy amnesia" has not happened yet, because I still vividly remember some of those extra special irrational days. I still remember trying to rip out my IV because I had a panic attack before going in for my c-section. I still remember throwing a glass against the wall...aiming straight for JR's head and having to then sweep up all the glass...I don't remember what had me so pissed, but I do remember being out of control.
Anyway, when JR brings up having another baby, I think of all these things, I think about how hard I have worked to get my body back into some sort of shape, I think about the goals that I have, the dreams and the career that I want. My career goals have been put on hold due to the fact that I am a stay at home mom. Don't get me wrong...this is a personal choice. Financially, it makes since for me to stay at home - but also...I want to be at home with my babies. They are going to grow up soon enough, and I want to be with them for as long as possible. Logan will be starting pre-k at the end of August, we are still debating on how many days a week he should go...I wanted him to go 3 days, unfortunately the school we have chosen only does 2 days a week or 4 days a week...so that makes the decision a little harder. I was thinking about letting him go 2 days until the Christmas break and then moving it up to 4 days for the second half of the year, but I don't know if they allow that, so I have to look into it more. I have no idea what Landry and I will do during the day...It's been 19 months since I have only had 1 baby to take care of...It is going to be weird that's for sure.
I am trying to talk JR into putting Landry into a school a year earlier than what he really wants. Landry wont start kindergarten until 2015, and therefore according to JR, she shouldn't start pre-k until 2014. But I was hoping she could start pre-k when Logan starts first grade (2013). The thing is, you have to be 5 on or before Sept. 1 of that year to start school. Landry's birthday is October 15, which will make her one of the oldest kids in her class. I think it would be good to start her at 2 days a week for an entire year, and then move her up to 4 days, and then she can start Kindergarten. I can't believe Logan will be in 3rd grade when Landry start Kinder....it's so odd to me - they just seem closer in age, but whatever its just the way the their birth dates fall. My best friend Dana is only 4 months younger than I am, but because of the days we were born I graduated a year before she did!
My hope in putting Landry in school a year early is actually pretty selfish...I am hoping that while both kids are in school, I can attend classes to get my license so that I can get my own career on track. I would really like to finish school and have a job lined up by the time Landry starts kinder. ...
This is another reason for not wanting another baby...as it is right now...I still have 2 more years before I can even go back to school. It will take up to 18 months to get my license...therefore, I have 3.5 years before I can even START my career. If I have another baby...we are looking at about 6 years before I can START.
Another main concern is the financial "burdens." We have paid off a LOT of debt...but we still have the car, and the house, and student loans. We live a pretty comfortable life - but I told JR that I don't want to have another child until we can build up Logan and Landry's college funds a little more...plus, our own savings account, AND I want him to start a 401K with his company, so that we have something building up that we can't touch. I really hate to rely on us living on our "social security" after retirement, considering the possibility that it may not be around. But I do think its important for us to have a retirement account. I would really like to have the kids college paid for by the time they start college or at least the majority of it - so they dont have to worry about student loans. There is nothing wrong with students loans...its just that they are a bitch to pay, and I would like for them to not have to do it! Now, if they go on to get a masters or become doctors or lawyers...well - they are on their own...I am just talking about their undergraduate studies!
The thing is I am 50% sure that I want another baby. If I think about the end result and how much I would love to have another child, I am 100% on board. When I think about the doctor's visits, the nausea, the nine months of pregnancy, the hormones, the delivery - I get really freaked out and start having LOTS of anxiety, which drops me down to about 20% .I just dont know how to do it and still make sure that everyone gets what they want. Soooooo - I asked JR not to bring it up to me again, unless he had really thought it through and was prepared to make a baby right that instant! He said we will discuss it again in about 3 years! LOL Of course at that time I plan to be finishing school and then I am going to work for AT LEAST a YEAR before I get pregnant...so it looks like it may be more lie 5-6 years before we start trying for another baby.
As you can see...I have gone back and forth and back and forth and back again on this whole issue.
Anyway, when JR brings up having another baby, I think of all these things, I think about how hard I have worked to get my body back into some sort of shape, I think about the goals that I have, the dreams and the career that I want. My career goals have been put on hold due to the fact that I am a stay at home mom. Don't get me wrong...this is a personal choice. Financially, it makes since for me to stay at home - but also...I want to be at home with my babies. They are going to grow up soon enough, and I want to be with them for as long as possible. Logan will be starting pre-k at the end of August, we are still debating on how many days a week he should go...I wanted him to go 3 days, unfortunately the school we have chosen only does 2 days a week or 4 days a week...so that makes the decision a little harder. I was thinking about letting him go 2 days until the Christmas break and then moving it up to 4 days for the second half of the year, but I don't know if they allow that, so I have to look into it more. I have no idea what Landry and I will do during the day...It's been 19 months since I have only had 1 baby to take care of...It is going to be weird that's for sure.
I am trying to talk JR into putting Landry into a school a year earlier than what he really wants. Landry wont start kindergarten until 2015, and therefore according to JR, she shouldn't start pre-k until 2014. But I was hoping she could start pre-k when Logan starts first grade (2013). The thing is, you have to be 5 on or before Sept. 1 of that year to start school. Landry's birthday is October 15, which will make her one of the oldest kids in her class. I think it would be good to start her at 2 days a week for an entire year, and then move her up to 4 days, and then she can start Kindergarten. I can't believe Logan will be in 3rd grade when Landry start Kinder....it's so odd to me - they just seem closer in age, but whatever its just the way the their birth dates fall. My best friend Dana is only 4 months younger than I am, but because of the days we were born I graduated a year before she did!
My hope in putting Landry in school a year early is actually pretty selfish...I am hoping that while both kids are in school, I can attend classes to get my license so that I can get my own career on track. I would really like to finish school and have a job lined up by the time Landry starts kinder. ...
This is another reason for not wanting another baby...as it is right now...I still have 2 more years before I can even go back to school. It will take up to 18 months to get my license...therefore, I have 3.5 years before I can even START my career. If I have another baby...we are looking at about 6 years before I can START.
Another main concern is the financial "burdens." We have paid off a LOT of debt...but we still have the car, and the house, and student loans. We live a pretty comfortable life - but I told JR that I don't want to have another child until we can build up Logan and Landry's college funds a little more...plus, our own savings account, AND I want him to start a 401K with his company, so that we have something building up that we can't touch. I really hate to rely on us living on our "social security" after retirement, considering the possibility that it may not be around. But I do think its important for us to have a retirement account. I would really like to have the kids college paid for by the time they start college or at least the majority of it - so they dont have to worry about student loans. There is nothing wrong with students loans...its just that they are a bitch to pay, and I would like for them to not have to do it! Now, if they go on to get a masters or become doctors or lawyers...well - they are on their own...I am just talking about their undergraduate studies!
The thing is I am 50% sure that I want another baby. If I think about the end result and how much I would love to have another child, I am 100% on board. When I think about the doctor's visits, the nausea, the nine months of pregnancy, the hormones, the delivery - I get really freaked out and start having LOTS of anxiety, which drops me down to about 20% .I just dont know how to do it and still make sure that everyone gets what they want. Soooooo - I asked JR not to bring it up to me again, unless he had really thought it through and was prepared to make a baby right that instant! He said we will discuss it again in about 3 years! LOL Of course at that time I plan to be finishing school and then I am going to work for AT LEAST a YEAR before I get pregnant...so it looks like it may be more lie 5-6 years before we start trying for another baby.
As you can see...I have gone back and forth and back and forth and back again on this whole issue.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Headache City!
Today is Thursday...I have had a raging headache ALL week now. Last week I suffered from a cold...at least I think that is what it was...It all started Mother's Day weekend...we went to Galveston and our friends that stayed with us, Robyn and Greg, were both sick. They had the cough, runny nose, and Robyn had sad she had fever the day before they came...for some reason I always thought that once you break your fever you are no longer contagious...I don't know where I got that idea, but obviously it must be wrong. Before we left on Sunday, Landry and JR both seemed to be coming down with it. By the grace of God I was able to stay away from it. By the following Saturday, JR was starting to get better, but Logan was just coming down with it....and we were once again traveling for my sister's graduation. Half way through the day I started to feel it coming on as well. We stayed the night with Jason, Lisa, and Davin...Landry was still sick at the time, with the worst case of mucous I have ever seen! yuck. Logan's was clear for the most part, which I took to mean that he was still getting over it. The entire week, Logan and Landry were both snotty. I continued to give them cold and allergy medicine, and I took the adult form. JR was better, but I was constantly blowing my nose and wiping snot off the kids. I was finally starting to recover, Logan was getting better...but Landry was still having nasty green snot. Turns out, Lisa got sick with the crud right after we left...oops! This past weekend Jason, Lisa, Davin, and Brittany all came to stay with us. It seemed that I was 95% recovered, Lisa was about 80% recovered, everyone else was healthy...except Landry. I should mention that Logan still had clear snot...
Finally this Monday, Landry's mucous turned clear, but it is still there - as is Logan's, which makes me wonder if there is some sort of allergy in the air. I haven't slept through the night since Monday because I have had this cough. My throat is not sore or scratchy...nothing, and I hardly cough at all during the day...only at night - and only after I have fallen asleep. The other thing is that I have had a headache since Monday...I have all kinds of other things going on....but geez...this has been a two week progression from one ailment to the next. I am just ready to feel normal again. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Finally this Monday, Landry's mucous turned clear, but it is still there - as is Logan's, which makes me wonder if there is some sort of allergy in the air. I haven't slept through the night since Monday because I have had this cough. My throat is not sore or scratchy...nothing, and I hardly cough at all during the day...only at night - and only after I have fallen asleep. The other thing is that I have had a headache since Monday...I have all kinds of other things going on....but geez...this has been a two week progression from one ailment to the next. I am just ready to feel normal again. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
terrible two's???
After bad mouthing my kids yesterday, I just wanted to let the world know that my babies have been really good today. Landry has had a few "moments" but overall they have returned to the kids I am used to them being. JR promised Logan that if he was a good boy for the rest of the week he would take him to work with him on Saturday. JR only has to go for about an hour, and he won't being doing anything physical...he just has to go and pick up some paperwork and drop off a few cylinders...which I guess that part is physical...but not dangerous. Logan is really in to "working" and tractors and things like that right now, so JR thought it would be fun to take him. Logan likes to walk around the house with his tool belt and hard hat on and he asks me what he needs to "fix" - which is actually really adorable. Also, JR has started teaching Logan that when you work you get money...Logan used to be really good at helping out and picking up his toys, but somewhere along the way, he kind of fell off, so we would bribe him with candy. Now JR has him thinking that when he does things he gets money, so I guess we have started an allowance for him...which I kind of like, because instead of bribing him with toys or candy, we can start to show him that when he wants something he has to work for it and save up for it...on the other hand, he is ONLY 4. Plus, depending on what he is doing he only gets coins...pennies, nickels, dimes, and RARELY a quarter...I know - we are cheap! LOL but as he gets older we can increase the amount..I mean, what does a 4 year old need with a 5 dollar bill for picking up toys...which he should be doing anyway?
Landry is now 19 months and 10 days old, and yet it seems to me she is entering into the world on the terrible two's. She has officially dropped the second nap of the day, which scares me a bit because I wonder if some of the tantrums stem from being tired??? She has moved her nap time back to somewhere between 12:30 and 1:00 and will usually sleep until 3. However, there are some days, that she just wakes up after an hour and refuses to take a second nap later on...these are the days she is a terror (ahem...Monday and Tuesday). I am trying very hard to nip the temper tantrums in the bud VERY quickly. I learned my lesson the first time around...hey, no one can call me stupid! LOL I can't say it is working all that well, she seems to be just as stubborn as the rest of us...I can only imagine what my kids will be like as teens. JR is EXTREMELY stubborn, and I am not far behind him...Logan - well, a combination of stubborn and stubborn - usually just leads to more of the same! Landry is quickly learning. She is a lot like me in the fact that she likes things done a certain way...even if the end result is the same - there is a certain order of HOW it gets done! LOL HOnestly, in the moment, these things can be very frustrating, but writing about them now, just has me cracking up! Also, on the discipline side of things...Logan is on a whole new plan. EVERY TIME he talks back to JR or me, we send him to his room...I WILL BREAK HIM OF THIS HABIT!!! I am determined! I am soooo sick of him telling me no!
Now, my kids have not been the angels I know they can be today, but I just wanted to say they have been so much better! I also wanted to say a few nice things about them.
Logan -
He NEVER stops talking (which yes, can be annoying - but also satisfying). I think he is going to have a wonderful imagination. HE tells me stories and sings me songs and I am just so proud of him. It's hard to imagine I was ever concerned about his speech!
He is incredibly loving. He takes his time with his sister, and while he is a normal big brother and likes to pick on his sister, he is very careful with her...he loves to give her hugs and kisses. He will stop what he is doing to tell me he loves me. He is just a very caring and compassionate little boy.
HE is obsessed with his daddy right now! The first thing he does when he wakes up is ask about daddy...he asks to call him all through the day, and he gets so excited to talk to daddy on the phone. When JR gets home, Logan's eyes sparkle, and you could light up a whole house with the amount of energy Logan obtains just by seeing his dad!
Landry -
Landry is beaming with intelligence and curiosity. She seems to be learning new words almost daily. She shows interest in everything. You can just see the wheels turning in her head while she sits back to watch...then quickly jumps in to try it out herself. From cooking, to doing dishes, to folding laundry, to dancing, singing, jumping, anything going on around her, she wants to try.
She is in love with her brother. There is nothing he can't do it seems. She follows him around and copies EVERYTHING he does. For the most part, they play really well together - but there are times where they fight! GRRR! She is also very loving..she loves to give me kisses, and she loves playing with her daddy! She is a very sweet little girl.
She has her daddy wrapped around her little finger. There is nothing JR wouldn't do for his little princess. The man adores her, and the feeling is mutual! I love the dynamic in my family! I love that we all love each other so much and that we have our own personal relationships with each other. I hope that never goes away!
Happy hump day!
Landry is now 19 months and 10 days old, and yet it seems to me she is entering into the world on the terrible two's. She has officially dropped the second nap of the day, which scares me a bit because I wonder if some of the tantrums stem from being tired??? She has moved her nap time back to somewhere between 12:30 and 1:00 and will usually sleep until 3. However, there are some days, that she just wakes up after an hour and refuses to take a second nap later on...these are the days she is a terror (ahem...Monday and Tuesday). I am trying very hard to nip the temper tantrums in the bud VERY quickly. I learned my lesson the first time around...hey, no one can call me stupid! LOL I can't say it is working all that well, she seems to be just as stubborn as the rest of us...I can only imagine what my kids will be like as teens. JR is EXTREMELY stubborn, and I am not far behind him...Logan - well, a combination of stubborn and stubborn - usually just leads to more of the same! Landry is quickly learning. She is a lot like me in the fact that she likes things done a certain way...even if the end result is the same - there is a certain order of HOW it gets done! LOL HOnestly, in the moment, these things can be very frustrating, but writing about them now, just has me cracking up! Also, on the discipline side of things...Logan is on a whole new plan. EVERY TIME he talks back to JR or me, we send him to his room...I WILL BREAK HIM OF THIS HABIT!!! I am determined! I am soooo sick of him telling me no!
Now, my kids have not been the angels I know they can be today, but I just wanted to say they have been so much better! I also wanted to say a few nice things about them.
Logan -
He NEVER stops talking (which yes, can be annoying - but also satisfying). I think he is going to have a wonderful imagination. HE tells me stories and sings me songs and I am just so proud of him. It's hard to imagine I was ever concerned about his speech!
He is incredibly loving. He takes his time with his sister, and while he is a normal big brother and likes to pick on his sister, he is very careful with her...he loves to give her hugs and kisses. He will stop what he is doing to tell me he loves me. He is just a very caring and compassionate little boy.
HE is obsessed with his daddy right now! The first thing he does when he wakes up is ask about daddy...he asks to call him all through the day, and he gets so excited to talk to daddy on the phone. When JR gets home, Logan's eyes sparkle, and you could light up a whole house with the amount of energy Logan obtains just by seeing his dad!
Landry -
Landry is beaming with intelligence and curiosity. She seems to be learning new words almost daily. She shows interest in everything. You can just see the wheels turning in her head while she sits back to watch...then quickly jumps in to try it out herself. From cooking, to doing dishes, to folding laundry, to dancing, singing, jumping, anything going on around her, she wants to try.
She is in love with her brother. There is nothing he can't do it seems. She follows him around and copies EVERYTHING he does. For the most part, they play really well together - but there are times where they fight! GRRR! She is also very loving..she loves to give me kisses, and she loves playing with her daddy! She is a very sweet little girl.
She has her daddy wrapped around her little finger. There is nothing JR wouldn't do for his little princess. The man adores her, and the feeling is mutual! I love the dynamic in my family! I love that we all love each other so much and that we have our own personal relationships with each other. I hope that never goes away!
Happy hump day!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Confusion...
There is so much going on right now in my little world that I honestly have no idea what to even say.
JR and I are back in the decision making process of having another baby. We both want another baby but we can't seem to agree on when we should have the baby. I have my own ambitions in life and while I love being a wife and mother...I would also like to eventually go to school and start my own career.
Not helping the situation, my kids have been absolute terrors for the past two days...and although, it is not even 11:00 - I am considering this to be say 2....Landry hasn't stopped throwing tantrums, Logan is just irritating her on purpose...It is days like yesterday and today, that I just wish I was at work and someone else was dealing with this. I am seriously at my end. Yesterday and today have been so freaking terrible, words can not even begin to describe it. On the other end of this spectrum are the days where my kids just want to play, and be loved. The days they are so sweet and polite, and well mannered, that I think how blessed I am to get to see it all. How amazing it is to be a stay at home mom. LIke anything else in life, there are ups and downs...and right now, we are just in a down period....ughhhh!
As far as my sister goes...I am not really sure what is going on...I have tried to just distance myself from it, but apparently my dad told Randi that she wanted so badly to move out and live on her own, so she should do it...prove to him and my mom that she could do it on her own....Randi took that as she was being kicked out. Now she is telling people my parents kicked her out and won't let her see the kids...OOPS! - I should mention that all of this came because CPS was called, and they interviewed Isabella and Isaiah last Wednesday....Randi didn't even find out until Friday because she didn't bother to go home. It was Luis' weekend with the kids, and I guess he and my parents sat down together....Randi hasn't seen her kids in over a week, but she has talked to them on the phone.
Last Wednesday when my parents were talking about filing a missing persons report (which they didn't do) I tried to call Randi over and over again...I don't know why, I guess I was just hoping she would answer and I could tell her to go home and see her kids...she never answered, or called back. On Friday, I get a text from her saying, "Hey why did you call me the other day?" I chose not to respond to her. I kind of figured she was just finding out about how badly the situation had gotten and at that point I had made the decision that I didn't really want to be too involved in it...I needed to detach from the situation for a number of reasons...my sanity being at the top of the list. Yesterday evening (6:16pm) I got a text from her saying, "hey u sent me a msg on why i called u. ur my sister why wouldn't I call? I guess ur with mom on her bull shit?" So I told JR she was either so drunk or high, or both, that she doesn't remember texting me and she is so stupid, she can't even figure out that she sent me the message...I have not responded to her at all. At 8:26pm she sent another one saying, " u txt me asking if I called. ur my sister why wldn't I? I have no place to stay and haven't eaten in days." At this point I broke down...I am still crying now - because I dont know what to do or how to help. She can't stay with me...number one - she can't be around my kids, she isn't sober, and I have no idea what her mental state is right now. #2, the whole point is for her to take responsibility and admit that she needs help, not only drug and alcohol rehab, but also therapy. She needs to see that she's wrong and ask for help. No matter how many times...and there have been many...I have talked badly about her, or said mean things about her, or anything else I have done against her...she is my sister, and I love her. It scares me to death and breaks my heart to think that she is sleeping in her car and hasn't eaten. I cried and cried and cried and hell I am still crying now. I thought maybe I could meet up with her and buy her some food, but I knew if I did she would ask to stay with me and I am not strong enough to tell her no face to face. I know she is manipulating me...but on that slight chance that she really is hungry, how can I just turn my back and do nothing? I kept calling my dad for advice...my mom is out of town right now, so I needed someone to tell me what to do. He wasn't answering, so in the mean time I talked to JR, and my other best friend, Dana. While they both made great points logically, it still didn't stop the hurt I was feeling. The feeling of wanting to help but not knowing how had intensified...How do I not help my own sister who needs a place to stay and something to eat? But will helping her with a bed and food for one night really help, or will it hurt her...isn't that just enabling her? Doesn't she NEED to hit rock bottom before she can see that she needs help. I guess I just pictured her hitting rock bottom in a different way, I didn't think I would have to worry about where she was, if she had food, or shelter. This is just too hard, and far too painful. I can't handle it. At 9:23pm she sent another message saying, "Thanks I got your back. wtfe." Again, the tears came...My dad finally called back to say that she had called him, he let her talk to the kids and then they got into it. She thinks that my parents are the ones that called CPS (which they didn't), she can't see that it doesn't even matter who called...the importance is that someone did, and she needs to do what she has to to make it right. At this moment, I dont think that she can see any of that, all she sees is that we are betraying her, taking her kids away from her. I dont know what is going on in her brain...but I am pretty sure it is fried. My dad basically just said that he didn't know what to say. He said that he did not kick her out of the house, he just said that there were rules, and she could either follow them or not live there...that kept saying how she could do it on her own, so why not do it...he said she had talked to the kids and I asked what she was telling them as to why she hasn't seen them in over a week, she told them that Nanny and Papaw kicked her out and wouldn't let her come home. GREAT! NICE! Lay that on an 8 and 5 year old! I took some tylenol PM last night at 11:20 because I knew I wasn't going to be able to sleep. I was sick to my stomach and I couldn't stop crying...I couldn't stop the hurt, or the confusion...I still feel that way...I know that I can't help her the way she is looking to be helped, but I also can't go on letting her feel as though I dont love her, that I completely turned my back on her...I have been in that position before with my family and it is the loneliest, scariest place to be....having no one to turn to, not knowing if anyone cares whether your dead or alive...I personally just couldn't go on having her feel that way. So, at 10:19 this mornign I sent her a text saying, " I love you. I am sorry this is all happening, but you have to make things right and I can't help you do that. Is has to be you. Don't ever doubt that I love you, I know this is really hard for you...it is for all of us. I was up all night without a clue of what to do. So, I prayed...it's all I can do right now. You need to talk to mom and dad and get this worked out. Have you really not eaten? I thought you got paid on Friday? If you want to meet up with me I will buy you some lunch. That is all I can offer you right now, but please know that I love you and I am hurting for you. I know that right now it feels like the world is against you, and no one cares how you feel...but trust me when I say, we all care - we all love you, and sometimes the only way we can help someone we love so much is to step away and let them decide to help themselves. I can't say it enough, but I love you."
I know that at this point she isn't ready to reason or to hear another side of a story...at this point she has been wronged and we are all evil people trying to tear her away from her kids...BUT - I feel better, at least no matter what I told her I loved her. And I really, really do....no matter how angry I am with her, or how much I dont understand the choices she has made, or how much I disagree with her...she is my older sister...the girl I once looked up to. The girl I followed around because I wanted to be just like her. The girl I idolized as a child. She was so beautiful, and funny, and outgoing, and popular...there was a time I was so jealous of her - a time I thought she held the world in the palm of her hand, a time that I believed she could do anything. I am so broken hearted...I just want her to get better...I would like to meet a sober Randi - I have said before, i have no idea what she is like sober...she will be 30 in August, and she started drinking and doing drugs (pot) at 14...so I honestly can't remember a sober Randi Beth.
Thank you for reading all this...I haven't been posting because it's been really hard to deal with...It has been and will continue to be very emotional, but please, pray for my sister and my family...IF you aren't a praying person, just think good thoughts...send some hopes and wishes her way. She needs them right now. Writing this has been difficult, in a way it hurts more to get it out there...sometimes it seems easier to just bottle it up and avoid it, and in another way it feels good to just get it out...I am a habitual avoider...and it never helps - getting it out is always the best way to go...but it hurts so much. Anyway, thank you again...we are on a very long journey, and I fear it will not be over anytime soon. I will try to keep you updated as much as possible, but please continue to pray or send good thoughts.
JR and I are back in the decision making process of having another baby. We both want another baby but we can't seem to agree on when we should have the baby. I have my own ambitions in life and while I love being a wife and mother...I would also like to eventually go to school and start my own career.
Not helping the situation, my kids have been absolute terrors for the past two days...and although, it is not even 11:00 - I am considering this to be say 2....Landry hasn't stopped throwing tantrums, Logan is just irritating her on purpose...It is days like yesterday and today, that I just wish I was at work and someone else was dealing with this. I am seriously at my end. Yesterday and today have been so freaking terrible, words can not even begin to describe it. On the other end of this spectrum are the days where my kids just want to play, and be loved. The days they are so sweet and polite, and well mannered, that I think how blessed I am to get to see it all. How amazing it is to be a stay at home mom. LIke anything else in life, there are ups and downs...and right now, we are just in a down period....ughhhh!
As far as my sister goes...I am not really sure what is going on...I have tried to just distance myself from it, but apparently my dad told Randi that she wanted so badly to move out and live on her own, so she should do it...prove to him and my mom that she could do it on her own....Randi took that as she was being kicked out. Now she is telling people my parents kicked her out and won't let her see the kids...OOPS! - I should mention that all of this came because CPS was called, and they interviewed Isabella and Isaiah last Wednesday....Randi didn't even find out until Friday because she didn't bother to go home. It was Luis' weekend with the kids, and I guess he and my parents sat down together....Randi hasn't seen her kids in over a week, but she has talked to them on the phone.
Last Wednesday when my parents were talking about filing a missing persons report (which they didn't do) I tried to call Randi over and over again...I don't know why, I guess I was just hoping she would answer and I could tell her to go home and see her kids...she never answered, or called back. On Friday, I get a text from her saying, "Hey why did you call me the other day?" I chose not to respond to her. I kind of figured she was just finding out about how badly the situation had gotten and at that point I had made the decision that I didn't really want to be too involved in it...I needed to detach from the situation for a number of reasons...my sanity being at the top of the list. Yesterday evening (6:16pm) I got a text from her saying, "hey u sent me a msg on why i called u. ur my sister why wouldn't I call? I guess ur with mom on her bull shit?" So I told JR she was either so drunk or high, or both, that she doesn't remember texting me and she is so stupid, she can't even figure out that she sent me the message...I have not responded to her at all. At 8:26pm she sent another one saying, " u txt me asking if I called. ur my sister why wldn't I? I have no place to stay and haven't eaten in days." At this point I broke down...I am still crying now - because I dont know what to do or how to help. She can't stay with me...number one - she can't be around my kids, she isn't sober, and I have no idea what her mental state is right now. #2, the whole point is for her to take responsibility and admit that she needs help, not only drug and alcohol rehab, but also therapy. She needs to see that she's wrong and ask for help. No matter how many times...and there have been many...I have talked badly about her, or said mean things about her, or anything else I have done against her...she is my sister, and I love her. It scares me to death and breaks my heart to think that she is sleeping in her car and hasn't eaten. I cried and cried and cried and hell I am still crying now. I thought maybe I could meet up with her and buy her some food, but I knew if I did she would ask to stay with me and I am not strong enough to tell her no face to face. I know she is manipulating me...but on that slight chance that she really is hungry, how can I just turn my back and do nothing? I kept calling my dad for advice...my mom is out of town right now, so I needed someone to tell me what to do. He wasn't answering, so in the mean time I talked to JR, and my other best friend, Dana. While they both made great points logically, it still didn't stop the hurt I was feeling. The feeling of wanting to help but not knowing how had intensified...How do I not help my own sister who needs a place to stay and something to eat? But will helping her with a bed and food for one night really help, or will it hurt her...isn't that just enabling her? Doesn't she NEED to hit rock bottom before she can see that she needs help. I guess I just pictured her hitting rock bottom in a different way, I didn't think I would have to worry about where she was, if she had food, or shelter. This is just too hard, and far too painful. I can't handle it. At 9:23pm she sent another message saying, "Thanks I got your back. wtfe." Again, the tears came...My dad finally called back to say that she had called him, he let her talk to the kids and then they got into it. She thinks that my parents are the ones that called CPS (which they didn't), she can't see that it doesn't even matter who called...the importance is that someone did, and she needs to do what she has to to make it right. At this moment, I dont think that she can see any of that, all she sees is that we are betraying her, taking her kids away from her. I dont know what is going on in her brain...but I am pretty sure it is fried. My dad basically just said that he didn't know what to say. He said that he did not kick her out of the house, he just said that there were rules, and she could either follow them or not live there...that kept saying how she could do it on her own, so why not do it...he said she had talked to the kids and I asked what she was telling them as to why she hasn't seen them in over a week, she told them that Nanny and Papaw kicked her out and wouldn't let her come home. GREAT! NICE! Lay that on an 8 and 5 year old! I took some tylenol PM last night at 11:20 because I knew I wasn't going to be able to sleep. I was sick to my stomach and I couldn't stop crying...I couldn't stop the hurt, or the confusion...I still feel that way...I know that I can't help her the way she is looking to be helped, but I also can't go on letting her feel as though I dont love her, that I completely turned my back on her...I have been in that position before with my family and it is the loneliest, scariest place to be....having no one to turn to, not knowing if anyone cares whether your dead or alive...I personally just couldn't go on having her feel that way. So, at 10:19 this mornign I sent her a text saying, " I love you. I am sorry this is all happening, but you have to make things right and I can't help you do that. Is has to be you. Don't ever doubt that I love you, I know this is really hard for you...it is for all of us. I was up all night without a clue of what to do. So, I prayed...it's all I can do right now. You need to talk to mom and dad and get this worked out. Have you really not eaten? I thought you got paid on Friday? If you want to meet up with me I will buy you some lunch. That is all I can offer you right now, but please know that I love you and I am hurting for you. I know that right now it feels like the world is against you, and no one cares how you feel...but trust me when I say, we all care - we all love you, and sometimes the only way we can help someone we love so much is to step away and let them decide to help themselves. I can't say it enough, but I love you."
I know that at this point she isn't ready to reason or to hear another side of a story...at this point she has been wronged and we are all evil people trying to tear her away from her kids...BUT - I feel better, at least no matter what I told her I loved her. And I really, really do....no matter how angry I am with her, or how much I dont understand the choices she has made, or how much I disagree with her...she is my older sister...the girl I once looked up to. The girl I followed around because I wanted to be just like her. The girl I idolized as a child. She was so beautiful, and funny, and outgoing, and popular...there was a time I was so jealous of her - a time I thought she held the world in the palm of her hand, a time that I believed she could do anything. I am so broken hearted...I just want her to get better...I would like to meet a sober Randi - I have said before, i have no idea what she is like sober...she will be 30 in August, and she started drinking and doing drugs (pot) at 14...so I honestly can't remember a sober Randi Beth.
Thank you for reading all this...I haven't been posting because it's been really hard to deal with...It has been and will continue to be very emotional, but please, pray for my sister and my family...IF you aren't a praying person, just think good thoughts...send some hopes and wishes her way. She needs them right now. Writing this has been difficult, in a way it hurts more to get it out there...sometimes it seems easier to just bottle it up and avoid it, and in another way it feels good to just get it out...I am a habitual avoider...and it never helps - getting it out is always the best way to go...but it hurts so much. Anyway, thank you again...we are on a very long journey, and I fear it will not be over anytime soon. I will try to keep you updated as much as possible, but please continue to pray or send good thoughts.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Luck Family Float
This weekend my in-laws came to stay with us. Jason (JR's brother), Lisa (Jason's wife), Davin (Jason and Lisa's son), and Brittany (JR and Jason's sister) all got up at 4:00am on Saturday morning so they could get here early enough for Logan's final t-ball game. Lisa had to work Friday night, which is why they waited until 4:00am to get on the road.
Logan had his final t-ball game at 10:00 and I was very happy that my parents were able to make it. This was the first game they made it to of Logan's, and while I know it's selfish because of everything going on right now, I felt it was important for them to be there - although, Logan probably wont remember whether or not they came to his games or not. But I also dont want it to start a pattern...they need to make more of an effort to make it to his event's - they rarely miss a single thing Isabella or Isaiah are involved in. Again, I know this sounds selfish and petty. I realize that Isabella and Isaiah NEED the attention, but just because I am a good mom and I actually take care of my kids doesn't mean that they should get the raw end of deal when it comes to spending time with their grandparents!
After the game I brought Landry home to take a nap, Logan was supposed to have the closing ceremonies starting at noon...but JR called to tell me not to worry about coming back up there because they had already given Logan his medal! Landry wasn't really having the whole nap time. She has been sick with the runny nose crap for two weeks now. She has no fever, she's taking plenty of fluids, eating normally, voiding regularly, and acting as though she is fine. I called my aunt to see what she recommended and whether or not I should take the kids in to the doctor. She said "no" but seriously...Landry has SO MUCH mucous - so does Logan, but Logan is old enough to where he can wipe his nose (some of the time) every time I turn around Landry has green snot coming out of her nose! Ughh!
We all ate, sat around, and chatted before finally heading to the river. We didn't get on the river until nearly 4:00 but it was great! Landry had FINALLY gone to take a nap, which is why we were so late getting on the river...Logan refused to nap, so he actually fell asleep about 10 minutes after we got on and didn't wake up until the very end! LOL It was seriously a great float! After the river we came home to get changed and went to dinner at Railroad BBQ...I am really liking that place, although; every time I go, I over eat!
After dinner, we played with the kids for a bit...PLEASE check out my facebook for some of the videos I put up. The kids were riding Brittany and Lacy like horses and racing through the house...it was hysterical. I put Landry down for bed, and put a movie on for the boys..while the adults started a poker game. Lisa and I were the final two players and we were up until 4:00am until we called the game since I was in the lead we split the pot 60/40. Basically we did a $10 buy in, so Lisa got to keep her $10 and won Jason's $10...I got to keep my $10 and I won JR's and Brittany's $10's.
ON Sunday, JR and Jason woke up early and went to go play golf. Although I stayed up all night, I was up at 8:00 - YUCK! Sunday was an extremely LAZY day. When the boys finished golfing, we went to San Marcos for lunch, then came back home where we all just laid around. Finally, at 3:45 I went to take a nap. Brittany, Lisa, and Davin went to the pool and Logan came to cuddle up with me. I woke up at 6:00 just in time to say goodbye to our guests. Then I made a grocery list, and Landry and I headed to the store while JR mowed the grass!
Here are a few pictures of our fun this weekend!
Logan Napping on the river
Landry hanging with her Daddy
Logan and Daddy
The Brothers
Jason, Lisa, and Davin Luck
Kisses!!!!
Davin and Aunt Brittany
Me and my baby girl
The other Lucks!
Logan had his final t-ball game at 10:00 and I was very happy that my parents were able to make it. This was the first game they made it to of Logan's, and while I know it's selfish because of everything going on right now, I felt it was important for them to be there - although, Logan probably wont remember whether or not they came to his games or not. But I also dont want it to start a pattern...they need to make more of an effort to make it to his event's - they rarely miss a single thing Isabella or Isaiah are involved in. Again, I know this sounds selfish and petty. I realize that Isabella and Isaiah NEED the attention, but just because I am a good mom and I actually take care of my kids doesn't mean that they should get the raw end of deal when it comes to spending time with their grandparents!
After the game I brought Landry home to take a nap, Logan was supposed to have the closing ceremonies starting at noon...but JR called to tell me not to worry about coming back up there because they had already given Logan his medal! Landry wasn't really having the whole nap time. She has been sick with the runny nose crap for two weeks now. She has no fever, she's taking plenty of fluids, eating normally, voiding regularly, and acting as though she is fine. I called my aunt to see what she recommended and whether or not I should take the kids in to the doctor. She said "no" but seriously...Landry has SO MUCH mucous - so does Logan, but Logan is old enough to where he can wipe his nose (some of the time) every time I turn around Landry has green snot coming out of her nose! Ughh!
We all ate, sat around, and chatted before finally heading to the river. We didn't get on the river until nearly 4:00 but it was great! Landry had FINALLY gone to take a nap, which is why we were so late getting on the river...Logan refused to nap, so he actually fell asleep about 10 minutes after we got on and didn't wake up until the very end! LOL It was seriously a great float! After the river we came home to get changed and went to dinner at Railroad BBQ...I am really liking that place, although; every time I go, I over eat!
After dinner, we played with the kids for a bit...PLEASE check out my facebook for some of the videos I put up. The kids were riding Brittany and Lacy like horses and racing through the house...it was hysterical. I put Landry down for bed, and put a movie on for the boys..while the adults started a poker game. Lisa and I were the final two players and we were up until 4:00am until we called the game since I was in the lead we split the pot 60/40. Basically we did a $10 buy in, so Lisa got to keep her $10 and won Jason's $10...I got to keep my $10 and I won JR's and Brittany's $10's.
ON Sunday, JR and Jason woke up early and went to go play golf. Although I stayed up all night, I was up at 8:00 - YUCK! Sunday was an extremely LAZY day. When the boys finished golfing, we went to San Marcos for lunch, then came back home where we all just laid around. Finally, at 3:45 I went to take a nap. Brittany, Lisa, and Davin went to the pool and Logan came to cuddle up with me. I woke up at 6:00 just in time to say goodbye to our guests. Then I made a grocery list, and Landry and I headed to the store while JR mowed the grass!
Here are a few pictures of our fun this weekend!
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
48 hours
Here we go - I told you that after Vanessa's graduation dinner on Saturday my parents headed back home and passed Randi about 5 miles outside of Hunstville. My mom said she would NOT speak to Randi at all. On Sunday, my mom had to work so she showered, dressed and headed to her car only to find the seat pushed back, the mirrors adjusted, the radio station turned to hip hop, and the gas light on in her car. Randi had decided it was okay to drive my mom's car around while my mom was out of town. She was pissed so she went inside and asked my dad where Randi and the kids were. He said Randi had taken them to the park. She drove by two parks in Wimberley and when she couldn't find her she called. Randi actually answered the phone, so my mom asked her where she was. She said she was at the park in San Marcos with the kids. My mom said she had no right to drive to the park in San Marcos when she didn't even have money for gas. There were plenty of parks in Wimberley. Randi said that the kids wanted to come to the one in San Marcos....ughhhh! So my mom asks why Randi was driving her car, and Randi says she swears she didn't..that Isaiah was playing in it and she spanked him for it....ummm? How did Isaiah get the keys? How did the car miraculously lose half a tank of gas? She is seriously so stupid. They apparently got into it and my mom finally told Randi enough was enough.***More on that in a bit***
My mom got home about 8:30am Monday morning from a 12 hour shift at the hospital and called my dad to make sure Randi got the kids to school. He said yes, but that Randi had picked up a shift from 5pm to 12am and then back at 11am so dad was going to pick them up from school and take them the next morning for her (Not sure why she couldn't pick them up or take them...but oh well) My mom was upset with my dad because they had told her that they wouldn't be helping her as much anymore, including being her personal daycare or taxi cab. My dad told my mom that she has a car note to make so she needs to work (he hasn't quite caught on that she most likely isn't working!) So today is Wednesday, and no one has heard from Randi since noon on Monday. In 8 minutes it will have been 48 hours. No one knows where she is, she isn't answering her phone, or replying to texts. My parents are going to file a missing persons report in 7 minutes now. My mom is so angry, and yet she is genuinely concerned that something bad has happened. I understand that as a parent you never give up on your child. She has called the hospitals and police stations, but she is actually worried that she may be in a ditch somewhere. There is a small part of me that worries that may be the case...but honestly I just think she is on a bender somewhere. She wants to escape from the reality that everything is closing in on her and her world is crumbling. She hasn't called to check on her kids, or to talk to them...nothing. She was supposed to pick them up from school yesterday, but my dad had to do it, then he had to take Isabella to her softball game, bring them home, feed them, and give them baths, put them to bed, and take them to school this morning. Last night the kids were crying because they wanted their mom. How shitty of a person can you be? I wish no harm on my sister...in fact it would kill me if something bad happened to her. No matter what she does, I love her - but Geez! I think its time to get her out of the kids lives. It is just too heartbreaking. So My parents are most likely filing a report as I type this...Lord, I pray they are. I will keep you updated.
*** This is the Message my mom sent me on Monday...
"I said nothing to Randi (when we stopped for the bathroom) or when we got home. I went straight to bed. I stayed in bed all day.... not so much sleeping (even though i do work tonight) but more just to keep my head under the cover and deal with the depression! when I did get up to shower for work, her car was gone. Dad said she took the kids to the park. when i got in my car to leave for work, my car was empty on gas, the seat, mirrors, radio...all had been readjusted. (I left my keys here) I drove to the park by our house, she wasnt there. I drove to the park at Bowen, she wasn't there. I called. She answered (SHOCK) and i asked her when she drove my car. She, of course, denied it and said that Isaiah had gotten in it and that she had spanked him for it. I asked where she was, she said the park in San Marcos. I said she had no business driving to SM on the gas that we paid for. She said that was where the kids wanted to go. I told her not to bring Amelio home. He could no longer stay at my house. She blew up and asked why, "I haven't seen him in 2 days!" I said, "That sucks for you!" She said that we had invited hiim to move in! She realized I was mad about yesterday, but that didn't have anything to do with Amelio. I said if he was there in the morning, I would call the police. She said, "fine, she would come get their stuff and stay with him!" I said "That's great! Make sure the kids are at school and on time, or I call CPS!" She said she hated me and that I was nothing but a bitch and all I wanted to do was control her." I told her "You are a terrible mother...you are a bully and an abuser...you are nothing but a liar and a user and I've taken it for 3 years! You can't afford to put a roof over your children's heads, you can afford to feed them, you can't even afford to make a 3 hour trip...you're in a world of hurt because I'm done! I'm not doing it anymore, and if you don't, I'm sueing you for custody, which btw you don't have any money for an attorney, but if I couldn't win...I'd make damn sure Luis did! I restated what a horrible mother she was and told her they deserved better...anybody would be better than her! She was furious but said, "would you please calm down so that we can talk like adults." I laughed out loud and said, that would be great IF there was actually another adult I was speaking with!! I told her I wasn't interested in talking with her. I had said what I needed to and I meant every word I said. She then... said she was going to talk to dad... and hung up. I told your dad that he could either back me up... or I was moving out and I would leave him to live with her!! She did call him. He told her what ever I said goes... and that if she brought Amelio home, it would be very embarrassing for him because he would be asked to leave. She came home with the kids and made spagetti. She asked him why Amelio couldn't come over, especially after we had offered to let him live there. He said, we were supporting 5 people. wasn't interested in supporting 6. She asked about the deal we offered them. He told her that was no longer on the table. She wanted to move out and do her own thing... she needed to do it! he said she didn't say anything, just teared up and started crying and went upstairs. so... to sum up... I said some really horrible things... that i mean.... and we shall see what happens now."
The deal that my parent's offered Randi and her boyfriend was two weeks ago. Randi has been talking about moving out to live with her boyfriend so my parents said that they would rip out all the carpet upstairs and do some renovations and they could rent the upstairs. It's 3 bedrooms and 1 bathroom. They could rent the space for $500 a month all bills paid! This way, Randi would still have help with the kids, and could continue to go to school and maybe get another semester under her belt while saving up a little more money before moving out on their own. My sister can't afford to live rent free, bills free, but she thinks she can move out on her own??? So my guess is that Randi has been at Amelio's...apparently he is more important than her kids...and she will show up and walk back into the kids lives whenever she feels like it, or Amelio kicks her to the curb. I guess we will see!
My mom got home about 8:30am Monday morning from a 12 hour shift at the hospital and called my dad to make sure Randi got the kids to school. He said yes, but that Randi had picked up a shift from 5pm to 12am and then back at 11am so dad was going to pick them up from school and take them the next morning for her (Not sure why she couldn't pick them up or take them...but oh well) My mom was upset with my dad because they had told her that they wouldn't be helping her as much anymore, including being her personal daycare or taxi cab. My dad told my mom that she has a car note to make so she needs to work (he hasn't quite caught on that she most likely isn't working!) So today is Wednesday, and no one has heard from Randi since noon on Monday. In 8 minutes it will have been 48 hours. No one knows where she is, she isn't answering her phone, or replying to texts. My parents are going to file a missing persons report in 7 minutes now. My mom is so angry, and yet she is genuinely concerned that something bad has happened. I understand that as a parent you never give up on your child. She has called the hospitals and police stations, but she is actually worried that she may be in a ditch somewhere. There is a small part of me that worries that may be the case...but honestly I just think she is on a bender somewhere. She wants to escape from the reality that everything is closing in on her and her world is crumbling. She hasn't called to check on her kids, or to talk to them...nothing. She was supposed to pick them up from school yesterday, but my dad had to do it, then he had to take Isabella to her softball game, bring them home, feed them, and give them baths, put them to bed, and take them to school this morning. Last night the kids were crying because they wanted their mom. How shitty of a person can you be? I wish no harm on my sister...in fact it would kill me if something bad happened to her. No matter what she does, I love her - but Geez! I think its time to get her out of the kids lives. It is just too heartbreaking. So My parents are most likely filing a report as I type this...Lord, I pray they are. I will keep you updated.
*** This is the Message my mom sent me on Monday...
"I said nothing to Randi (when we stopped for the bathroom) or when we got home. I went straight to bed. I stayed in bed all day.... not so much sleeping (even though i do work tonight) but more just to keep my head under the cover and deal with the depression! when I did get up to shower for work, her car was gone. Dad said she took the kids to the park. when i got in my car to leave for work, my car was empty on gas, the seat, mirrors, radio...all had been readjusted. (I left my keys here) I drove to the park by our house, she wasnt there. I drove to the park at Bowen, she wasn't there. I called. She answered (SHOCK) and i asked her when she drove my car. She, of course, denied it and said that Isaiah had gotten in it and that she had spanked him for it. I asked where she was, she said the park in San Marcos. I said she had no business driving to SM on the gas that we paid for. She said that was where the kids wanted to go. I told her not to bring Amelio home. He could no longer stay at my house. She blew up and asked why, "I haven't seen him in 2 days!" I said, "That sucks for you!" She said that we had invited hiim to move in! She realized I was mad about yesterday, but that didn't have anything to do with Amelio. I said if he was there in the morning, I would call the police. She said, "fine, she would come get their stuff and stay with him!" I said "That's great! Make sure the kids are at school and on time, or I call CPS!" She said she hated me and that I was nothing but a bitch and all I wanted to do was control her." I told her "You are a terrible mother...you are a bully and an abuser...you are nothing but a liar and a user and I've taken it for 3 years! You can't afford to put a roof over your children's heads, you can afford to feed them, you can't even afford to make a 3 hour trip...you're in a world of hurt because I'm done! I'm not doing it anymore, and if you don't, I'm sueing you for custody, which btw you don't have any money for an attorney, but if I couldn't win...I'd make damn sure Luis did! I restated what a horrible mother she was and told her they deserved better...anybody would be better than her! She was furious but said, "would you please calm down so that we can talk like adults." I laughed out loud and said, that would be great IF there was actually another adult I was speaking with!! I told her I wasn't interested in talking with her. I had said what I needed to and I meant every word I said. She then... said she was going to talk to dad... and hung up. I told your dad that he could either back me up... or I was moving out and I would leave him to live with her!! She did call him. He told her what ever I said goes... and that if she brought Amelio home, it would be very embarrassing for him because he would be asked to leave. She came home with the kids and made spagetti. She asked him why Amelio couldn't come over, especially after we had offered to let him live there. He said, we were supporting 5 people. wasn't interested in supporting 6. She asked about the deal we offered them. He told her that was no longer on the table. She wanted to move out and do her own thing... she needed to do it! he said she didn't say anything, just teared up and started crying and went upstairs. so... to sum up... I said some really horrible things... that i mean.... and we shall see what happens now."
The deal that my parent's offered Randi and her boyfriend was two weeks ago. Randi has been talking about moving out to live with her boyfriend so my parents said that they would rip out all the carpet upstairs and do some renovations and they could rent the upstairs. It's 3 bedrooms and 1 bathroom. They could rent the space for $500 a month all bills paid! This way, Randi would still have help with the kids, and could continue to go to school and maybe get another semester under her belt while saving up a little more money before moving out on their own. My sister can't afford to live rent free, bills free, but she thinks she can move out on her own??? So my guess is that Randi has been at Amelio's...apparently he is more important than her kids...and she will show up and walk back into the kids lives whenever she feels like it, or Amelio kicks her to the curb. I guess we will see!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Catch Up!
I forgot to mention that JR and Landry got sick on the way home from the beach...JR seems to have gotten better - Landry is still having mucous problems, and two days ago Logan's nose started snotting up and yesterday I woke up with the nasty sore throat and some snot issues! YAY! Hopefully we can get through this crap quickly!
Moving along - last weekend my little sister graduated from Sam Houston State University. I can not tell you how proud I am of her. My parents left on Friday morning so that they could attend Vanessa's boyfriend, Kyle's, graduation. He graduated with a business degree and a minor in some sort of management. Vanessa graduated with a Mass communications degree and a minor is psychology. She will be working at the radio station this summer, as well as keeping her job at the church as a teacher's aide. She will be applying all over for her first big job. I am hoping she can work at abc in San Antonio. Anywho, on Friday morning, my older sister calls and leaves me a message asking me to help her out of a bind. I called and called and called but she never answered, nor called back until 7:30 that evening. At that time she said that she had overdrawn her account and didn't have any gas and wasn't going to be able to make it to Vanessa's graduation without help. She asked if she could ride with us. I told her that we didn't have any room for her and the kids in our car. So she asked if she could borrow $50 to get gas. I was so angry with her, I told her I didn't have it. She said she wasn't going to say anything to my mom until the last minute so that she didn't have to listen to her bitch! WOW - really grown up! After I thought about it for a bit, I called my mom and offered to put $25 in gas in Randi's car which would get her there and my parents could pay for the gas to get her home, but I refused to give her cash. My mom said that sounded great. So I call and call and call...FINALLY, at 9:30, she calls back I give her the offer, and she accepts. I tell her to meet me at the HEB in Kyle so I can put the gas in her car. I went over it and over it, telling her that she couldn't be any later that 9:15 - that I would be pulling out of the station at 9:16 with or without her. At 9:00am Logan's game had just ended so I call Randi to find out where she is...No answer. She texts me to tell me that Isaiah couldn't find his shoes so they are running late...and that they had just gotten to the Junction, because she had to go pick up her car in San Marcos....this was at 9:11 and it would put her (at the very minimum 35 minutes away) So, I called my mom to tell her that we weren't going to be waiting for Randi. my mom advised me to not call her and not answer the phone if she called me...so that is what I did. About an hour into the trip, my mom texts me to tell me that Amelio (Randi's boyfriend) filled up her car and she was on her way. I respond that I am happy she found a way to be there to support Vanessa. We get to Huntsville, go to Vanessa's house, change clothes and head to the school. We had to get there early to save seats for everyone so we arrived around 1:30...The commencement didn't start until 2:30...my kids were going stir crazy. Right after we got there, Randi sent my dad a text saying that she was lost, which is actually pretty shocking considering she has been to Huntsville numerous times to visit her ex-boyfriend in the Huntsville prison. At 2:45 she sends my dad another text saying that she never made it to Bryan (which is an hour outside of Hunstville) because she ran out of gas, her phone is dead and that she and the kids are on the side of the road! Hmmm...how can you text if your phone is dead? How did you run out of gas if your boyfriend filled up the tank? Ohhh...it turned out he only put $25 in gas in her car. Again, pretty funny, since I have the exact same car she does and $25 will get you all the way there! Apparently my dad and her continued to text back and forth...again STRANGE, she must have a very special phone because I have never been able to send a text with a dead phone! Finally, I just put my thoughts on Randi to the back burner. I enjoyed Vanessa's graduation, we went to dinner afterwards and had a really amazing time. It was a very special day for her. When we were getting ready to leave my dad said he was going to go buy a gas can and some gas and go look for her.... It was 7:30 when we left the restaurant. The next day I got on facebook and had a message from my mom...saying that they had passed Randi right outside of Huntsville. So I am not sure how she got there, or why it took her 6 hours to travel 1 hour. My mom said that the kids hadn't had anything to eat, so my parents put gas in her car and ed the kids and she followed them home. I guarantee that she was never on the side of the road...she hung out at home until she realized her story wasn't passing the test, dad was asking too many questions, so she go in her car and drove to Huntsville, only to pass up my parents on their way home. Once again, Randi had to make sure she was the center of attention on someone else's special day! Typical!
So that was that...and even though I have spent this blog talking about how shitty my older sister is...I should tell you that my little sister is AMAZING! I am seriously so incredibly proud of her! I can't wait to see where her road leads!
Moving along - last weekend my little sister graduated from Sam Houston State University. I can not tell you how proud I am of her. My parents left on Friday morning so that they could attend Vanessa's boyfriend, Kyle's, graduation. He graduated with a business degree and a minor in some sort of management. Vanessa graduated with a Mass communications degree and a minor is psychology. She will be working at the radio station this summer, as well as keeping her job at the church as a teacher's aide. She will be applying all over for her first big job. I am hoping she can work at abc in San Antonio. Anywho, on Friday morning, my older sister calls and leaves me a message asking me to help her out of a bind. I called and called and called but she never answered, nor called back until 7:30 that evening. At that time she said that she had overdrawn her account and didn't have any gas and wasn't going to be able to make it to Vanessa's graduation without help. She asked if she could ride with us. I told her that we didn't have any room for her and the kids in our car. So she asked if she could borrow $50 to get gas. I was so angry with her, I told her I didn't have it. She said she wasn't going to say anything to my mom until the last minute so that she didn't have to listen to her bitch! WOW - really grown up! After I thought about it for a bit, I called my mom and offered to put $25 in gas in Randi's car which would get her there and my parents could pay for the gas to get her home, but I refused to give her cash. My mom said that sounded great. So I call and call and call...FINALLY, at 9:30, she calls back I give her the offer, and she accepts. I tell her to meet me at the HEB in Kyle so I can put the gas in her car. I went over it and over it, telling her that she couldn't be any later that 9:15 - that I would be pulling out of the station at 9:16 with or without her. At 9:00am Logan's game had just ended so I call Randi to find out where she is...No answer. She texts me to tell me that Isaiah couldn't find his shoes so they are running late...and that they had just gotten to the Junction, because she had to go pick up her car in San Marcos....this was at 9:11 and it would put her (at the very minimum 35 minutes away) So, I called my mom to tell her that we weren't going to be waiting for Randi. my mom advised me to not call her and not answer the phone if she called me...so that is what I did. About an hour into the trip, my mom texts me to tell me that Amelio (Randi's boyfriend) filled up her car and she was on her way. I respond that I am happy she found a way to be there to support Vanessa. We get to Huntsville, go to Vanessa's house, change clothes and head to the school. We had to get there early to save seats for everyone so we arrived around 1:30...The commencement didn't start until 2:30...my kids were going stir crazy. Right after we got there, Randi sent my dad a text saying that she was lost, which is actually pretty shocking considering she has been to Huntsville numerous times to visit her ex-boyfriend in the Huntsville prison. At 2:45 she sends my dad another text saying that she never made it to Bryan (which is an hour outside of Hunstville) because she ran out of gas, her phone is dead and that she and the kids are on the side of the road! Hmmm...how can you text if your phone is dead? How did you run out of gas if your boyfriend filled up the tank? Ohhh...it turned out he only put $25 in gas in her car. Again, pretty funny, since I have the exact same car she does and $25 will get you all the way there! Apparently my dad and her continued to text back and forth...again STRANGE, she must have a very special phone because I have never been able to send a text with a dead phone! Finally, I just put my thoughts on Randi to the back burner. I enjoyed Vanessa's graduation, we went to dinner afterwards and had a really amazing time. It was a very special day for her. When we were getting ready to leave my dad said he was going to go buy a gas can and some gas and go look for her.... It was 7:30 when we left the restaurant. The next day I got on facebook and had a message from my mom...saying that they had passed Randi right outside of Huntsville. So I am not sure how she got there, or why it took her 6 hours to travel 1 hour. My mom said that the kids hadn't had anything to eat, so my parents put gas in her car and ed the kids and she followed them home. I guarantee that she was never on the side of the road...she hung out at home until she realized her story wasn't passing the test, dad was asking too many questions, so she go in her car and drove to Huntsville, only to pass up my parents on their way home. Once again, Randi had to make sure she was the center of attention on someone else's special day! Typical!
So that was that...and even though I have spent this blog talking about how shitty my older sister is...I should tell you that my little sister is AMAZING! I am seriously so incredibly proud of her! I can't wait to see where her road leads!
Monday, May 16, 2011
Been a while...
It has been over a week since my last post...so I need to catch you all up a little at a time...I will start with Mother's day weekend!
We had an amazing time - the beach house we rented was perfect! IT was so much fun...and oddly enough I got to relax pretty much the ENTIRE weekend! I dont even know how to describe it, except to say that it was seriously the best Mother's Day so far! Here are a few pics...
JR and I having a wonderful day in the sun
My baby girl absolutely LOVED the sand
Landry passed out and took a little in the tent that Nikki and Travis brought!
Logan and Aiden had lots of fun playing in the water!
All the mommies!
My two favorite boys!
Moving on to last week...we did all the normal stuff - nothing major, but the biggest change was the fact that no matter how relaxing mother's day weekend was - it all balances out when you include the hours of being on the road. JR was so tired that I drove the entire way home with the help of several red bulls. By the time we got home, I felt as if I needed to recover from our vacation. The house went to hell within 3 day..by Wednesday I was literally stepping over and around crap all over the house. I became lax with the cooking and we got off the diet for the entire week...not too smart when coming off a vacation, especially when you are going out of town the following as well! OOPS! We have both put on 5 pounds since 2 weeks ago....not a big deal, we are starting over with stage 1 today so I am sure we will drop it quickly. I am really not as concerned with it as I thought I would be. I am more concerned with the fact that I also took the entire week off from working out...THAT is more annoying that putting on a few pounds or eating a big juicy burger! LOL Other than all that - it was a pretty basic week...stay tuned - tomorrow I will fill you in on this past weekend and yet another 4 hour road trip!
We had an amazing time - the beach house we rented was perfect! IT was so much fun...and oddly enough I got to relax pretty much the ENTIRE weekend! I dont even know how to describe it, except to say that it was seriously the best Mother's Day so far! Here are a few pics...
Moving on to last week...we did all the normal stuff - nothing major, but the biggest change was the fact that no matter how relaxing mother's day weekend was - it all balances out when you include the hours of being on the road. JR was so tired that I drove the entire way home with the help of several red bulls. By the time we got home, I felt as if I needed to recover from our vacation. The house went to hell within 3 day..by Wednesday I was literally stepping over and around crap all over the house. I became lax with the cooking and we got off the diet for the entire week...not too smart when coming off a vacation, especially when you are going out of town the following as well! OOPS! We have both put on 5 pounds since 2 weeks ago....not a big deal, we are starting over with stage 1 today so I am sure we will drop it quickly. I am really not as concerned with it as I thought I would be. I am more concerned with the fact that I also took the entire week off from working out...THAT is more annoying that putting on a few pounds or eating a big juicy burger! LOL Other than all that - it was a pretty basic week...stay tuned - tomorrow I will fill you in on this past weekend and yet another 4 hour road trip!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Tomorrow!
Tomorrow is the big day! JR took off work so we will be on the road early...I am super excited! I just told JR that all I want for Mother's day is to be able to SLEEP in. Our house has been a little chaotic lately and I have reverted back to old habits...I stay up late with Logan and wake up early with Landry...which makes me very cranky! So I really need to get back in the habit of going to be early! I have a boat load of stuff to get done today and I am not looking forward to any of it. Part of me just wants to throw my swimsuit in my diaper bag and head out! I am feeling semi-toned...semi-tanned...and 100% ready for the beach! LOL I bought those dove chocolate squares last night..and entire bag - and I ate like 10...thats about 500 calories...so I may not be quite as toned as I had imagined yesterday morning! LOL OH well....It's mother's day weekend and I am going to enjoy every minute of it! INCLUDING THE CHOCOLATE! I am so ready to get there...I may even wear my swimsuit on the way, just so I can go straight to the pool! I have to go back to the library again, either today or tomorrow morning on our way out of town. I checked out 3 books on Monday, and I have been busy reading them, because I have about 20 pages left in the last book and I also somehow finished a book on my kindle...but that was my sleep time book and it actually took a week to finish! Yesterday I read a book and a half. This is ALSO why I have so much to do around the house...I have neglected the laundry, dishes, sweeping, vacuuming and general house cleaning all together. I read, all morning, while Landry eats her breakfast or plays with her toys. I read during nap time, sprinkler time, and basically just any moment I get - I read! It doesn't help that I am reading a series of books right now, so I just want to know how the story ends...although I there are like 12 books in the series so far...so it may go on forever! Ahhhhhh! Anyway, so I have to go back to the library and get some more books so that I will have something to read this weekend...not that there will be much time for it - but it is a long drive...maybe I can figure out a way to read in the car without getting sick!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Hump Day
Breath in Breath out....My mantra for the week. So there are a few random things. First, the diet has slowed down a bit. JR and I have been cheating quite a bit lately - in fact, I have eaten a milky way every day for the past 4 days....I always feel slightly guilty right after I eat it, but then I get it over it - its just been one of those weeks...gotta have my chocolate! LUCKILY, the scale hasn't tipped. I am still sitting at 130 so I think that if I just continue to work out, and eat healthy meals it will balance out in the end...of course - I should probably not be eating a daily candy bar! LOL JR is down to 193...he gained a few pounds over the weekend due to lots of beer, mexican food, and very little exercise. But he got rid of those and is hoping to lose the 3 pounds in the next 3 days in order to hit his mark for mother's day. I can't believe he is 18 pounds away from losing 100 pounds...I still wish he would actually work out - he says he tries to workout once a week, but the reality is he works out about once every two weeks. I try very hard to work out 5 times a week, but sadly I must admit that it's usually only 4 times a week...I usually do a 1.5 mile run, get home, do my arms, abs, and butt routine, shower, and cook dinner. I have been trying to get motivated to do my workouts in the morning, but I just haven't been able to. Oh well! The good news is, I am growing more and more confident every day - yes, there is still work to be done - the fact is - I'm doing it. I am feeling great, which I think has really helped boost the confidence as well.
As you know, we will be leaving for the beach on Friday. JR is going to go ahead and take the day off so that we can get on the road around 9. Although, now that I think about it, it might be better to wait until 10:30...Landry naps at 11:30 so worst case - we will only have to listen to screaming for the 1st hour! LOL Actually she is pretty good about being in the car. So here are our plans so far...when we get to the beach house, we plan to hit the pool ASAP. I think we are just going to take it easy and enjoy some time with the kids. Later, our friends Robyn and Greg, who are also staying at the beach house, and it seems as though we will be enjoying some adult time after we put the kids to bed...Can you believe we found a beach house WITH a CRIB...woohoo - I don't have to bring the travel crib! I am so excited about this, however, I am certainly worried about not bringing it - why? because I worry about everything! LOL Saturday, we will be getting up and going straight to the beach - I am excited that we have decided to have our get together close to the house, so that I can just take Landry back for her nap time...This is why I am worried about not bringing the travel crib. I dont want to be back at the house, by myself, for hours while Landry naps - it would be best if I brought the crib and got her to take a nap right there at the beach...JR, however, says that we are already going to have a packed car and he would rather not deal with it - so I am hoping to talk him into bringing the stroller - although, I am guessing I am going to get a no on that one too. We will see.! He also looked at me and in all seriousness asked, "Why do you just assume that you will be the one to take Landry back to the house?" Ummmm...because whenever we get together with groups I am usually the one to take care of the kids while you socialize!!! Okay - I am being a little unfair....JR does his share of looking after the kids - so I dont know why I just assume those things...but I think I may have hurt his feelings a little - so I need to give him more credit. The thing is, I get annoyed and jealous if I feel like I am the one with both kids and he gets to go off and socialize...but then when he takes the kids and lets me hang out...I feel guilty. These are my own personal issues..I know - I am a little crazy. So, JR and I decided that whenever its time to take her for a nap, I could stay for the first hour, and he could come relieve me...sounds good to me! Anyway, after the beach, everyone usually runs back to their home or hotel, to grab a shower and then we all meet up for dinner. We aren't 100% sure yet, but this year, we were thinking of letting everyone save some money and GAS, by having everyone pitch in some money and going to the grocery store for fajitas...then we can all eat there at the beach house. I wasn't really sold on the idea at first, but then I figured...it might be fun - and I am all for saving money! So I think we are going to play it by ear. BUT NIKKI - if your reading this - bring some clothes for you and Travis and Aiden to change in to...you guys can all shower at the beach house - and if we stay there to eat - you wont have to run home, and if we decide to go out to eat as usual...well you still wont have to drive all the way home and back to the Island!
Every Wednesday I take the kids to the public library for story time...Logan has loved it from our very first visit - and I love that it introduces my kids to reading beyond just me. I have read to both of my kids since the were in my uterus, but I really like the fact that they get to be with a group of other kids of various ages and listen to someone else read...we have been going for a month now and I dont see us stopping for years to come. Anyway, as I said Logan has loved every minute of it..from that first day, even though he didn't know the songs, he would watch and do the little movements. He has now learned several of the songs and we sing them around the house. The bad news...Landry hasn't been much of a fan. Granted - story time starts at 10:30 and goes to 11:00. Then we go and pick out movies and books, so she is usually asleep by the time we get home. Anyway, I checked out a movie on Monday that had some of the songs that they sing each week, and she really got in to it...so TODAY! She was actually pretty awesome! I guess it is growing on her! YAY!
ONe more thing and then I am done..I seriously HATE when people bitch and moan about something that they have the power to change. This is so hypocritical of me because I do it all the time. I bitch about my belly - but then I eat candy bars...okay - I am working on it! People bitch about politics, but then when you ask if they voted they tell you no...I just want to smack them in the face. You ask your spouse what they want for dinner, and they say, "whatever, it doesn't matter" then you cook something and they bitch about it...next time be more specific. This year, there have been a lot of changes going on with the Mother's day at the beach, and as usual no one, has really taken the reigns to plan anything out - which is why some of these changes are being made last minute. The problem is, there are a lot of people coming out there but no real organizer so when someone has an idea they post it on the wall on facebook and ask what everyones opinion is...If the majority of the people say "yeah", or "whatever, just let me know"...then the decision is made to follow through with the idea....soooo, when that happens and someone says something negative about the decision - I just feel like saying...ummmmmm, you were specifically asked your opinion - you said you didn't care - and now your bitching...if you had an issue, you should have said - "I don't want to do that"...Like me, JR talked to his mom, his brother, his brother's wife, his sister, and a few other people about doing the grilling at the house instead of going to a restaurant after the beach...I voiced my opinion - I wasn't really happy about it - I dont feel like having to clean up after everyone...I want to be waited on (I know...I sound really bitchy and selfish - I have come to terms with it). I voiced my opinion though...HOWEVER, I also realize that it isn't just about me...if that is what everyone else wants to do, or at least the majority...then who am I to demand to get my way....so - I say..."okay, I am out voted, so it will be fine...but we are doing paper plates, and everyone better clean up after themselves!" LOL So, I am happy - as long as I dont have to do dishes, and I dont have to cook anything...I am good to go! No complaints from me! My point is, I dont think you have a right to complain unless you actually give your opinion....you can't let everyone else make the decisions and then complain about what they chose!
As you know, we will be leaving for the beach on Friday. JR is going to go ahead and take the day off so that we can get on the road around 9. Although, now that I think about it, it might be better to wait until 10:30...Landry naps at 11:30 so worst case - we will only have to listen to screaming for the 1st hour! LOL Actually she is pretty good about being in the car. So here are our plans so far...when we get to the beach house, we plan to hit the pool ASAP. I think we are just going to take it easy and enjoy some time with the kids. Later, our friends Robyn and Greg, who are also staying at the beach house, and it seems as though we will be enjoying some adult time after we put the kids to bed...Can you believe we found a beach house WITH a CRIB...woohoo - I don't have to bring the travel crib! I am so excited about this, however, I am certainly worried about not bringing it - why? because I worry about everything! LOL Saturday, we will be getting up and going straight to the beach - I am excited that we have decided to have our get together close to the house, so that I can just take Landry back for her nap time...This is why I am worried about not bringing the travel crib. I dont want to be back at the house, by myself, for hours while Landry naps - it would be best if I brought the crib and got her to take a nap right there at the beach...JR, however, says that we are already going to have a packed car and he would rather not deal with it - so I am hoping to talk him into bringing the stroller - although, I am guessing I am going to get a no on that one too. We will see.! He also looked at me and in all seriousness asked, "Why do you just assume that you will be the one to take Landry back to the house?" Ummmm...because whenever we get together with groups I am usually the one to take care of the kids while you socialize!!! Okay - I am being a little unfair....JR does his share of looking after the kids - so I dont know why I just assume those things...but I think I may have hurt his feelings a little - so I need to give him more credit. The thing is, I get annoyed and jealous if I feel like I am the one with both kids and he gets to go off and socialize...but then when he takes the kids and lets me hang out...I feel guilty. These are my own personal issues..I know - I am a little crazy. So, JR and I decided that whenever its time to take her for a nap, I could stay for the first hour, and he could come relieve me...sounds good to me! Anyway, after the beach, everyone usually runs back to their home or hotel, to grab a shower and then we all meet up for dinner. We aren't 100% sure yet, but this year, we were thinking of letting everyone save some money and GAS, by having everyone pitch in some money and going to the grocery store for fajitas...then we can all eat there at the beach house. I wasn't really sold on the idea at first, but then I figured...it might be fun - and I am all for saving money! So I think we are going to play it by ear. BUT NIKKI - if your reading this - bring some clothes for you and Travis and Aiden to change in to...you guys can all shower at the beach house - and if we stay there to eat - you wont have to run home, and if we decide to go out to eat as usual...well you still wont have to drive all the way home and back to the Island!
Every Wednesday I take the kids to the public library for story time...Logan has loved it from our very first visit - and I love that it introduces my kids to reading beyond just me. I have read to both of my kids since the were in my uterus, but I really like the fact that they get to be with a group of other kids of various ages and listen to someone else read...we have been going for a month now and I dont see us stopping for years to come. Anyway, as I said Logan has loved every minute of it..from that first day, even though he didn't know the songs, he would watch and do the little movements. He has now learned several of the songs and we sing them around the house. The bad news...Landry hasn't been much of a fan. Granted - story time starts at 10:30 and goes to 11:00. Then we go and pick out movies and books, so she is usually asleep by the time we get home. Anyway, I checked out a movie on Monday that had some of the songs that they sing each week, and she really got in to it...so TODAY! She was actually pretty awesome! I guess it is growing on her! YAY!
ONe more thing and then I am done..I seriously HATE when people bitch and moan about something that they have the power to change. This is so hypocritical of me because I do it all the time. I bitch about my belly - but then I eat candy bars...okay - I am working on it! People bitch about politics, but then when you ask if they voted they tell you no...I just want to smack them in the face. You ask your spouse what they want for dinner, and they say, "whatever, it doesn't matter" then you cook something and they bitch about it...next time be more specific. This year, there have been a lot of changes going on with the Mother's day at the beach, and as usual no one, has really taken the reigns to plan anything out - which is why some of these changes are being made last minute. The problem is, there are a lot of people coming out there but no real organizer so when someone has an idea they post it on the wall on facebook and ask what everyones opinion is...If the majority of the people say "yeah", or "whatever, just let me know"...then the decision is made to follow through with the idea....soooo, when that happens and someone says something negative about the decision - I just feel like saying...ummmmmm, you were specifically asked your opinion - you said you didn't care - and now your bitching...if you had an issue, you should have said - "I don't want to do that"...Like me, JR talked to his mom, his brother, his brother's wife, his sister, and a few other people about doing the grilling at the house instead of going to a restaurant after the beach...I voiced my opinion - I wasn't really happy about it - I dont feel like having to clean up after everyone...I want to be waited on (I know...I sound really bitchy and selfish - I have come to terms with it). I voiced my opinion though...HOWEVER, I also realize that it isn't just about me...if that is what everyone else wants to do, or at least the majority...then who am I to demand to get my way....so - I say..."okay, I am out voted, so it will be fine...but we are doing paper plates, and everyone better clean up after themselves!" LOL So, I am happy - as long as I dont have to do dishes, and I dont have to cook anything...I am good to go! No complaints from me! My point is, I dont think you have a right to complain unless you actually give your opinion....you can't let everyone else make the decisions and then complain about what they chose!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Lazy weekends make me happy!
This Saturday Logan had a game at 8:00am. He was a little star out there...he was chasing down every ball, sometimes he would get it and other times he wasn't fast enough. At one point he got it twice in a row and on the third time he gave the ball to Jenna (another little girl on the team who was crying because she wasn't fast enough to get the ball!) I was so proud of my baby boy in that moment, I nearly cried. After the game, JR headed off to work, and the kids and I went home. I got some stuff done around the house that I have been putting off. Landry took a nap and I got myself and Logan ready for the river. We were waiting on some friends of ours so once they got there, Keith and JR tied down the tubes in the back of Keith's truck and we set out for the river. Half way there the tubes came unlatched and went all over the road...and of course my recliner got a giant hole in it! So JR and I went back to the house to get another tube while Keith got all the tubes in the truck and bungeed down. We finally got on the river around 2:20 and it was actually flowing faster this weekend, but is still in desperate need of rain. We tied off in under the train tracks for about 45 minutes and just hung out there, then decided to move along down the river, and we tied off again at the very end. The kids had a blast - and Landry got pretty sleepy towards the end, so we packed up and went to eat. By the time we got home, I put Landry to bed...and the rest of us went straight to bed as well. I had 4 beers and was pretty toasted. It takes very little for me to get drunk these days.
The weather forecast said it was going to rain on Sunday starting at around 2:00pm, so we decided to stay home instead of going to the river again. I didn't want to chance the kids being in the cold weather. Well, it never rained yesterday. In fact, I got to lay out for a couple of hours and enjoy the sun. By 6 that evening the wind was howling and the temperature had dropped significantly. By the time I went to bed it was 55 degrees with 25 mph winds! The good news is that I finished both of my books that I checked out at the library last Wednesday and a book on my kindle...so I am going to head to the library today to get two more...and hopefully I can finish them quickly and get two or three more on Wednesday to take to the beach with me this weekend!
It is supposed to rain all day today, but so far, it is just cold and grey. I hope it starts raining soon, and rains the entire day...even though that means I wont be getting any sun today..I dont mind - we NEED the rain! And I am pretty sure that I am as tan as it is possible for me to get!
Here are some photos of us at the river!
The weather forecast said it was going to rain on Sunday starting at around 2:00pm, so we decided to stay home instead of going to the river again. I didn't want to chance the kids being in the cold weather. Well, it never rained yesterday. In fact, I got to lay out for a couple of hours and enjoy the sun. By 6 that evening the wind was howling and the temperature had dropped significantly. By the time I went to bed it was 55 degrees with 25 mph winds! The good news is that I finished both of my books that I checked out at the library last Wednesday and a book on my kindle...so I am going to head to the library today to get two more...and hopefully I can finish them quickly and get two or three more on Wednesday to take to the beach with me this weekend!
It is supposed to rain all day today, but so far, it is just cold and grey. I hope it starts raining soon, and rains the entire day...even though that means I wont be getting any sun today..I dont mind - we NEED the rain! And I am pretty sure that I am as tan as it is possible for me to get!
Here are some photos of us at the river!
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