The New Year!

My wish for 2011: Be better than 2010
It's pretty simple...not that 2010 was horrible or anything like that. In fact a lot of it was pretty amazing. There weere ups and downs, but definitely more ups than downs. The thing that sucks the most is that we are ending the year on a low....the great part is that it can't get too much worse which means that we will start the year on a high! LOL
Two years ago (I THINK) my resolution was to stress less, and I am very glad that I had some practice in not letting things get to me so easily otherwise I would not have gotten through the last 4 months. Last year my resolution was to read as many books as I could. At first it was to read 150 but then I moved it to 200 and then 250....I just finished my 321st book last night. I have no idea what to do for 2011...
On another note...JR has been talking about having more kids a lot in the last couple of days. At first, I was REALLY freaked out, but I have come to realize that I am really content with my family. I love my kids more than anything in this world and if we dont have any more...I am perfectly okay with that. On the other hand, I make some really beautiful children and I love them more than anything - therefore, I could have another one and be perfectly okay with that as well. The point is...I would be happy either way. JR says he wants to wait until Logan is in Kindergarten....so I guess we have a little bit of time! Hahaha

lessons learned

i learned a very important lesson yesterday....NO COFFEE AFTER 4:00! LOL Usually caffeine doesn't bother me too much...but I guess that is because I am not used to drinking coffee. So, lesson learned!
Yesterday, was a very trying day. JR got home about 1:30 because of all the rain we have been getting...well, he drove me absolutley CRAZY! We have a rythym that seems to work for me and the kids...and when he stays home or comes home early...he tends to throw off the way we do things! Anyway, he was working on burning CD's all day long....and Logan wanted to play elmo, or disney.com or super mario brothers or dora or go, diego, go...you get the point - Logan wanted to play a game...Basically JR and Logan fought over the computer ALL day long! They seriously drove me nuts!
That's really about all that went on in my world yesterday...hope your was more interesting!

Christmas Delay

Due to finances this year, JR and I decided to forego personal gifts this year. We spent our Christmas budget on the kids and grandparents...that was it. We ended up getting several gift cards from my aunts and uncles, so JR and I decided to pick one thing that we wanted and use the gift card for it...JR got a stack of 100 CD's to burn music on - why 100??? I have no idea...but what ever, then he got a sharpee to label the discs and a case for his truck. I got a coffee maker!!! I am so excited about this, I can't even describe it. So, I just got a cheap $10 coffee maker and then I got a coffee bean grinder and some coffee filters. I also recieved a gift card to Starbucks...well actually I got 2, so I went over and bought some Columbian coffee beans and some House Blend beans. I was so excited to make myself my first cup of coffee this morning...oh...and I got some white chocolate mocha creamer to go with it!!! So I am sitting here drinking my coffee...and it is DELICIOUS!!! What a wonderful Christmas gift!! We still have several gift cards left over and I am not sure what to do with them...the kids got plenty of toys and lots of new clothes, so I am not sure what to do with them just yet. I am thinking I will hold on to them and use them later for the kids..when they need a new outfit...oh, man - I NEED to get Logan some new shoes...hmmm...so I will use them for new shoes, and hold on to the rest. I hate doing that because people send them with the intention that you will buy something that then becomes the gift that they were responsible for...BUT my kids dont really need anything else....I am sure that a month from now, they will be ready for something new...ehhh! I dont know!
Anyway....I love COFFEE!!! Maybe now I will be able to stay awake throughout the ENTIRE day!

Christmas Blessings!

We had such an amazing Christmas! We headed down to Galveston on Thursday, and surprisingly - the trip went by so much faster than I thought. The kids slept almost the entire way!!! We stopped in La Marque at Nikki and Travis' house. Travis was at work, but we got to see Nikki and Aiden - as well as Nikki's brother and dad. We hung out for a little bit...and I have to say that I am completely enamored with little Aiden. He is so cute, I just wanted to hold him the entire time...but he was busy playing with Logan and Landry! I took a bunch of clothes that Logan has grown out of down to drop off with Nikki, which Aiden probably wont be able to wear for a year from now...but oh well!
We hit the road again down to JR's mom's house in Galveston...we had such a good time hanging out and eating some wonderful food. Landry didn't sleep AT ALL! I forgot her dang blanket, and it wasn't pleasant! On Saturday, we went to my Grandmother's house for a few hours to visit and then went back to Carol's for dinner. We decided to go to Moody Garden's and see the Fantasy of Lights...I was not really impressed by it...They have one in Dickenson (which is free, I might add) and it is much better! They also have one in Wimberley, which is called the "Trail of Lights" and it is much better as well. Anyway, we took Logan to the ice skating rink...he was so excited, so I went and paid for the skates and put them on myself while JR took care of Logan...when Logan tried to stand in the skates he couldn't and he did NOT like it at all so he refused to get on the ice! JR ended up taking the skates and trading them in for his own size and the two of us went ice skating together...well not really - because apparently I am a pretty decent ice skater, so I passed up JR and went for it...It was really fun! JR went one round and got off the ice! HAHAHA...he was too funny!
On Christmas Day we packed everything up and headed back to my Nanny's house for Christmas lunch....oh my goodness...the food was amazing - I ate far to much, but it was ohhhhhh so good! We sat around talking with family before getting back on the road....EXCEPT when we got to the car JR saw that he had a text from his mom saying I forgot my hair straightener, and that JR's brother, Jason, and his wife and son (lisa and Davin) and JR's sister, Brittany had come down and wanted to see us. So we headed back over to Carol's house to visit with the family for about 30 minutes and then got on the road to go home.
About halfway home my little sister (who was at my parents how) text me to let me know she had to leave to go back home the following day....ughhhh! So, we decided to drive the extra 30 minutes to my parents house, so that I could see her before she went home. We got there about 8:00. We hung out, talked, laughed and decided to play Scategories...the whole family played...I was reminded at how hilarious my dad is. It was too much fun. We opened gifts and by the time we got in the car to head home it was midnight! Geeesh!
Anyway, the point of the blog is that we had a marvelous Christmas!!!

South bound!

I am about to start packing up our things...we are headed to Galveston today, just as soon as JR gets off work!!! We wont be there long, we are heading back home on Saturday but hopefully we will have enough time to do everything we want...but I doubt it! LOL
Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone!

Figuring it out....

Well, I decided yesterday that I would head to the mall today, however; JR had to take my car to work today because he couldn't find his car keys! I have looked all morning and I can't find them either! GREAT! I have to find them because we are out of food, and I am already getting hundry and it isn't even 9:00...grrrr! So, I guess I will be spending the morning starved and desperately looking for keys! Woohoo
I just figured out something and I am going to share it with you....from the time I was little, when ever I was asked what I wanted for Christmas I could never answer. I remember copying my older sisters christmas list to Santa because I never really knew what I wanted. I am still the same way - and this morning while I was thinking about what I wanted and what to get te kids it hit me....I always ask for something I NEED instead of something I want...and a lot of times I can't think of anything that I need so badly that I would want someone else to buy it for me! Anyway, I was going to go to the mall today, in order to buy clothes for myself, JR, and this kids. We all need clothes, and I have yet to put anything under the tree. Then I need to go grocery shopping, and to get some pictures printed out and some frames...I am pretty sure that our Christmas cards will get here tomorrow, so I guess there is a chance that they will be late getting to family and friends! AWESOME! LOL
Also, my mom never shares the plans for any holiday until a few days before, and this Christmas is no different, but appparently she is working on Christmas Day and wants to go to Galveston the following day...the problem with that for the rest of the family is that JR and Randi both have to work on Monday....I really want to see my grandmother, and Carol (JR's mom) has been calling all month because wants to see her grandkids. Plus I have a feeling that Logan and Landry, especially Landry, dont really know Carol because we hardly ever see her. Landry is 14 months old and has only been around Carol 4-5 times...So JR and I are thinking about travelling to Galveston on Thursday after he gets off work and coming home on Christmas day. But I know that will screw up my moms plans because she has to be at work at 7:00pm and doesn't get off until 7:00am...So I have to figure out how to spend Christmas with my mom and dad, and spend Christmas with my Nanny, and Carol....and then my other Grandmother, Memaw, will be in San Antonio on the 26th, so I will need to go and spend time with her and my Aunts and Uncles as well!

da dum...

Well, It's Thursday....I am not sure why I am anticipating this weekend, we have nothing going on..I just feel like it will be one week closer to this year being over. It hasn't been a horrible year or anything...just ready for the next one to begin. Plus, I am hoping and praying beyond reason that JR will get his Christmas bonus this Friday along with his paycheck! LOL
Two days ago, Landry walked across the living room all by herself! JR was home so it was exciting to watch the milestone together. Of course, she hasn't done it since...she will take a few steps here and there, but Tuesday was the first time she walked like 12 steps. I can't believe my little princess is walking! Well, at least attempting to!
Also speaking of the princess...I got a little upset with JR last night because he was playing with Landry and saying she was the most precious baby he has ever seen...I was like - ummm..what about Logan. Then he proceeded to tell me that Landry was better! I was mortified. My husband has a favorite child!!!! I seriously can't believe it. I know that growing up in my house, I was the least favorite of the children and I swore that I would never choose a favorite. I also knew that having more than one child, I may identify with one of them more than the other, but under no circumstances would I EVER love one more than the other - so I am kind of heart broken by the idea that JR has decided Landry is his favorite....I know for sure that his favorite will change over time...perhaps when Logan starts playing little league sports he will decide Logan is his favorite...I dont know - just the very idea of him having a favorite makes me a little sick. I love both of my kids so much...and they are both so very different, but it doesn't mean that I love one more than the other. Hopefully JR is just pretending to have a favorite because he knows it bothers me...he loves to do stuff that he knows gets on my nerves...so I pray that is what he doing, I dont think I can handle the whole favorite child thing!

Ready for the new year!

Well, not to sound like a scrooge or anything, but I am really just ready for the year to be over. I dont want to do Christmas at all this year....but it has to be done! I do this every year...I am not a big fan of Christmas to tell you the truth. My favorite part - is getting together with my family and just enjoying each other, playing games, talking, telling old stories. Every year, it's usually the same stories, but I love it. I dont care about presents, and while it feels good to give great presents...my bank account just can't manage it - not this year at least! Thus, Christmas isn't really my favorite...THANKSGIVING is my favorite holiday...you get the family, the food, and no pressure!
I am really kind of wishing we could just skip Jan. and Feb, and skip right to March...that way we can be getting the tax return back and maybe start to dig out of this hole that we are in! Grrrrr! oh well, only a few more months to go - we will make it, we always do!
So, I have also been trying to think of a New Year's Resolution for 2011. Last year I said I would stress less....and let me tell you - I DID. At least until about October....and then I started to stress a little more, but nothing like last year, so I would call it pretty successful! I would like to start working out again, but I dont want the pressure of it being a resolution...I dont really need to lose any weight, I weigh 135 pounds and I am 5'8"....in fact - if it were possible I would have some fat put in my cheeks....My face looks a little gaunt in some of my recent pictures....ewww! I would like to live a healthier life...but most of the health food that I can get JR to agree on is really expensive and we just dont have the money for it... So anyway, I guess I will keep thinking - I have a couple more weeks!

yesterday

Hahaha...I went to the grocery store yesterday, but I really wasn't in the mood to spend a lot of money - nor did I want to get many meals that were time consuming. Now, my husband may not be thrilled about what I picked out...but it was cheap and easy, and therefore I completed my goal! LOL
On the menu this week:
Frito Pie
Hot Dogs
Weenie Soup
Spaghetti
Tacos

Now very quickly I will explain weenie soup! This was my favorite meal growing up. One package of weenies, a can or two of tomato sauce - depending on how much soup you want, some worstechire sauce( I can't spell it), and a little bit of bar-b-que sauce. Heat it on the stove until the weenies are thoroughly cooked! Yummmmmmy!
JR refuses to try it, but Logan, Landry, and I LOVE it...so I got it for a lunch meal!
Also, something else I learned yesterday....JR is COMPLETELY wrapped around Landry's finger! He is so enamored with her, it just cracks me up. He may not show it by changing her diapers, or making her bottles, or putting her to bed...but he loves hearing her giggle and sometimes I will catch him just watching her and smiling. Those are the moments I love my husband the most. He is constantly asking me, "Isn't she so sweet?" "How come Logan wasn't like this" "She is so precious" - yes he actually says the word precious! LOL I often have to tell him that Logan and Landry have very different personalities and that means they need to be handled in different ways but that we shouldn't compare them. It would be like comparing me to either of my sisters. Everyone is different! I just think its so sweet that when JR gets home, both the kids go nuts! Logan will usually settle for a kiss and a hug, then JR will sit down and Logan will take JR's socks off for him - GROSS - but it's their thing. Landry will usually chase JR around until he sits down, then she crawls up in his lap and kisses him over and over!!! It's too cute!
Happy Tuesday everyone!

weekend woes

Thursday night we drove into Austin for JR's company Christmas Party. All was well, but I must say there are a few of those guys he works with that are very VERY strange! LOL Of course it started at 6:30 and there was no way to get home in time for Landry's bedtime, so she became a bit fussy, but seriously did a great job. Logan ate his food, then said, "Okay I'm done. I want to go home!" Lovely, so he was a cranky butt as well! Hahaha
Friday night we drove up to Waco for the semi-finals game. It was pretty sad. My dad's team has played so well all year, but they just fell apart. The offense just wasn't clicking at all, the lineman were out-matched and to slow. The opposing team had this quick snap going, which caused the A LOT of penalties, but was also hard for our defense to read. Anyway, The Texans ended their season with a loss against Coldsprings Oakhurst. The score was 26-14. After the game all the boys were crying...it was sad! Really wish I could say I would be sitting in Cowboy stadium on Friday...but unfortunately we were just one win short!:(
Saturday we spent the day sleeping because we didn't get home until almost 3 the night before. Then after a day of sleeping Randi and her kids came over at about 10:00 at night because she was too drunk and too high to drive home....ughhh! She had been in San Marcos and called to see if they could stay the night...she said she had been drinking and didn't realize how drunk she was until she started driving. So of course, I said yes and tried to talk her into pulling over and letting me come to get her - but she wouldn't...luckily she was only 5 minutes from the house when she called. I stayed on the phone with her until she reached my house. Then after I put a movie on for the kids and tucked them into bed. I told her how dissapointed I was in her and how incredibly selfish and irresponsible it was of her to drive with her children in the car while under the influence. I said, "you are incredibly stupid, not just because of your own children - but the fact that even if you were alone you could have killed someone." I told her that I hated what she was becoming and told her that everything in me wants to turn my back and say - until you can get healthy, I dont want to be around you...but I cant do that because I dont think it will help...in fact it could make it worse. Honestly, I dont know what to do. Sometimes I think about writing "Dr. Phil" or that "Intervention" show in hopes that someone will know what to do with her.
Sunday was a day of resting...randi and the kids left about 3:30 which was nice that they weren't here ALL day like they usually are. JR and I watched movies. We tried to watch "Dinner for Schmucks"...it was so dumb - then we tried "The Other Guys" with Will Farrell and Mark Wahlberg(HOTTTTTT) but nope....it was dumb too. So we left the comedy genre and went another direction. We watched Ben Affleck's, "The Town" - It was a really good movie. Then we watched "The Sorcorer's Apprentice" and it was a cute movie that Logan really enjoyed.
On my list today is to watch "Eclipse" and "Eat, Pray, Love" because I cant watch either while JR is here....Then I have to get to the grocery store! YUCK! And order Christmas photos!

Christmas lights

So everytime we go somewhere at night, Logan gets so excited about seeing the Christmas lights. He gets excited about Santa, and Christmas trees. This is really fun because last year he just wasn't in to it. I can't wait to take the kids to the mall and get their picture with Santa. It ought to be funny...Logan's first picture with Santa was GREAT - He was so happy and smiling. The next year he was screaming bloody murder. Last year, Logan and Landry took the pictures together...Landry just looked irritated and Logan was once again screaming, because he wanted me. LOL It was a pretty funny picture. This year I am thinking Logan will do great but Landry has such horrible separation anxiety that she will be screaming. Part of me thinks I should just do them separately so that at least I can get a good one of Logan, but I dont want to pay that much money, and we dont really frame the photos, there are more just for the memories. I keep all of them and one day I want to put them in one of those "over time" frames...they have them for schools....where you put your child's class photo in each slot starting from kindergarten to senior year...Anyway....
on another note, JR continues to make things hard for me. I am not exactly pleasant right now due to a monthly visitor, but still - I get sick of him not following the rules. Two days ago...(monday) I have been keeping the house clean for almost 2 weeks now. Every night I pick up the toys and the living room, every morning I get dishes in the dishwasher, every other morning or ever other-other morning I will do the laundry and fold it and put it away. We never have more than one load at a time because I have been staying on top of it....this has made my life SO MUCH EASIER. I have more time to play with the kids, less to stress about, and I have been taking them down to the park when weather permits, or we will go to the McDonalds play area...So on Monday - JR comes home and does what he always does...kicks off his shoes that end up almost in the middle of the floor (instead of by the door, where I ask him to put them DAILY) he asks Logan to take off his socks, which immediately go on the floor (which I ask him daily to please put in the laundry room.) EVERY SINGLE DAY we have this conversation. On Monday I got really upset and started crying...I dont mind keeping the house clean...It's technically part of my job, and I realized that I needed to do a better job of it and I have. But as I explained to JR, this isn't the 1950's I am not going to go behind him and pick up his socks and shoes, and bring him a drink because he is too lazy to get off the damn couch. I cook dinner, and he wants me to make him a plate...give me a freaking break. So after days of asking him to pick up his socks and shoes, and after days of me coming downstairs every morning and his dirty socks still lying there and me having to pick them up - I finally blew up on Monday. He apologized and said he would do better....GREAT! Then I cook dinner and low and behold, he asks me to make him a plate and bring it to him....I say no, I told him that if he was hungry he could make himself a plate. HE SERIOUSLY got mad at me...told me it wasn't fair because Monday night foootball was on....ummmm- WTF? So there I went again....I told him that I apparently have spoiled him and that my job was to raise our two children, not to reaise him. He ended up saying that I was right, he was sorry and would do better....hmmmmm!
After dinner, the rule is that you have to bring your plate to the sink and rinse it off. JR has a hard time even getting it to the sink...it's usually left lying next to his chair, in which I have to pick up the next morning...EVEN LOGAN takes his plate to the sink - no, he can't rinse it off...but he still takes it over there! So after 3 days of me reminding JR and him forgetting to take the dish and rinse, I brought it up and told him that I felt really under-appreciated and that once again this wasn't the 1950's. I already do his laundry, fold it, put it away, cook dinner for him every night...I am not about to start wearing my heels as I vacuum the effing house! So by the end of our talk he apologized and said he would do better. Grrrr!
To his credit, last night, he put his socks in the laundry room, his shoes were by the door, he made his own plate of food, and rinsed out his dish when he was done.
I was so tired that I went to bed early...at 9:30 I told JR he was in charge of putting Logan to bed. Logan is not allowed to have anything to drink after 8:30. But of course JR made him a glass of juice water...correction - Logan had 3 glasses of juice water!!!! AHHHHHHHHH! Next, before Logan gets his diaper for night time, I take him to the potty and make him pee before hand...I m trying to get him used to peeing before night time...JR didn't do this, so an hour after the diaper was put on Logan had peed about 5 gallons. This morning at 4:00am Logan comes into the room to let me know that he peed...yep - he peed through his diaper and all over the bed! so I changed Logan, put him in bed with us and got up this morning to wash sheets. I talked to JR a bit ago, and he says he is sorry and that he will do better...I tell him it seems like that is all I ever hear, and he says that its because I am always bitching...okay, maybe I am. But if I ask you to do something, I expect you to do it. I just dont get it, he has this way of making it sound like I am thw wicked witch of the west and he is prince charming. Is it really crazy that maybe I am tired because I have been doing house chores, playing with the kids, feeding the kids, bathing the kids, going over colors, numbers, shapes, and letters with Logan, doing art projects with both of the kids, reading them books, only to turn around and have to start dinner, and I dont feel like picking up dirty socks and shoes that my husband leaves lying around...I have to do that for Logan...he's 3 - JR is 27, and if truth be told, I will tell logan to pick up his shoes and where to take them, then he will pick up his socks and I will walk with him to the laundry room....my nearly 4 year old is more responsive than my 27 year old husband!!! Is it really crazy that I have to make my plate, Landry's plate, and Logan's plate so I dont really feel like making JR's plate...I mean I can see his point, why not make it, I am already making everyone elses. But what happens is I make everyone's plate and by the time I get to sit down to eat, everyone is done and then I have to get up and clean up the mess....it can be almost an hour before I get to eat...so, no, I dont want to make JR's plate! Logan is finally potty trained and now comes the next phase which is teaching him how to sleep through the night without and accident, we still use a night time diaper, but there are rules...no drinks after 8:30, he must use the potty before getting the diaper...but JR did it his own way...the easy way and I get stuck cleaning up the mess - as usual! I am really not trying to have a pity party...but seriously am I crazy, or is my husband being pretty lazy???

ps....there are times that my husband is extremely helpful and he really has improved tremendously since we first met...it just that every once in a while he slips into the little regression that will usually last about 2-3 weeks depending on how long I coddle him...then things will be great for 2-3 months before the regression hits again. I say this, because I dont want anyone thinking that he is always this lazy....just every now and then -but it sure drives me crazy when he does go through this stage!

Christmas is coming...

So, its that time of year! It seems that every year I say I am going to start my Christmas shopping early, but every year I wait until the last minute! Well, it looks like it will be the same thing this year! Mainly because of the days that the paychecks fall on. JR's Christmas party is coming up on Thursday. I was really excited for a minute because apparently the company he works for has given out really nice Christmas bonuses for the last two year (of course three years ago, they all got $25 Wal-mart gift cards LOL). JR says it just depends on how much they go over the goal that is set at the beginning of each year....anyway, I got a little excited that we would be able to pay off a few things...but then I dont want to count on a big bonus and then not get it:( So I guess we will just have to see what comes. The other thing I was excited about is that at JR's old company they got their bonus checks at the Christmas party...so I was happy to think that I could get started on the Christmas shopping this weekend....BUT then Jr told me that they never give the Christmas checks at the party....UGHHHH. So I guess I will be waiting and waiting until the last possible second! Luckily, this year I know pretty much what I am getting everyone...and for my extended family I have already taken the Christmas photos, so I just need to order them on Christmas cards and get them mailed out! Yay! Then, we are only buying gifts for the nieces and nephews, JR's mom and my parents, My grandmothers, and JR's grandmother!...Neices and nephews are either getting clothes or toys, our parents are getting a framed family picture, and some bath & body works lotion and shower gel. Grandmas are getting a framed family photo and Bath& Baody Works lotion and candle. Then we are getting our own kids CLOTHES! So at least now I have an idea of what to get....now I just have to get it done!

weekend with the Fam!

Okay, starting with Friday....We went to my Dad's football game. It was pretty cool because the game was just right down the road from our house. In high school, once the play-offs arrive the two opposing teams will flip a coin to determine who will be the home team and who will be the visting team. Sometimes they decide ahead of time, that the home team will chose the location, and sometimes they will flip a coin to determine who chooses....but no matter what the game is ALWAYS held at a neutral location. Anyway, they won 40-14, so the Texans are headed to Waco to play at the Baylor Bears Stadium for the semi-finals. I am really nervous about the game, in fact...every time I even think about it my stomach tightens into knots....
Saturday, we got up and drove to Wimberley for Isabella's first little dribblers game...little dribblers is pee-wee basketball. She was really much better than I thought she would be, and all the little girls were so funny and cute....however, I was there to support her, but I dont think I will be going every weekend!
Later that evening, my mom, Vanessa, Randi, and the kids came over to play apples to apples. We had a really great time. Of course, Randi wasn't there 5 minutes before trying to start a fight with my mom...I got a little impatient with the whole thing. My mom handled it really well, but I just get sick of it. Luckily, it only lasted a few minutes and was over and we were able to have a really good time. My mom and Vanessa stayed until almost midnight, and Randi and her kids of course stayed the night. They were here ALL day Sunday, and didn't leave until 6:30. But I went to take a nap at 3:30 and didn't wake up until they came to say goodbye. After they left I felt bad for sleeping so long, and I felt even worse when JR said that Randi went to take a nap and he was stuck watching all four kids. I love having my sister come over to hang out...but she doesn't understand that I dont want to spent every weekend with her and her kids. My patience runs really short and I end up have to confine myself to my room in order to get away from her. Anyway, I just want a weekend to spend with my family, without Randi and her kids....I love her - I just need a break every once in a while.

Got it!

I think I have mentioned the fact that I have been so tired this ENTIRE week. I just dont get it, because I am so tired during the day, I can barely keep my eyes open. But then I try to go to bed at 9:00 or even 10:00 and I end up laying in bed reading a book until 2:00am. Then I wake up the next morning and am tired all over again. I had such great intentions of getting my house in order...the dusting and mopping, cleaning toilets, you know all the little stuff that you dont do on a daily basis - but as I said, I was so sleepy. So yesterday, I got all the dusting done in the living room, I went through the living room toy bucket and got rid of some toys (well actually, they are in a trash bag in the garage waiting for me to take them to goodwill), vacuumed, and got the Christmas tree up. Sadly the tree this year is much bigger around than the tree last year so I have to go get another string of lights, and Landry refuses to leave the tree alone, so I have light that only cover the bottom 3/4 of the tree and ornaments that only cover the middle section! AWESOME. I can't put the ornaments on top until I put the lights on it, and I cant put any ornaments that are in reach of Landry! ughhhhh....The tree is going to look AMAzinG this year! LOL
Today's tasks are going to be laundry, mopping the kitchen, dishes, cleaning the microwave, stove and refrigerator! YAY...sounds like fun to me. Tomorrow I get to tackle the upstairs...which means purging the closets and all those dang toys!

walking and cleaning

Well Landry is unofficially walking....the little stinker will walk as long as you are sitting directly in front of her...but other than that...it is not going to happen. I have even tried sitting in front of her and scooting backwards as she walks toward me...she can go all the way across the living rooom, but the second I stand up, she sits down...she doesn't even pretend to fall down...she literally just sits down! hahaha. JR and I talked about this and I have decided that she knows how to walk, and therefore; whenever she is ready, she will start on her own without being prompted. Until then, I am going to enjoy her being a baby for as long as she is a baby...and in my eyes, until she starts walking - she is a baby. When she starts walking then she will be a toddler and I will enjoy every minute of that stage as well!!!!
I still have a lot of cleaning to do - and I still haven't put up the Christmas decorations! Ughhhh. Everytime I get all the toys picked up in the living room, Landry and Logan come behind me and unload all the toys - I seriously can't wait to go through and donate all the these toys and clothes so that we have less junk in the house. But in order to do so, I need to stop typing and get up and get busy! I have been putting it off for two days now, so - happy hump day....I'm off to get be busy.

Thanksgiving weekend

hmmm...okay so this year we did things a little differently. Because my dad is still in the play-offs, my family decided to not travel to Galveston to be with my Nanny and the rest of the family...we went last year, but my dad had to stay behind and it made me pretty sad. My grandmother had Thanksgiving with the rest of the family as usual, and then my aunt Angela drove her to north Houston to meet up with my mom on Saturday morning. So we had our Thanksgiving with my Nanny on Sunday - which was also my dad's 54th birthday! On Thursday, we still wanted to get together for the holiday, so my mom cooked a brisket, along with a bunch of other things...It was AWESOME!!! It was pretty much the same as any other Thanksgiving meal...only the food was different.
Friday night we headed to Brenham for the football game. We played Sweeny, TX and beat them 42-17 so we will go on to round 4 in the playoffs! Woohoo! Lucky for us, the Wimberley Texans will face a team that they have already played once this year, and because they are located relatively close...the neutral location chosen for the game this Friday night in here in KYlE...just 5 minutes from our house! YAY!
Saturday, we went back over to my parents, we just hung out, we all played apples to apples and visited with my Nanny, while she was preparing for Sunday's meal. It was going pretty well until Randi got pissed off about something and stormed out...ughhh! Then my mom got called into work, and while we were sad to see her go, I understood...money is money! I just felt bad that she was going into work at 11:00 at night and would get home at 8 in the morning then get up for Family Thanksgiving...and she had to go to work at 7 on Sunday night....:(
Sunday we went back to my parents house, we ate a delicious thanksgiving meal, the kids played and played, I took a german chocolate cake for my dad's birthday...it was really nice. After lunch everyone pretty much left. Vanessa had to go back to Huntsville, Dad left to go to work, mom went to sleep so she could get a few hours before work, Nanny went to take a nap...all that was left were the kids, and me and JR and Randi, watching football...well, I read a book - and they watched football!
Yesterday, we met up with JR for lunch and then went grocery shopping came home and didn't do ANYTHING...so I have a lot to catch up on Today! Yikes

Gobble Gobble

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving!! It is my favorite holiday of the year! Unfortunately, we will not really be celebrating tomorrow:( Since my dad has a game on Friday night in Brenham, the family is coming on Saturday morning, which is when we celebrate together...I told JR we are going to have to eat a turkey sandwhich or something for lunch tomorrow! This is the first time in my life I have not celebrated Thanksgiving on the day of:(
I went yesterday to get two new tires! It wasn't too fun hanging out at discount tire for nearly two hours with the kids...but we made it. When JR got home, the first thing he asked, "Are those tires smaller?" Apparently the new tires don't match the front tire, and JR is really annoyed by this. I honestly didn't notice, nor do I care. THEY ARE TIRES! LOL
A few things I am thankful for -
My husband - While I complain about him, and he get on my nerves sometimes, I must admit that he puts up with far more than I do. He is an amazing husband. I am so lucky!
My kids - They are spoilled rotten, demanding, needy, sometimes whiny, and can even be annoying, but when they smile - the whole world stops. My heart grows with more love for them each and every day. I am so lucky!
My family - I couldn't have asked for a better dad...he is to amazing for words. My mom can get pretty crazy, and we may disagree about almost everything...but I love that crazy woman! My sisters...they are the best in the entire world. I have two wonderful grandmothers, aunts, uncles, cousins and a niece and nephew. The family continues to grow and I continue to learn how important they are in my life. I am so lucky!
My friends - While I only have a handful of people that I consider my real friends, they are the most intelligent, beautiful, diverse, wonderfully made in the world. I am so lucky!
My blessings - No matter what situation we are in, I have blessings all around me. The most imortant blessings are the ones listed above. I am also blessed with material things..my house, my car, my wonderful wedding and engagement ring, my big screen TV....well, there is a lot...but I am thankful and I am so lucky!
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

Trucking along...

Lets see...I have a donut on my car....My tire has some sort of hole in it and every three days I have to put air in it, so JR to it to discount tire thinking they could plug the hole, but once they checked it they said the tire had a large gash from the inside...(hmmm, then why is the air leaking out slowly?) You would think that it would just be a flat tire, right? Well, while they were checking the other tires they said that the other back tire also has a gash in it and probably wont last a month...hmmm...that air isn't losing any air. So, I am always skeptical, but here are my thoughts...
#1 we bought the car in mid July - so 4 months...when we bought the car I did ask if it had new tires, and was told no, that they only replace the tires if they are in bad shape, but that the tire are all inspected. So in 4 months, my "passed inspection" tires have two gashes in them???
#2 Can the Discount Tire people really not fix the tire or do they just want me to have buy two new tires???
Anyway, so they guy tells JR about the tires and says he is going to put the donut on the car, JR ask him not to put the spare on and just put air in the regular tire. Okay....They bring the car out...it has the spare on it. JR says, hey why is the spare on, the guy says they had to put it on for liability reasons...hmmm? So what about the other tire with the gash in it??? And besides all that, why didn't he just say that when JR asked to not put the spare on??? So yay, we get to throw out $200 for two new tires! Yippeeeee!
Every day Landry and I have worked on walking...the girl is too funny. She seriously has no interest in walking..and the reason I know this for sure...SHE CAN WALK! Yes she only takes about five steps before she is in my arms...but she has been doing it continuously since this weekend, and he has been cruising since she was 7 months old. So I am thinking that she can do it, she just doesn't want to. When Logan took his first step, it shocked him and he fell immediately, but then he sat there kind of dazed, he stood up and tried again..this time taking 3 steps. He did this several times, and 3-4 days later the kids was walking all over. Landry on the other hand...she is like, hey look, I can walk, but crawling or cruising is so much easier so I will just stick with that! I am not trying to push it...but kinda I am. It doesn't really bother me that much, but it would be nice to not have to carry her everywhere. I try not to compare my children, because they are so incredibly DIFFERENT. But sometimes I do it not really as a comparison, but to point out their differences...I feel like maybe it will give me more insight to who they are, and who they will be. From what I know right now, they will have to be dealt with completely differently...they just have such different personalities. Landry seems to be more patient, while Logan is more demanding...(hmmm - think about that and the walking issue - Logan, at 8 1/2 months - determined to figure it out immediately - Landry - slow and steady wins the race..hahaha) Anyway, I could go through all their differences, but I will say this, they are BOTH very tender hearted people who love to kiss, hug, and cuddle with momma! How lucky am I? The luckiest!!!!
Happy almost Thanksgiving!

semi relaxed

On Friday we all headed into San Antonio for round two of the high school football playoffs! We had to play Cuero...AGAIN! It was an excellent game. throughout the majority of it we were either tied or either ahead or behind by one touchdown. After halftime we came out and scored pretty quickly, followed by another touchdown in the fourth quarter and with 2 minutes left in the game we scored AGAIN! woohoooooo! Unfortunately they only needed a little over a minute in order to throw a long pass and score at the last second, but FORTUNATELY, it didn't matter we won the game 43-35! We will play Sweeny this comeing Friday in Brenham!
On Saturday, I got up with the kids. Landry woke up at 6:45 - Ughh! JR slept in until 10:45, geesh. I finally had Logan wake him up to go get food. When he got back I ate and went straight to sleep, I wasn't feeling so great and I was exhausted. I slept until 3:15 and when I woke up, I seriously felt as though I had just gone to sleep, but it was also a very restful sleep...weird! I still wasn't feeling so hot, but I tried to just get over it. My sister, Randi, came over and we watched the Aggies beat the hell out of Nebraska!!! Whoop! Well, I watched the end of the game because I had finished my book and Randi and JR were being so loud, I decided to watch instead of starting another book. By the way JR watched college football ALL DAY long, which is how I was able to read so much this weekend - 3 books - whew! So after the game we played a few drinking games and went to bed about 2. It was pretty fun...but I still just wasn't feeling good. It wasn't that I felt bad either, I just felt, tired, weak, a little nauseated...I dont know how to explain it, I wouldn't say I was sick...I just didn't feel well!
Sunday, JR got up with the kids, I slept in until 10 (WOW!!!) I had to sleep in our bed because Randi slept in my bed (Logan's bed) and I woke up in agonizing pain! I know it is a little weird, but JR and I sleep in seperate beds. No we aren't fighting, yes we are still desperately in love with each other...but he LOVES our mattress...in all its lumpy glory, and I hate it...it causes me to have a lot of pain...and lets face it, I am a whiner..I dont like for things to hurt, and I have the bones of an 80 year old man, so therefore, it is painful. So to remedy the problem, we sleep in different beds. We are going to try to buy a new bed (preferably a KING size one) with our income tax return this year...and I am looking into getting a sleep number bed or something that can be adjusted so that we are both comfortable and can actually sleep together. LOL
Anyway, so Sunday while JR and Randi watched football, I read another book that I started the night before after the drinking games. Then I played with the kids...they were being too darn cute to not get in the floor and play with them! Landry and I worked on her walking...she is taking a few steps...but then she just sits down...AND her steps have to be prompted...She will only take the steps if you are sitting directly in front of her....I guess JR thought it was cute, because he got in the floor with me and we had her just walk back and forth between us! Logan was in his spiderman costume pretty much the entire weekend. LOL - At 2:30 I put Landry down for a nap and decided to lay down as well...I spent the time finishing my book and then starting a new one. Landry got up about 5:00 - she took a long nap, so I got up with her. Basically, we had a pretty relaxing weekend, and yet we still did a few things. I am happy, I hate starting the week completely exhausted!!!

things to do

I was just reading my friend's blog and she was talking about how she and her husband took their son to the zoo. Their son, Aiden, is almost 17 months old and Nikki said that she was worried that he wounldn't really grasp the whole concept of the zoo. But, he did get it, and apparently he had a really good time!! YAY! The reason I am sharing this is because I have really wanted to take the kids to the San Antonio Zoo and Aquarium, but I didn't think Landry would really enjoy it. Plus, I would really like for her to figure out the whole walking thing. She just turned 13 months, so I was hoping to take them in Feb. or March. Logan will be 4 in March - HOLY COW - can you believe my baby boy is going to be 4 in just a few months...AHHHH - I must go on, or else I will just go off on a tangent about my baby boy... at that point Landry will be 17 months old (about the same age as Aiden), so I think we might have a good experience. Logan will love the zoo, no question about it. We took him to the Houston zoo in JULY while I was pregnant with Landry...it was miserable, but he had fun for most of the trip. JR however, said that he would never go back during hot weather!!!!
Another thing that I really want to do it take Logan to the Natural Bridge Caverns. www.naturalbridgecaverns.com Landry is far to young to go, but I think that Logan may be old enough to go through some of the smaller caves. I just worry that he may be too small, but then again - that kids is adventerous! Shoot, as much as Landry like to climb, she could probably do just as well! Haha...but she will have to wait. Anywho....I am thinking about trying it this summer, and I would like to take him again the following summer before he starts Kindergarten. Maybe we can make it a yearly thing. I am not sure about the summer months, but it stays pretty cool down in the caves do I think it would be okay..I dont know, hopefully we can check it out this summer and we will know what to do for the following year.
Also, there is a place called the San Antonio wildlife Ranch that I went to when I was a kid...and I would love to go back with the kids. www.wildliferanchtexas.com
I was actually shocked to find out that JR went there as a kid as well..so maybe we can do this sometime in next month..Maybe we can try it out in a few weeks...we will have to see, we have been so busy lately it may just have to wait until next year. Anyway, there are so many things that I want to try out with the kids...This stuff is just San Antonio...and there is so much more...the Alamo, the River Walk boat ride, Sea World, Fiesta Texas...just to name a few!

Babies

My babies are pretty much the most amazing things in this world!!! They have been so sweet lately and I am so thankful for it. I have kind of fallen behind on everything...facebook, tv shows, blogging, cleaning the house - anything and everything that I am used to spending time on...the last two weeks I have just used that time with the kids. I must admit, that now I feel a little ashamed...although I never felt like I just sat around all day before - I look back and think, hmmmm I could have been playing with the kids a little more. Dont get me wrong, I still played with them, but over the last two weeks I have spent a lot more time paying attention to the things they want. Anyway, they really are so incredibly special, and I just dont want to look back and think, wow - I missed it because I was too focused on something else.
Now, as sweet and wonderful as these little children have been...it doesn't mean they dont have their tantrums. I am trying to teach Landry early, NOT to talk back..NOT to give me attitude...but man, that little stinker already has an attitude...AND she already has "the look". When she gets in trouble, she just looks at you with those big blue eyes that seem to water on cue, and her expression is just so sad - Freaking adorable...but I try to resist!!! If she gets mad at something she has the death look down...the girl can GLARE!!! Hahaha Most of the time she is just so sweet and loving..she will crawl up beside me and rest her head on me...or crawl up in my lap and just cuddle! How lucky am I?
Logan on the other hand...I didn't not start early on the whole attitude thing, and let me tell you - he has a BAD attitude when things aren't going his way. The other thing is, if you tell him no - or you get on to him in the smallest way, he just starts crying. So I got to the point where I ignore the cries - but when I ignore them he gets angry. He throws stuff, he screams...and if I ignore that, he goes back to crying. So now, he will be playing with his toys and maybe he is too loud, and I will say, "Logan, your too loud...use a smaller voice." And then I will demonstrate...sometimes he is okay with this and other times he just starts crying...so I feel like my new thing to say around the house is "stop crying" or "no crying" I have done time out, spanking, ignoring, talking to him, distracting, giving him a bribe...nothing seems to work. When he wants to throw a tantrum...I haven't found one thing to stop him. But for you other mothers that try to distract or to bribe...let me tell you a little story:
Yesterday, I went into Austin for an interview, I met up with JR and he drove the kids around while I went in. When I was finished Logan was sleeping in the back seat and Landry was screaming. We took JR back to his truck and drooped him off and the kids and I headed home. I had to massage Landry's feet with one hand and drive with the other, because it was the only thing I could do to get her to stop screaming. we pulled into the driveway and Logan woke up..He says, "where's daddy" I tell him that daddy had to go back to work, he follows with, "NO NO NO NO...I WANT DADDY" He is yelling this to me. I tell him that daddy will be home later - no go..Logan is now SCREAMING, "I WANT DADDY" I try to get Logan out of the car, but he wont budge, he is still screaming. I grab his bag of toys and begin to take one at a time, "Here, do you want to play with Ironman?"
"No, I want Daddy."
"How about spiderman?"
Louder, he says, "NO, I WANT DADDY"
"Here's Hulk."
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO....DAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDY!"
"Here...Here's Woody and Jessie, and Bullseye"
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...."
So I realize that this is actually only pissing him off more, so I tell my son who is screaming so loud that I am seriously thinking that some of the neighbors may come out, to get his behind inside before I spank it. I reach for his hand and he starts kicking at me. Now, I try really hard to be patient enough for him to make the right choice on his own - but I drew the line at kicking, so I pulled him out of the car and spanked his butt and I told him that kicking was a NO NO! I tell him to carry in his toys...He is still screaming that he wants his dad, he wont take his toys, so I pretend to throw them in the trash...nothing - he doesn't care he just wants his dad. i go to get Landry out of the car, Logan is trying to block me, all the while saying, "Mommy get in the car and take me to Daddy!" Oh if only I could!!! LOL I get Landry and start walking to the front door, but Logan is trying to push me back to the car...Once I open te door and get in the house, he refuses to come inside...at that point I am tired of the shenanigans, so I pick him up bring him in, put him in time out, where he sits screaming, I tell him that he can get up when he stops crying. After a few minutes he starts to calm down, And just as I am about to let him up he starts crying that he wants an ICEE from the corner store...OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!! (And this is why bribing is no bueno...we used to say if your good, I'll get you an Icee.) ANyway, he finally calmed down...but it took about 10 minutes. After all was said and done, we talked, he said he was sorry. When JR got home, he was so freaking happy to see his daddy...Geez!
So the point is, be careful on bribing your kids...if you do it too much, they will start to ask for something everytime they do what you ask...and for those of you who have a child like mine - where nothing really works except for having the patience to wait out the tantrum...Good luck!

oops!!!

Sorry, I have been absent for a while, but I hardly have had time in the last week and a half. I have been out applying for jobs, going on interviews, and taking care of the kids. Whew! I have just been busy. So Here is a little bit of what life has been like!
Two weekends ago we went out to our friends lake house with a group of people. It was ok...not what I thought it would be, but I still had a good time (in little chunks)! I invited my sister to come out because I knew she wouldn't have her kids that weekend, but she didn't get there until around 6 on Saturday. JR and I got there about 7:30 on Friday. It was really great Friday night, we sat around and talked with Chris, Katy, Scott, and Ashley, we drank, and just had a really good time. Then the rest of the group showed up on Saturday. This is where things got tricky. During dnner Ashley and another friend Lauren were talking about a bachelorette party of another friends in which turned out to be not so fun...and our friend Keith thought that they were actually fighting...I have to admit that I thought they were fighting too...so Keith yells at them telling them to stop - no more! Well then Ashley (thinking that Keith is joking) starts popping off to Keith. Keith starts to get his friends to tell them that they are leaving, when Lauren (who came with Keith) explains that she and Ashley were only talking and not fighting. Then my sister gets completely sloshed and I am babysitting her...she wont leave my side, and she is trying to avoid one of the guys that came with Keith...John, because he kept hitting on her and following her around...she was uncomfortable, so she just drank MORE! by 9:00 she could barely stand up, I wasn't having any fun, she was making an ass out of herself, and I was embarrassed so I finally had enough and told her hold embarrassing she was. She finally said she was ready to just go to bed! YAY!....She was sleeping on a pull out couch in our room, so I had to keep telling her to please be quiet and not wake the baby...ughhh! So finally I feel like I can have a good time. By the way (I have had two beers in the course of 6 hours) So I go and pour myself a whiskey and coke. Apparently, the fact that I dont drink whiskey and the fact that I was about to start made me a crybaby, because every time I turned around I was crying. So I was embarrassed again and decided to call it a night...I didn't want to make a fool out of myself. But I will say that I spent a lot of time cracking up laughing as well. The only time I started crying was when everyone else would get in a fight...seriously - people were fighting left and right and it made me so sad. Luckily, I was able to cry unnoticed, but still, I put myself to bed---but on my way out to our litle cottage, I tripped over a stupid horseshoe stake, and fell down HARD. I bruised my hip pretty badly and when I hit the ground my knee popped...I tried to stand up and could barely do it, but I was so incredibly embarrassed that I forced my self to laugh it off and continue to the guest house. I get up the next morning to find that my knee was HUGE and I could barely walk...not good. So I went to the doctor on Tuesday. I have mentioned before that I have torn the meniscus in both of my knees...well when I fell, I apparently Ripped it apart even more as well and an incomplete Posterior cruciate ligament tear. the doctor said I could have surgery for the meniscus tear but that I would just need to do a few things for the PCL to heal. I decided agaisnt surgery. I figure I am not going to pay for knee surgery twice (or three times) because I had him take my blood, I wanted to be tested for arthritis, which I DO HAVE (shocker). So I figure with all the scar tissue because of my knee injuries, and the arthritis eating away at my bones, I will most likely have to have my knees replaced sometime in the future anyway!
This past Friday, my dad and the Wimberley Texans played their first play off game and won 55-20. They are 11-0. I am so proud of my dad! He really is amazing, we will play Cuero (AGAIN) for round 2 of the playoffs this Friday...I am really nervous. I know we beat them the first time we played them, but that was the first game - and I am sure that both teams have improved a lot since then. Plus we are missing 3 or 4 of our key players...:( But we have been winning without them, so hopefully it will be okay.
And lastly, Logan is doing an amazing job at pooping in the potty! No accidents in the last week and a half!!! Another thing is, I was working with Logan on his colors a long time ago, and I was so proud of him when he learned them, so I moved on to shapes...but nothing seemed to work, so At Landry's 1st birthday our friend Nikki bought Landry and little shape sorter and Logan really liked it...he started asking me what the shapes were called so I told him and he pickked it up very quickly...I still think this is wierd because when I was trying to teach him shapes, I would draw them, I bought flash cards, and I bought a darn shape sorter...that he had NO interest in! LOL I guess it is all in the timing. Another thing Nikki got for Landry were these bathtime letters and numbers. you simply put them in the bathtub with the kids and then they just stick to the wall. So I decided it was time to learn the ABC's....he knows the song (even though he skips a few letters when he sings) but I wanted him to really identify the letters. So I started with the first 3...ABC - but all he wanted was to play with his bath blocks that he has played with since HIS first birthday. So I gave up, and went back to our original game where I hold up a block and ask, what color is this, then he tells me, then I say what animal is this, and he tells me, and then I noticed that each block has a number on it, so I decided to teach him the numbers...He picked it up pretty quickly. He still gets the 6 and the 9 mixed up, but, now he knows his numbers!! So We are still working on the letters...He finally got the A, B, C, O, and S...haha - today I think we will work on D,E,F...and then see if he remembers ABC....and just add on. I wish I knew what they taught in kindergarten...I have this huge fear that he will start school and be so far behind everyone, because he didn't go to daycare, or because I just didn't do a good enough job as a parent...I am almost certain that he will enter school and be behind in social skills...ughhh I really need to get him in a mother's day out program, but FIRST I have to get a freaking job! So I am going to another interview today...maybe this will be "the one"! Seriously, I have filled out about 80 apllications...and still - I have no job! Grrrrrrr

looking forward

There are so many things to look forward to today...#1 its Thursday - that means Grey's Anatomy and PRIVATE PRACTICE comes on tonight...seriously...I can not wait for private practice tonight. I have a feeling that because of the attack Charlotte isn't going to be able to have children. We will see!!! I also have to run to HEB at some time today to go order a birthday cake for Ashley for this weekend. Her husband Scott says we should order a Twilight or Harry Potter cake.....bwahahaha - the woman is turning 30, but it is kind of sweet that he wants to do something special for her. Tomorrow I have to get all of us packed up, we will meet up with JR when he gets off of work and will head off to our Friend's Chris and Katy Waltershiedt's lake house for the Waltersheidt Wurstfest! We will be meeting up with a group of friends, including Scott and Ashley and will celebrate her 30th birthday with her as well!! I am so ready to get out of town for the weekend and just enjoy ourselves. I was REALLY hoping that we could leave the kids with my sister or my parents - but, they are coming with us!!! We will see how it goes...I am going to be bringing lots of warm clothing since it will be around 30 degrees tomorrow night! YIKES!

Trick or treat

So, I thought I would share our Halloween Story!
My sister Randi an her two kids came over on Saturday. Randi needed help with her math homework so here they were. I dont know what it is, but her children REALLY GET ON MY NERVES! I love them, I really do...but I just can't handle them in big doses. For some reason Randi decided to go all the way home to get the kids halloween costumes even though I tol her no one would be out on Saturday night...but what do I know, right! So anyway, they didn't get back until nearly 8 in which she realized no one would be trick or treating. So they decided to stay the night. UGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
So Sunday, all the kids woke up and I made them all cereal. Landry, Logan, and Isaiah all got coffee cups of dry cereal and when they finished, Logan and Isaiah noticed that Isabella had a bowl with milk...so then they wanted milk. Logan asked for a bowl, but Isaiah wanted to keep the coffee mug...whatever - It was pretty sweet to have them all sitting at the table eating...Although it wasn't silent...Isabella and Isaiah, shovel food in their mouths and then it is so full that they have to leave their mouths open to eat so all you hear is smack smack smack....I can't stand that. It literally makes me fell sick. Anyway, the day went on...and because the kids had all been playing so hard, we gave them all a bath before getting into the costumes. It was so funny...I put all four of them in one tub...Landry was only in there for about 10 minutes...and she was pissed that I took her out. After I got her lotioned, diapered, and dressed, I gave her a bottle and went after Logan. JR got Logan dressed, while I actually put some real clothes on!
At 7:30 we took some photos and then hit the sidewalk. Landry was so funny. She sat in the stroller and didn't move. Since she goes to bed at 7:30 I had expected crying and screaming and a very short trick or treat evening...but she never made a sound. She just sat in the stroller and that was it. Isabella and Isaiah ran off and left us in the dust after each house...then they would get to the next house and have to wait for us to get there...you would think they would have figured it out and stopped running, but they didn't. Logan did great he made it a block and a half before he just couldn't go any further. He would get to the house and say Trrrriiiiccckkkk oooooooorr ttrrrrreeeeeeeaat....long and slow. Then he would say thhhaaaaannnnnnnkkkks. So JR decided to take him home. JR said they made it all the way down one street and then Logan started to veer off...JR would look at him and his eyes would be closed, as if he was falling asleep while he walked, so JR carried him the rest of the way home. The rest of us went another block and a half and came home...by that time it was close to 9 and Landry had been sleeping in the stroller since 8. So I got her home changed and in bed and that was that! Happy halloween!

Familly Drama! Grrr!

So as I have mentioned before none of JR's family was able to make it for Landry's party two weeks ago. Well, okay - so they couldn't make it. It would have been nice for ONE of them to make it, but it was especially hurtful that collectively none of them could make it. But to make things worse that family is FAKE. They drive me nuts. When JR and I first met, I wanted his family to like me. I got sucked in to their crazy gossip, but when I first met them all they did was talk badly about Lisa - JR's brother's wife. At the time they weren't married yet, and I had only met her once but I just went along with what they all said because, I figured hey if all three of these ADULT women feel this way and what they are saying is true, then Lisa must not be a very good person. Then we all got together and I was amazed to see how they all flocked to her, were so nice to her...It was Mother's day 2007 that I realized for the first time, that if I was going to hang out with these women or try to fit in with them, I would have to revert back to high school...something I wasn't willing to do.
They do all these things that drive me nuts. Brittany gets upset (or acts like she does) when Logan doesn't want to hug her...ummmmmm He doesn't know you. I mean come on he only sees her a handful of times in a single year....he doesn't know who she is. This past year has been much better now that he is older...but whatever, you can't expect a 3 year old to be so excited to see someone that he only sees 4 times a year. Anyway, there are a lot of thing that are pretty little, just like this - but they drive me crazy.
Another thing that they do is comment on my facebook...oh I love him...Oh I miss them sooo much! - Can't wait to see them! - BULLSHIT - you have every chance to see them, you just choose not to....unless of course it benefits them in some way....i.e - Oh, we miss you guys and want to see your new house. Is there a weekend we can come down. - Oh and by the way, we are going to bring a flock of friends, all stay at your house so we dont have to spend money on a hotel room, and then go float the river!! Thanks, it was so good to see you!
So, I have been deleting the comments on my facebook....I know its childish, but I dont want their fake ass comments on my page. Then on Friday Lacy commented for the first time in- I dont know, 6-7 months - and of course I deleted it. She followed up by sending me an email, demanding to know why I was deleting the comments, and then gave me an ultimatum saying that if I didn't respond to the email - her HOUSTON family was done with me! LOL My first reaction was to respond...oh I had so many things to say...BUT - I chose not to. THe thing is, I know these women...its all about the drama with them - and I am not going to fuel the fire. I have nothing nice to say to them, so I just wont say anything at all. But what is funny about her being the one to email me is this....Lisa and Brittany cried to Lacy because neither of them has the guts to say something on their own...so they cried to Lacy she posted a comment, and then went back to check if it was deleted, then emailed me. Now Carol is bitching that I am not understanding enough...Fuck you - Your right, I dont understand how you can go on a cruise at a moment's notice, but you cant save up some gas money to come to your ONLY granddaughter's 1st birthday! Hmmm...Brittany couldn't make it because she didn't think her car would make it, Carol couldn't come because she didn't have money for gas...seems to me they could ride together and split the gas money! Whoa...a solution to both of their problems! The truth is, they didn't come because they weren't going to get anything out of it! My kids deserve better than that. I am just sad that my kids dont have wonderful grandmother like I did, and still do. BOTH, my mom and carol SUCK as a grandparent!

POOPIES

So Logan has yet to poop in the potty again...The night after his triumph he pooped in his diaper while he waws sleeping - SO, I can't really be upset...but JR thinks he waited on purpose. Hmmmm. Last night he said he had to poop, so we sat him on the potty - where he stayed for nearly an hour with no success. He finally got off the toilet, but he never pooped...I checked him this morning, but there was still no poop...so I guess we will see what happens today.
Landry on the other hand has some digestive problems as well. She gets constipated very easily and it is terrible. When she does poop, it usually comes out as little pebbles. The worst is when she physically can NOT push it out and we have to help her...I wont go in to how we do that, but it isn't pleasant for anyone. I discussed this with her doctor and she told me the usual stuff, try juices, dried fruits, prunes. So I gave her some prunes, but the next day she had a rash all over her chest stomach and back. Now it could be an allergy, but most likely her excema (cant spell)just had a flare up. She has a form of excema that only affects her stomach, chest, and back....so I do not believe that the rash was due to an allergy. Her doctor says that it should fade out over time...that she basically just has extra sensative skin. Anyway, on the second day I gave her another container of pureed prunes....and still she was only pooping little balls. Then I guess it all caught up with her, because - well, she pooped like a regular baby - sadly, it only last one day and now the little balls are back...I really dont want to have feed her prunes every day of her life, but pooping like a deer - can't be fun.
Anyway....enough about poop! Have a great Friday, and an even better weekend!

Logan Pooped in the potty!

Well, my laptop has been hanging by a string for about 8 months now. But I was determined to use it until it couldn't be used anymore...much like my car! LOL So last week Logan spilled a glass of milk on it - and that was it! So now we just have JR's laptop. Ughhh! It drives me crazy not having a computer! But, JR said that maybe I could ask santa for an iPad. I would love to have one...but the thing is - I just dont think I could get used to not having actually keys to type on. So I think I will just get a new laptop. My computer had a little SD port where all I had to do was take my card out of my camera and put it in my computer...JR's does not have this so it makes it difficult to upload pictures because SOMEONE seems to have broken my USB SD transfer thingy...yuck.
So here is the big news...Logan Finally pooped in the potty last night. It has been a long time coming, but JR and I talked about it yesterday an made the decision to not give him a diaper when he asks anymore. Logan has been able to pee in the potty for over a year now...and other than the occasional accient it has been wonderful. When he feels like he needs to pee he comes and asks for a diaper, and then he also gets a diaper to sleep in. I have tried to end this stage several times, but I tell JR...NO MORE DIAPERS...MAKE HIM SIT ON THE POTTY, and then I turn aroun and he is pooping in a diaper! But this time it was JR who brought it up, so I thought hey - maybe he will stick with it! Sure enough, after we finished the pumpkin and I was making the kids dinner plates, Logan asked for a diaper. JR took him to the bathroom and sat him on the toilet while I changed Ladnry's poopy diaper! Logan was SCREAMING. He is seriously afraid of sitting on the toilet, and I have no idea why. I fed Landry, then went to check on Logan..he was so pathetic it was awful. So I asked him if he wanted some green beans. A friend of mine told be to give them a bowl of candy while they sit on the toilet, but I hate the idea of giving him candy to just eat while he is on the toilet, so I thought I would try grapes...but I haven't gone to the store yet, So the kid got a bowl of green beans. He must have misunderstood. I think he thought that he could get OFF the potty as soon as he finished the green beans...so he was shoving them in his mouth so fast that I had to take the bowl from him so he could swallow! LOL After being on the toilet for 23 minutes I asked if we should let him off. JR said, NO. But, we had a new idea. I went to the garage to get a little table, and We put it in front of the toilet and put the laptop on it and let him play Go Diego Go. In total, he was on the toilet for 37 minutes...NO POOP! So, I let him go eat, but I wouldn't put a diaper on him. JR took Landry to bed and went to sleep himself, and about 9:15 Logan asked for a diaper...so I took the computer back in the bathroom, and set him on the toilet, AGAIN! He screamed at first, calmed down and played a game. After 15 minutes, he is yelling Mom, MOM, Momma...So I go in, and he says...I DID IT!!! I look in the bowl and sure enough....there is a big turd!!! I was so happy...I wiped his butt, and we ran upstairs, woke up daddy and told him the good news!!! JR was able to show excitement and give big hugs and kisses and we told him how proud we were...he was even blushing! Hopefully this will continue!!! He has such a fear of sitting on the toilet that I just kept thinking, if we can get him to do it, JUST ONCE, maybe he wont be scared anymore! So I guess we will see.

grrr...

Well, I haven't said anything about this yet, but here goes...Landry's party was on Saturday. My sister and her kids ended up staying the night and stayed ALL DAY Sunday. I remember thinking over and over - please go home...but I didn't say anything. As time went on I got more and more irritated. Then when she took a nap and left JR and I to watch her kids, my irritation grew to anger. They FINALLY left a little after 5...I was so glad. Finally I was able to take a little nap. So about 8:00 I went upstairs to get my phone that was on the charger when I see that I have just recieved a text...from Randi. It says, "Hey sister, the kids and I need a place to stay. Mom told me to get my shit and get out." So let me just say...I have no patience at this point, I dont want to deal with this...WHY can't they just work it out and not put me in the middle? But, she is my sister...and I will never let one of my family members sleep out on the street. So, as I walk downstairs to talk to JR about this, my mom sends me a message through facebook that says, "Are you inviting your sister to live with you?" I stop...my irritation grows - I am pretty much boiled over and my patience is completely gone. I do NOT want to deal with a 47 years old and a 29 year old who can't seem to grow up and handle their own problems. So as all these thoughts scream through my brain I finally get ALMOST all the way downstairs when my phone rings...its my mom. I look at JR and say, "This isn't going to be good." I can't even remember the entire conversation because I was so mad. But, I remember my mom threatening me saying that if I let Randi stay then our relationship was over. And then came threat TWO...If you let her through your door, your keeping her.
That is where I lost all reason - I blew up. I remember saying, "You are NOT going to threaten me." "Ya'll need to work this out." "You will NOT tell me who I can and can not have at my house." "She isn't my responsibility, she is an adult who should be on her own...but you have enables her behavior and allowed her to continue on this path. She is YOUR responsibility not mine." I dont remember how it came out I just remember saying these things...and i will admit...I YELLED these things. I ended up hanging up on her. I handled everything really really badly...I have no excuse other than I was tired, worn out, and irritated to begin with -but still I should have handled it better.
To even the score, my sister called and I went off on her too...not as badly as I did my mom..But I told her she needed to grow up. I told her that if she really thought she could raise her kids without the help of my parents then she was delusional. She likes to put off this persona that she doesn't need them or anyone else..so I say to her, "Let's think about this. You dont pay rent, electricity, water, trash...nothing! You pay NO bills except your car note, $30 phone, and insurance...and after that and your gas, you have no money left. Trust me - YOU CAN NOT DO IT ALONE." Then I told her, "Stop spending money on pot, you dont have to drink EVERYDAY - put some of that money in savings and really work on getting out on your own." The truth is, she has no plans on leaving...why would she - I mean yeah, she has to deal with mom....but other than that - she has a pretty sweet deal!
To top all of this off...they have now reconciled....but both are PISSED off at me! HAHAHAHA Wouldn't you know it! I have nothing to do with their stupid fight...they each drag me into the middle of the damn fight...and because I didn't pet their feathers and tell them how wonderful they are - I am the bad guy, and they are pissed at me! STORY OF MY LIFE!
AWESOME!
Seriously...I am ready to just completely do away with all of my family and JR's family....
Why can't we just have a few normal members??? Well, actually we do! And I should say right now how thankful I am to have my Dad and my little sister Vanessa! I love them so much.
Some other family that I want to say thank you for... Dana - you might as well be my sister - I love you! Nikki, Travis, Aiden - you guys are like our favorite cousins that we grew up with. We dont have to talk everyday or even every week, but you will always be part of our lives. We love you too!

A love letter

What do you say to someone so small? Someone who doesn't really understand your words at all. I say, "I love you," of course. We all do. But here is something you can read later to get you through.
My beautiful little girl,
I can not begin to tell you the amount of love I have for you. You are the sun, the moon, and the stars. You are my everything. As time goes by, and believe me it goes by too fast, there will be twists and turns along the path. There are so many things that I want for you. I want you to be healthy and happy. I want you to find something you love in life and go for it full force. I want you to find someone you can give your whole heart to and in return they will give your theirs. All of these things will come later in life and I can't wait to see you blossom over the years. Even though you are still a baby I often think about the future you. I think about what you will look like at 5, with your big blue eyes and curly red hair just past your shoulders. I think about you at 15, with your teenage attitude, rolling those big blue eyes at me and telling me that I dont understand. I promise you that I do, I have been there before - but you dont believe me, just as I didn't believe my mother. I think of you at your highschool graduation, while tears stream my face with such love and admiration for the woman you are becoming, you are just excited to branch out on your own. I think of you at you college graduation and I see your own pride - in yourself, in your family, and in life. The next part gets harder, because I see your daddy walking you down the aisle, I hear the minister asking who gives you away, and your daddy replying, "Her mother and I do." I hear your voice on the other end of the telephone telling me, "it's time, mom. I'm in labor." I will be screaming at your father to hurry up, and then I will be right by your side as this journey comes full circle and you have your own little baby.
While I realize that we have a good 17 more years together before you embark on life on your own, I know that it all goes so fast. It feels like I was just at the hospital giving birth to you and now you are a year old. You are already getting so big. It is such a strange thing, being a mother...part of my heart is breaking because the time goes by so fast, and soon will not want the hugs and kisses and cuddles. The other larger part of my heart is just so proud ans how you have developed over this past year and looking forward I am already proud of your future accomplishments. There is nothing you could EVER do to lose my love. You are my princess. I will love you until the sun no longer rises.
A few things you can do:
You can say: Mama, Dada, Baba (we are pretty sure you use this for both "bottle" and "brother"), nana (which is night night)
you can crawl faster than any baby I have ever seen, you are working on walking and can cruise quite nicely. In fact you are great at walking as long as you can hold on to something.
You can stand up all on your own.
You are a magnificent dancer, just like your mommy!
You are a wonderful eater
You have the kindest, sweetest heart.
There is so much more, I am so incredibly proud of you, and I love you more than I can express in words.

Birthday Weekend

So my baby girl turned 1 on Friday. I literally can not believe it. I will need to make a special post just for her but for now, let me just say that she is the sweetest child in the world! (At least according to me!!!)
Friday I took Landry to the doctor for her one year check-up and shots - she weighs 19.1 lbs and is 28.5 inches long. She is in the 20% percentile for her weight and the 31% for height. She is so petite! So out of curiousity I looked up Logans height and weight at one year. He weighed 26.4 lbs. (90th %) and was 31.5 in (90th %). So as you can see, there is a big difference between my kids and it baffles me everytime I think about it. After the appointment we were heading to the store to get party supplies, but I missed my exit and decided to go the the next Wal-Mart in Buda....then I realized how badly I had to pee so I stopped at home. The kids were tired and cranky - but I was in a hurry so I jumped back in the car and we headed out. Thank the lord JR called andsaid he was on his way home...I turned around went home and told him he could stay with the kids while I went to the store! I spent two hours at wal-mart and didn't even get the groceries - I was so overwhelmed that I just took what I had and went home. Then we left for the football game. I was exhausted!! The Wimberley Texans are now 7-0 they won 38-18. We left right after the game and when we got home, I finished up some stuff around the house. I got up on Saturday to vacuum and do the final sweep...then I waited for JR to get home from work. Once he walked through the door was out headed to HEB for more supplies and groceries. Nikki and Travis arrived as I was heading home, and luckily I was able to get everything set up. It was nice to have a chance to talk and catch up with them before everyone arrived. HAHA that is funny because the party was supposed to start at 2 and everyone else arrived at 3!!! Except for my sister and her kids who were on time! Anyway, the party was good. Sunday was a recovery day - and honestly I think I need another day. I will explainmore later - but this is too long and I am tired! LOL

Birthday Bash!

Okay when I have to clean my house for something important - i.e. a birthday party - I usually make a detailed list. I am a list maker! Actually I make more than one list, but we'll talk about that later. So I am more than half way finished on my THING TO DO AT HOME list and I should be finished by late afternoon....except for the garage and the mowing - but that is for JR.
JR and I got to talking after I got off the phone with my best friend Dana. She unfortunately isn't going to make it and wanted to call and send her apologies. So I started making my grocery store list and JR asked if I had a head count of how many people were coming...ummm no - because I guess when people see rsvp - they think it meanseveryone else should rsvp - the problem with that thinking is that everyone thinks it! LOL So I assume that the people that didn't rsvp aren't coming...I dont know what etiquette says...do you only rsvp if you are coming? hmmm...ANyway, so I was naming off the people that I knew were coming FOR SURE and we have 10 adults...and with the exception of 2 of those adults (Nikki and Travis) they are all related to me. My mom, dad, sister, aunt, uncle, cousins. there are still some maybe's out there and a friend of mine who may be coming a little late, and then another friend of ours, Keith. I still can't get over the "maybe" people...Hello - today is Thursday - what is going to pop up between now and then? As you can see - No one from JR's family is coming. He talked to his mom last night. She said she didn't have the money...but yet she can go on a cruise with only a weeks notice! It is so ridiculous...trust me 0 I understand not having money...REALLY I get it, but I dont think I could ever miss my grandchilds birthday. JR was so pissed. When he got off the phone he said he had text Brittany (his sister) earlier that day to see if she was coming and she said it depended on whether or not their mom came so they could ride together. So theres that. Then, to add to that family - yesterday I got a text message from Lisa (JR's brother's wife) at 10:30 in the morning that said, "miss u" I thought about saying - well I will see you this weekend...but I chose to just ignore it. It is just so crappy of them...I am more hurt by Jason and Lisa not coming than by anyone else in that family because when we lived in Spring Lisa and I got really close and I considered her my friend, not just a sister in law. When we went to Houston for Davin's 4th birthday, she gave us such a guilt trip for not staying with them, that we changed our plans and stayed at their house. She was telling me how she missed me and wanted me to stay there so we could talk and catch up. Well, while we were talking and catching up, we talked about how Carol (JR's mom) didn't go to Davin's party because - oh SURPRISE SURPRISE, she went on a cruise - Lisa was saying how she was hurt and I predicted that Carol wouldn't come to Landry's party either - I also predicted that she would say it was because of money or becuase of her dogs...SHE DID BOTH. Lisa made the comment, "I WOULD NEVER MISS LANDRY'S FIRST BIRTHDAY" Whatever!
So JR said that he was serious and that we WOULD NOT be traveling to see ANY of them during the holidays...I reminded him we had to go to Galveston because of my grandmother and that it wouldn't be very nice to go there and not see his mother. He said he didn't care - that it wasn't going to happen. I started to try and discuss this with him, but decided to wait a little while to when he calms down. I told him I couldn't wait until Davin's 5th birthday....he said why - I said, "Well because Logan will be playing T-ball at that point." He said, yeah - but I dont think like Jason and Lisa - I think its perfectly fine to miss a t-ball game for a cousin's birthday party. And I said, "Exactly, I can't wait to say - well, Logan has a T-ball game, but we will be there anyway. We want to teach our children that family comes before sports." I mean seriously the kid is 4 years old...he can miss a damn game! Ughh that family seriously just pisses me off!
My next prediction....Not a single one of them will send her a card!

Movin and groovin!

Landry's Party is SATURDAY!!! ahhhhhhhhh! How will I ever get it all done in time? Yesterday, I went to Hobby Lobby to pick out the material I needed for her Birthday tutu! I ordered her cupcakes from HEB, I ran a few errands around town. then I was supposed to come home and start cleaning...but I was so tired I just sat! So today, I am up and I am staying at the house...even though I have a ton of things I still need to buy....including LANDRY'S present! LOL But....this house needs WORK. Actually, other than the laundry, if I had someone over right this second, my house appears clean...BUT - I want to give the house a thorough cleaning, because to my eye - the house is disgusting! The baseboards are nasty, the pictures need to be dusted, the cabinets need to be cleaned - there is dust everywhere. I need to clean up my craft area....there is a lot that needs to be done - so if I can get a little bit done each day, I should be okay, right? I just hope I get everything done in time.
So - some good news - every since the night I left the note for the neighbors about the dogs...they have taken them in at night! Whew! It has been nice to sleep through the night again.
Well - I gotta get busy!

6th street.....the devil!

Friday night my little family headed to Wimberley for my Dad's football game. It was homecoming so my little sister was in town - and I was happy to see her. The football game was pretty boring, The first string only played for the 1st quarter and just a few minutes into the second quarter before second string went in. We were winning 42 - 0 at halftime, so when we took the field again, the remainder of the game was split between 2nd and 3rd string. The final score was 52 - 0. After the game, we did the usual - we went to the coaches after party...I was exhausted so we only stayed about an hour. I fell asleep before my head hit the pillow!
Saturday I got up at 8 and started getting ready and everything packed for JR's company picnic. I got Landry up at 8:30. JR said we needed to leave by 9...but he didn't get out of bed until 8:45, and I was stuck waking up the Logan monster and getting him dressed. we didn't leave until 9:30 and once again I had the same talk with JR that I have everytime we have to go somewhere. He waits until the last minute to get up - he say it because it only takes him 5 minutes to get ready. I say yes, but it isn't just about you, you could pack teh diaper bag, get the bottles ready, help get the kids dressed, there are many things that could be done in order to help out. He says...yeah your right, I am sorry. But I guess he isn't really sorry, because it is literally the same thing EVERY time. Anyway, his company was celebrating 25 years so they had this get together at a place called reunion ranch in Georgetown. It was really a neat place. JR and his partner won a trophy for horseshoes, his team came in second to the Houston office in Basketball. I got to play volleyball in his place and we got the trophy by beating both the Houston and Dallas office! It was such a blast. One really cool thing was that shortly after getting there they had a kid round up....they had all these staff-members, one for every child and they came and took all the kids the the kid area. Logan got to do all this cool stuff...they had a balloon pop, an obstacle course, a maze, several play areas...Logan really just wanted to go down the slide over and over again, but it was great. I kept Landry but Logan went off with the rest of the kids and after about 5 minutes of having Landry by myself while JR played horseshoes, I was so happy to not have to deal with them both. We headed home at 2:45 and I was fighting to stay awake for the entirety of the trip. We had plans to go out that night with my sisters so as soon as I walked through my front door I went straight upstairs and took a nap! I was so tired. I got up a few hours later and started packing for the kids and getting ready. We got to my parents house about 9:00 I put Landry down and we hung around to make sure she was really asleep. Then my sisters, JR, and I climbed in our car and headed for 6th street. I have yet to conquerr 6th street...I doubt if I ever will, but we had a blast. I can't remember the last time we had so much fun without the kids. Of course, my mom offered to watch the kids and then complained the entire time...except that she did it by texting Vanessa and not me. Apparently Landry woke up at midnight and stayed up until almost 2. We went to several different bars and met up with an old friend of ours, T.j., who was in town for ACL. by that point I was DRUNK and I dont really remember it all. On the way home, I threw up - several times, then passed out. I woke up in my sisters bed and realized we must have decided to stay at my parents! LOL
We stayed at my parents until 2:00, at which point I thought I could safely travel without getting sick. We went home and I took a nap, so did Landry, Logan and JR! haha. The rest of the day was spent watching football and relaxing.
Today - I must get some stuff done for Landry's party on Saturday!!!

Preparations!!!

Making decisions and preparations is what is going on right now. I dont handle stress very well. I dont like to be stressed (who does), but I literally dont handle it well. The idea that "it will all work out" doesn't bode well with me. I think it might have something to do with my control issues. DUH! I need a plan! Throw planning stress in with money stress...and get out of my way - This is why we cancelled all of our wedding plans and went to Vegas (the hurricane just pushed me over the edge), this is why I cancelled my baby shower with Landry - I was so irritated with JR's family...I didn't want my family travelling for hours when JR's family couldn't come 30 minutes. There were other issues as well, but - I couldn't handle it. So I am trying get everything planned out as to how I want it. I made the decision to axe the moonwalk...we are going with cupcakes...and I have a few ideas on what I want for the goody bags. So tomorrow - I am headed to the party store and many other errands for plates, cups, napkins, going to look at the cupcake selection, going to get stuff for the goody bags. I have taken a new approach to this shin dig though......I am not doing this for everyone else (although, I do want everyone to have a good time) I am am doing this for Landry Bell -
So, last week JR and I were enjoying playing with the kids in the front yard - we took a little walk with Landry in the stroller just to enjoy the weather...and when we came back to our street several of our neighbors were outside talking. Our next door neighbor, Joe, said hey - did the usual hellos and introduced us to some of the others on the block. Then said that they were just talking about the new neighbors who moved in next door to us...So we got to talking about their dogs! They have three pitbulls...and while I am not a big fan of pitbulls, it isn't their breed that gives me problems...They Bark ALL night long. Aparently it isn't just my family that is annoyed with it. So a woman and her husband, Julie and Mark, said that they were going to write a note to them and leave it on their door. Julie just had a baby 3 weeks ago, so she is already exhausted! So We made a plan that someone would write them a note each night that the dogs were barking, and after one week we would call the home owner's association and each complain and Joe was going to call the local police dept. to see what could be done. The last two nights have been SO MUCH BETTER - there is still barking, but not nearly as bad...LAST NIGHT however was back to BAD! So at 10:00 I said - screw the note, I am talking to these people....I knocked and knocked and knocked. I rang the door bell...no answer, so I went home and wrote a note, went back over and knocked again...but this time - there was already a note taped to their front door from another neighbor! I laughed, and didn't know what to do with my note, so I stuck it on te windshield of one of their cars! LOL I am meeting up with the neighbors this evening to see what our next course of action will be....and truth be told, the dogs did finally quiet down around 2:00 am - but its ridiculous!
The other sleep hazard going on is that they are doing something behind our houses on our street. When we first moved in, their was a lot of construction going on becuase there were only about 6 houses on our street....now there are only 2 lots left, and all the other houses are completed. We were happy about where our house was because there is a little retention area behind our street that fills up wth heavy rains....so we were sure that there would be no builing back there. NOW, all of a sudden about a week ago, I get woken up with the sound of squeeling, loud, obnoxious tractors and bulldozers. UGHHHH! I am thinking, or at least hoping - that they are just widening the gulley - because any house that get's built there is sure to flood. Hopefully they are smart enought to know this, and they are just widening it to try to fix the flooding problem. I dont know - it is really annoying....the dogs dont stop barking until 2, the bulldozers start at 7....grrr! Luckily they dont work on the weekends! Whew!
Another thing that is exciting and I am hoping really makes a difference - we have now had our windows open for 10 days. I am excited to see what our electricity bill will be like. I really hope it actually makes a difference. I love this weather, it's so perfect, it isn't to the point where it is SOOOOO cold, but I can still wear a light sweater and I love it! I LOVE SWEATERS!!!! I was so happy to get them all out of the closet!!! Woooohooo!

new things happening

Well, I have been applying for jobs for almost 2 months now. I have had 3 interviews but no call backs. I am pretty much completely discouraged - depressed, and I feel like a complete and utter loser.
On top of that, I may be about to start - because I have been pretty emotional lately. On Monday, I called JR to tell him about Alexa having her baby. I guess I was talking a lot or something...but I was talking about how hard it is to remember how small newborns are, how I miss nursing...anyway - he kind of snapped at me and told me that we werne't having anymore kids. Now, really I was just feeling nolstagic - I wasn't trying to hint at another baby..hello, my baby isn't even 1 yet!!! But it was just the way he said it, and it really upset me. I think I have mentioned a few times before that I am not prepared to have a another child right now or anytime soon. I came to the conclusion a while back ago that if we never have another child, I would be quite content with the two marvelous children that I have - but if somewhere down the road (i.e. 3-5 years) we wanted to have another one - that door wouldn't be shut. So, the way he snapped at me, and said some things just really hurt. So, I just got off the phone with him - I cried for a few minutes and he called back to ask what was wrong and why I got off the phone with him - I told him I just hadn't realized he had completely shut the door on another child. I mean, I tell people that we are done having kids all the time...but I guess I always knew that the door was completely closed for me. I dont know - like I said I am emotional!
Yesterday was a strange day too - I cried at stupid shows, I ran to the store and cried through an entire country song...and not just oh, that's a sad song...but full on crying! Not to mention that EVERY thing that JR said to me irritated me. I dont know why - he wasn't being mean or annoying or anything - I was just in a strange mood and everything he did got on my nerves. So here comes Wednesday - filling out more applications - still trying to figure out some things for Landry's party...getting a little scared at how close it is - I wanted to get a moonwalk for all the kids...but I am a little scared - because Landry can't even walk...Logan will have a blast as well as the other 9 kids that are supposively coming, but I am not sure where to put it because I wanted to put it in the backyard with the playscape - but the ground isn't very level, and I dont really want to put it in the front yard. So that is still up in the air - BUT I need to make a decision FAST to make the reservation! Then I need to make some goody bags for the kids - but I dont know what to put in a goody bag! LOL - Anyway, I am not a good party planner - I am just proud of myself for getting the invites out in time...LOL